Angry_grrrl: sorry, but no
p10pablo: Ok
p10pablo: You say so.
p10pablo: As a matter of fact. I would go so far-such a leap- to say that you get what you invest in yourself
p10pablo: And people who traditionally consider themselves "victims", "used" or just plain "fucked over" are people who neither use their smarts or sense of reason in dealing with their own life or understand the life which has shaped others around them.
p10pablo: That's what I fucking think eh,
Angry_grrrl: if you never expect anything you'll never be disappointed
p10pablo: Oh! Such sad reasoning.
p10pablo: I love you and hate to see you spend your life in such a foolish fashion eh.
Angry_grrrl: poor you eh
p10pablo: I'm ok
p10pablo: If you never expect anything in life you will be disappointed. I know this. Life is good for me, it has it's ups and downs, not some mediocrity which is so depressing that you can barely breathe, much maintain any sense of personal character, dignity or drive.
p10pablo: i dare say and must emphasize my disdain for such philosophy
p10pablo: Fuck that shit.
Angry_grrrl: right right
Angry_grrrl: good bad and mediocrity
Angry_grrrl: im glad fall is coming
p10pablo: Me too
Angry_grrrl: how do you know what philosophy i have
Angry_grrrl: i mean..
p10pablo: Ahem
Angry_grrrl: HULK MAD
p10pablo: You just commented from your manifesto and all that makes you is someone who lives in a tiny shed of one and sends little bombs to people, you are a bully and have no one to bully but yourself with that kinda reasoning
Angry_grrrl: im a bully?
Angry_grrrl: you think?
p10pablo: to yourself eh.
Angry_grrrl: oh just to ME
Angry_grrrl: gee hows that work
p10pablo: What happens is that you force yourself to contend with a flawed reason
p10pablo: Something which allows you to deal with your own fears
Angry_grrrl: sounds suspiciously counterintuitive
p10pablo: And usually makes it very possible for you to withdraw the level of work needed to make yourself a better person
p10pablo: Easy to be a Schmuck, not so easy to be enlightend and damn hard to have been a Schmuck, then enlightened and not lose your mind trying to find balance.
Angry_grrrl: schmuck!
Angry_grrrl: great great
p10pablo: Which is why we got so many Shcmucks in the world
Angry_grrrl: and I'M the one projecting
p10pablo: Hm...
p10pablo: You're twenty five, just moved out the of the house, have not finished your degree, consider yourself creative, but have little to no output. You live hand to mouth every two weeks and are over 15k in the hole
p10pablo: Yes you are projecting
Angry_grrrl: thats nothing
Angry_grrrl: so what im 25
Angry_grrrl: is that supposed to mean something?
Angry_grrrl: no degree what does that mean?
Angry_grrrl: you have some weird arbitrary line you're pointing to?
p10pablo: On the degree that failure is not instantaneous, it occurs with heavily invested time and you are investing as much time as you can to reach it. You are neither happy nor content, you are neither tortured or struggling, you are lazy and a lazy intellectual at that. The most despairing thing is not the nimrod who fixes my sandwiches at Subway, it is you and the whining you have done the last five or so years as you have pissed away your life and have every intention of doing it longer
p10pablo: Because it's easier to that.
p10pablo: Then take the risks and do the work involved in bringing yourself to some sense of personal love.