AUTHOR: Melody TITLE: Friends/Contempt STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 11/10/2003 09:12:36 AM ----- BODY: I've begun to believe that living life in the way where you don't have a firm grasp of finances or the cost of living is silly. I don't mean to pick on anyone in particular, nor to imply that not playing by all the prescribed rules of society is somehow not right; fuck that. I mean, I applaud anyone who can scam the system, or live on the fringe or even find a way to be a person who doesn't have to quite worry about the bills. I mean we all worry about money, for the most part, not in some deep way where we all dwell with some common bond on said issue, but money is an issue, or we wouldn't even talk about it. So it's commonality works in the beginning of this piece. If I can clarify it, I think it's interesting to look at the contrast with my friends who play the game (reluctantly), who play the game (well), who play the game (like a scam), or even those who play the game (not giving a fuck and relying on themselves). it's just interesting to watch. My most fascinating thoughts while writing is always (i think sadly sometimes) about the interaction of relationships. I want to go back to those days where I wrote about my insides, but I think, especially in this piece, that I understand that i'm talking about me and the contrast of my perspective in my relationships and how that contrast effects me. For example... My friend Drew, lives life on the edge, it's his edge, he sharpens it daily, he is perfectly happy with how he's living it. i respect that, and his perspective is pretty much that he loves his dog, likes the metro part of town he lives in and is ok with the ups and downs of his life. This is his life by the choosing, he's doesn't even deal with most other people, of course when he does come in contact with people, he isn't nearly as sociable as he used to be. But i think Drew's ok with this tradeoff in life. No one judges him, no one is their to judge him anyway. I have other friends who I can barely call friends though and I don't understand how they play the game. My friend Shy is someone I think of in this fashion sometimes. It's some Highschool kinda thing for me though. We hung out during our college era, we worked together for a few years, I shared holidays with many him and his girlfriends and we were connected, but then he just disappeared. I know I don' t fit in with most of his current crowd, as a matter of fact, both JLW and I seem to not fit within his core group, or any of his subset friendships. I'd like to think I have a valued subset friendship, so strong that i am comfortable with my own niche in his life, but that's not true. I orbit in his solar system, but it's a rare passing, when I drift through his skys. And Shy is worth a second paragraph. i don't even relate with him anymore, and I don't think he does with me either, and so I think in my head: Man Shy has sold out, sometimes I think, Man I never reached Shy's level (nor would I want to). And I have to ask: Am I just hating on Shy's success, and is this how I deal with my own sense of perceived weakness and lesser status. Hm... Well of course not, don't mention it to Shy, but I feel some sly sense of contempt for my friend. He seems too successful. And I don't know what that means... I do know my lesser successful friends think I'm too successful though; that's for damn sure. Why am I contemptuous, why do I even fucking care, he just does a different thing now. (read on as I try to add more thought to this concept) Shy and I have split off cause things aren't the same and that' s what happens with people where things "just aren't the same" and with all of that, I guess maybe all of that comes from the true wounded feeling, where I genuinely know I love Shy and miss him as a friend, and this is just how I cope with many of these things; where our relationship is not like it was before. That's some deep shit for me to have to dwell on and this is not a rip on my friend Shy, the same love is there, never dissipated, but I have to question myself and be honest, if i'm gonna understand my other relationships and the contempt some of my friends feel for me and I for them. And sometimes I understand that feeling, whether we misname it as a voice, or just a hurling notion, serving as an option, one of many I can choose from. And I don't think; if Shy reads this, he'll be anything but maybe wounded as a friend. We are old friends, Shy and I, I don't kow if i'm comfortable with what Old friends means to people like Shy, i'm ont sure what it means to me, that's the predicament. What is an old friendship, when it has drifted from it's heyday (it's own level of success) and whose fault is it? Now with old Jonnie, I've come to a few realizations: Jonnie is the kind of person that if he has to work up courage to do something, he needs a sacrifice. And maybe it's not fair to call it a sacrifice, I could romanticize things and say that Jonnie was such a cocksucker (as was I) in his exit, moving to ElPaso, cause it was our own manly interpretation of what it means to say goodbye. Jonnie and I, I suspect, both know that we are as good as we are bad, for each other, we generate comfortable codependent elements which give us great comfort in being renaisance men and as we all know a renaisaince man is less likely to to do as much work as a tortured artist. Just trying to keep it real. I also suspect that because Jon and I are such opposite sides of the same coin, while we do great work with each other, we also are better at different things and it is a imbalanced relationship in some respects when we realize our incompleteness. Give me some time people, I'm touching on something, cause I damm sure miss and deeply resent Jonnies dogged determination about things, and I suspect he resents my perfectionist leanings and my creative editors mentality to belive in my own superior judgment, regardless of if it is right or wrong. Granted there is a lot of arrogance in that comment and it makes some great assumptions. Jon ran away, because he wants to breathe his own way and he believes in that old school Billy Joel way of doing it his way. But at the same time, going back to the theme of contempt, Jonnie feels some contempt for me and I have a countersuit of contempt for Jonnie, interestingly I believe, Jonnie has contempt for my choices in life (or so he would say) and I have contempt that he believes he even has the right to question my judgment. But this always goes back to the seeds we sow. I am pretty practical about how I look at things and how I view relationships and progression in life. Some of my friends, even JLW sometimes, believe that I think with less then the heart of a romantic or dreamer. The truth is painful for some, realistic for me and makes it easy to assume (wrongly) that I am not still a romantic or a dreamer. Going around, watching and observing how not only the people I know, think, but how I think about things in turn. When is what we think a crime, or just a notion we have to pick from the ether, to choose how we feel, at least we're choosing. I don't have feelings in the sense that I "feel". I see choices, I take the ones which I think fit for the situation. I am not a hardliner, nor am I stuck on one way of thinking about everything. But I question when I write; what it means. I don't think so hard when i speak and that has it's consequences, but when I think... All kinds of crazy shit comes into my head, I don't even mention most of the extreme shit. I know we have as a species, had some crazy thoughts, I see them pass on the faces of people, I see people struggle to shove shit out of their minds. Why do we resist all the thoughts, if not just for a perspective that comes from seeing the whole spectrum of things. I know some people can say, Hey that's how you get NeoNazi's and proponents of hate crime. But don't we have to accept everything and consider why we even have these thoughts. I always thought so; I think it's healthier. The contempt is natural, the self doubt, which may come with the contempt, why you might have the contempt for friends of love ones, cause they are not likeminded like you, that's natural, you might feel bad thoughts. Don't we then take those thoughts, those feelings of contempt or otherwise. Don't we take them and even question why they are in our mind or why they are not in our mind, why we even assume shit? That confuses me, sometimes it's not contempt, sometimes it's admiration and that can be just as misplaced as some negative feeling. It's not about money to me, I think it was easier to start like that, I don't think it's about money or anything else, I think it's just about a feeling of loss in the relationship, sometimes we drift off and we can't just come out and say "c'ya, miss you, love you" sometimes we just get mad, that's the root of contempt. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: I have other friends who I can barely call friends though and I don't understand how they play the game. ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: education loans EMAIL: johndoe8208@see.to IP: 80.58.9.172 URL: http://www.education-loans-consultant.info/ DATE: 11/03/2004 10:09:44 PM Please visit some relevant pages in the field of chase manhattan mortgage | chase manhattan mortgage | http://www.gold-manhattan-mortgage-4u.info/ | debt help | debt help | http://www.debt-help-4u.info/ | debt consolodation | debt consolodation | http://www.debt-consolodation-consultant.info/ | mortgage calculators | mortgage calculators | http://www.mortgage-calculators-ebanking.info/ | personal loans for bad credit | personal loans for bad credit | http://www.personal-loans-for-bad-credit-ebanking.info/ | credit cards for people with bad credit | credit cards for people with bad credit | http://www.credit-cards-for-people-with-bad-credit-advisor.info/ | consolidation loan student | consolidation loan student | http://www.consolidation-loan-student-e-site.info/ | athletic shoes | athletic shoes | http://www.athletic-shoes-e-shop.info/ | personal loans bad credit | personal loans bad credit | http://www.personal-loans-bad-credit-ebanking.info/ | zero apr credit card | zero apr credit card | http://www.zero-apr-credit-card-ebanking.info/ | - Tons of interesdting stuff!!! ----- -------- AUTHOR: Melody TITLE: Supplemental:Success STATUS: Draft ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 11/10/2003 09:35:20 AM ----- BODY: Supplemental. The question we gotta ask is: Does success in it's many forms, separate friends. This also begs the other more detailed perspective and the question: What is success when it can be measured by fiscal, personal satisfaction, and often times hard to identify measures: drugs, other relationships, location relative to various communities and lifestyles. And of course we always judge these values different as they relate to us. I don't ever write and feel as if I am conveying much of what I would like to express. So this adjoining text, is a jump, adding more values to my original thought, while trying to maintain some integrity in how the thought occurred to me originally. That is the fucking challenge of writing. i have had no failure in writing poetry or reviews, articles, or story ideas. But I gotta tell you when I think about feature length work, which is a complete piece and it's volume is on par with a novel or film, or some other encapsulated form of delivery, I shake in my fucking boots. I genuinely want to fucking say something. I don't want to just write shit and that's a problem, cause I'm not letting my failure live. Failure is essential to eventual success and we run from it. It's when life gets complicated. Do I make these jumps, where things are uncertain or safe, more importantly do I actually try to do something relevant. I don't lie awake at night, questioning existence, but I do want to contribute to it in some good way, i just don't want to pollute the content community. So it's really easy to write when it's fun, or when you feel impassioned, but what happens on that faithful day when you want to really do something? We get hampered as writers or even just as the participants that we are in life, and we want to follow established path, so that we can measure ourselves, see where we are, where we are going. Course, some of us really don't want to do that, we dread it as just not contributing to the content community and that's how we find as creature, find God. So while I have a very successful site and wealth of content that I have created or collaborated on, I am kinda in a quagmire folks, cause I think I'm supposed to make feature length work and I question the relevance of many of my ideas. I've had these hurdles before and each time, a drought of creativity came with it and I'm there now. I usually spend this time, working on my career, personal sanity and sometimes just fucking off. And I don't want to pollute the content community, so sometimes I just don't do much work and grow weary of the safe conventional shit, like horoscopes, ChiChi or even 180. That kinda shit is cool, but it's for the birds, I just can't define myself, painting by numbers. Jonnie, you listening buddy? And as a general end statement, Why do motherfuckers who don't write, think they should have the righ to ask me when i'm going to write something. It's not like I want a basket of muffins or flowers. But why do people come up to me and go "So when are you gonna write something?" I'm not sensitive, i'm just always like "So when are you ever going to write something and then actually show it to somebody?" Pussies. I put too much out, to have to hear that shit, yet for some reason I do, it fucking kills me. KungFu is open guys, you write it, i'll cut it, clean it up and throw that motherfucker up there, add something, otherwise, shut the fuck up. --Paul. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: The question we gotta ask is: Does success in it's many forms, separate friends. ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Walking the line STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 01/22/2004 06:03:38 AM ----- BODY: Vacation with Jonnie was a total fiasco, Jonnie was fast lane I was turtle speed, and it seemed like we simmered at opposite ends of the spectrum. Probably better that way, decorum has it’s pluses and downs, when you’re comfortable in friendship decorum allows you to sort out conflict without lasting scars, when you’re out of sorts with someone decorum gives further distance, making it harder to reach the friend, behind the socially professional veneer. I’m not too terribly upset cause Jonnie and created this form of communication and it has worked more then it has failed. In the last few years it has sucked though, I’ve kinda felt like Jon has used it to avoid any issue he doesn’t want to address and avoid it for the long time, or at least wait me out, till it’s meaningless for me, a worthy strategy for dealing with my angry bear brain, when it comes to things of frustration. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: decorum has it’s pluses and minuses ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: playboy picture EMAIL: wildgirl883@hotmail.com IP: 69.193.88.30 URL: http://www.300play.com/00000086.shtml DATE: 11/02/2004 02:12:42 AM Nice blog, just wanted to say I found you through Google ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Birth control pills, Ortho Tri-Cyclen EMAIL: jessica_2003@yahoo.com IP: 203.101.31.20 URL: http://www.birthcpills.com DATE: 11/04/2004 02:43:50 AM Hello, I just wanted to say you have a very informative site which really made me think, thanks very much! 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Of course a typical consumer probably buys a gadget a year, maybe, and isn’t typically buying a five hundred dollar ipod, he’s looking for that hundred dollar, discounted Rio Player with 64megs of ram. The rest of us, those of us who do spend the bucks, we seem to actually enjoy creating a product in our minds, waiting for the vendor to make endless versions of it which suck and do not meet our expectation, wait for an underdog to drive price down and then wait for a mainstream company to come in after the bloodshed and make a better version, for a little more money and give us some choice: Cheap but good, Moderately priced and cool, Expensive and worth it. These three categories are the three best, they aren’t the good the bad and the ugly. If you’re lucky you can eventually get the three price tiers for a functional product line, as opposed to the other tiers where you’re buying shitty product cheaply, moderately and expensively. Fuck that. 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Yesterday I read dozens of messages on the Sage message board and learned how to adjust the picture quality so that our recordings are near perfect. This process was a little awkward, requiring me to go outside of the Sage interface and into the Happauge Win TV controller to adjust Hue, Saturation, Contrast and Brightness. Back to Sage to see how it came out. Back to Win TV to adjust some more. Over and over.

Apparently, the next version (2) of Sage will be available in early February 2004, and these picture adjustment issues will be much easier to grapple with. I am also eager to use the new interface (pictured above) as the current one makes me feel like I am in the lobby of a government building using a poorly designed information kiosk. Regardless, the more I get to know Frey Technologies, the makers of Sage TV, the better I feel about being a customer. They have a devoted install base and an active user community.

6. Conclusions

This is only my second day as a PVR equipped husband and already my wife has forgotten about TiVo. Shewatchesepisodes of Charmed and the Gilmore Girls and grins as she fast forwards through commercials. As for me, I have been spending quality time with John Stewart - his show on the Iowa Caucases was not to be missed.

Yes, this little project ended up being a little more pricey than I had expected, about $800 total, but I am left with an expandable and powerful system capable of doing a lot more than any TiVo can do. Perhaps the whole thing was silly. After all, VCR's basically do the same thing right?

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Needless to say, I have no interest, moving KungFu to a canned hosted site, while I feel that web design is a constant trap, which takes you down that road of having fun and satisfying your desire to stay fresh, I believe the content is the more important component and style is good but does not improve shitty writing and art, shit is shit folks. So I’ve been working on porting KungFu over to a web core which would contain a database structure and allow me to focus on writing again. The benefit of this system, gets me away from formatting and allows me to focus on writing and image editing. Putting the three things together, means that I average a few hours per page construction. The database driven charm of the blog construct is that you write, get your art and slig it online, editing is simple and you can work from anywhere, important, since I spend my time divided and not on the same computer. Likewise, because I’m not in school and I can occasionally allow myself to become intellectually lax about building my job skills. So, I’ve been redefining my work environments, with some significant improvements, they have consumed the lions share of my time and follow with details and instructions for how you can do them to. File Core. Mobile Data Network Printing Wireless Connectivity So there you have it, a few mum months, but it’s been interesting. Next up on KungFu That Gal, Dee and Vegas. ----- EXCERPT: Other then the holidays, the last few months, have been R&D, while updating is fun, the labor of building pages, even working from template structures, is a drag. ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Philips foldable display, digital signage powerpoint style? STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 01/28/2004 06:39:57 PM ----- BODY: Philips is announcing a filament thin sheath which displays images and then locks them in memory, displaying them permenantly ----- EXTENDED BODY: The 5-inch display, which can show detailed images, can be rolled up into a pen-sized holder. If connected to a mobile phone, it can also be used to download web pages, a book or email. Philips said it had created the displays using electronics circuits made of plastics, which power a monochrome display created with technology from E Ink, a privately-held U.S. company from Cambridge, Massachusetts. "We can produce this in batches. It's no longer a research project. We're going to build a pilot line that should be ready in 2005 to make one million displays a year," a spokesman at Philips Research said. Europe's largest maker of consumer electronics and lighting has already shown prototypes of a glass-based E Ink display which will be in the shops later this year. That sort of screen, used in pocket computers, can cost tens of dollars apiece. The price of the foldable display screens has not yet been set, but Philips said it would be in the range of current thin glass models. 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Indepth article about Amazon ----- EXTENDED BODY: Wednesday, January 28, 2004 How Amazon.com survived, thrived and turned a profit E-tailer defied predictions it would do none of those By CHRISTINE FREY AND JOHN COOK SEATTLE POST-INTELLIGENCER REPORTERS Unfettered by the rules of the old economy -- that profits drive stock value -- Amazon.com Inc. was the poster child for the new Internet economy with its dynamic, young chief executive and highly valued stock. But when the technology bubble burst, the company quickly morphed from poster child into punching bag, an example of Internet economics and excess. Unlike many of its e-commerce counterparts, however, Amazon survived. And yesterday the company posted its first annual profit, a milestone that many analysts and observers never thought it would reach. Now the company is more than just surviving, it's made itself the undisputed leader of Internet commerce. Taking its cue from old and new ways of doing business, its model today has helped the company to grow into a multibillion-dollar business -- more important, one that can turn a profit. Nearly a decade after Jeff Bezos founded Amazon in a Bellevue garage, analysts again are predicting good things from Seattle's biggest Internet venture, from new online stores to international expansion, even further strengthening its dominating presence on the Web. Seattle businessman Nick Hanauer, an early investor who is credited with persuading Bezos to move to Seattle in the summer of 1994, knew the company would one day turn a profit. "What few people understood was that the reason that they didn't make money was that for the previous five years every time there was a trade-off between making more money or growing faster, we grew faster," said Hanauer, whose $40,000 investment in Amazon once was valued at $250 million. "It wasn't that there weren't lots of opportunities to make money. It was just that we had consciously foregone those opportunities to reach scale and make it impossible to duplicate what we had done. And voila!" Yesterday's earnings report isn't the only upbeat news. Its stock has more than doubled in the past year. And some analysts expect the company to be continuously profitable from now on. A few years ago that wasn't the case. The dark ages of e-commerce After Bezos founded Amazon in 1994, he launched the Web site the following July with the idea of selling books to a mass audience through the Internet. The Web site -- text heavy and gray -- wasn't pretty. But that didn't concern Madrona Venture Group's Tom Alberg, who invested $100,000 in Amazon in 1995. "Even though it was the dark ages in terms of what everybody was doing, it worked and it worked pretty well," said Alberg, who recalls the site not listing book publication dates and other key information. By the fourth month in business, the company was selling more than 100 books a day. That impressed Alberg -- who introduced Bezos to venture capitalists at Kleiner Perkins Caufield & Byers. "I remember Jeff would call and say they got sales from New Hampshire and Florida," recalls Alberg, who continues to sit on the board. "It sounded pretty good, you know. Somebody from New Hampshire bought a book." But Bezos created more than a bookstore; he created an online community. The site was revolutionary early on for allowing average consumers to create online product reviews. It not only drew people who wanted to buy books, but also those who wanted to research them before buying. "Amazon was probably the first truly worldwide community that was built online," said Scott Lipsky, a former Amazon executive who now runs Seattle start-up RGB Labs. "They happened to sell books. But the simple fact that everyone was sharing their thoughts and book reviews made it a community unto itself, very much like eBay." Today, Lipsky -- who left Amazon in 1997 -- thinks the community of more than 39 million customers will help the company retain its lead over Wal-Mart, Barnes & Noble and others. 'Get big fast' In 1996, its first full fiscal year in business, Amazon generated $15.7 million sales -- a figure that would increase by 800 percent the following year. A year after going public in 1997, Amazon added music CDs and movie videos to the Web site, what many considered to be a wise move designed to complement the company's expansive book collection. Then the company, which touted itself as "Earth's biggest bookstore," demonstrated it had much bigger plans. Amazon added five more product categories -- toys, electronics, software, video games and home improvement -- just a year later in time for the Christmas holiday. It was an era of hypergrowth -- one later ridiculed by onlookers who believed Amazon's "Get Big Fast" strategy was doomed. But early investors and executives point to the rapid growth as a key to its success. Hanauer to this day keeps a remnant of that period, an old T-shirt from an Amazon summer picnic that says: "Eat another hot dog, get big fast." "That relentless focus on doing whatever it took to get to scale, understanding that turning profitable would not be easy but would have to follow that, was a brilliant insight," said Hanauer. As a venture capitalist, Alberg has taken some heat for helping to create an atmosphere that led to the skyrocketing valuations of companies such as Amazon. But he, too, said Bezos -- who originally forecast profitability in the second or third year of existence -- seized an opportunity. "The revolution in thinking was everybody saying you have a great opportunity to grow quickly here, money is available, so let's take advantage of it and use that money to grow quickly even if we lose money," said Alberg. By the end of 1999, sales for the year surpassed the billion-dollar mark to $1.6 billion. Investors had driven the company's stock to close at an all-time high of $106.69 on Dec. 10. And that same month, Time magazine named Bezos "Person of the Year," calling him the "king of cybercommerce." In just a few months, the king's crown would become tarnished. Amazon.toast A month following Bezos' crowning in Time, the company fired 150 workers, mostly employees at its Seattle headquarters, as part of an internal reorganization. Just five days later, Amazon reported a loss of $323 million for the holiday fourth quarter and promised that future losses would be lower. (The company, however, would later exceed that amount by more than $200 million the following fourth quarter.) By the summer of 2000, Amazon's stock price had dropped by more than two-thirds and analysts began to criticize the retailer for venturing into too many product categories and spreading itself too thin. One much publicized report by Lehman Brothers warned investors that the company might run out of cash and advised them to avoid its stock. Some on Wall Street speculated that Amazon would file for bankruptcy or that another company would buy it. Naysayers nicknamed the company everything from Amazon.bomb to Amazon.toast as they predicted the collapse of the world's largest e-tailer. In early 2001 -- when Amazon reported a whopping fiscal loss of $1.4 billion, which remains the company's worst annual performance -- Bezos finally had an answer. Changing focus The chief executive told analysts in January 2001 that Amazon would report a profit by year's end. But to do so the company had to cut expenses and restructure its business model. Amazon started the new year by laying off 1,300 workers (about 15 percent of its work force), closing two warehouses and shutting down a Seattle customer-service center. Bezos followed with a memo calling for the company to "get the crap out" and stop selling products that weren't profitable. At the same time, Amazon concentrated on better managing the merchandise it would carry, from delivering packages presorted by geography to postal hubs to developing complex algorithms that analyze relationships between items that people buy so they could be grouped in the same warehouse. The company also looked to bolster its offering online -- not by expanding its own warehouse inventory but by selling products in other companies' warehouses. Amazon transformed itself from a specialty retailer into an online shopping portal, taking a cue from auctioneer eBay, which set itself up as a mediator between buyer and seller. It started selling products from companies such as Toys "R" Us and Target on its Web site. It added merchandise from smaller retailers in its zShops. And it competed directly with eBay through its Amazon Auctions. Most recently, Amazon launched product categories with merchandise from other retailers. Its apparel store, for instance, debuted in the fall of 2002 stocked with underwear, sweaters and jeans from companies such as Nordstrom and Gap. Although Amazon lists the merchandise on its Web site, it does not actually take control of the inventory; the individual vendors are responsible for fulfilling their orders. Amazon, however, receives a cut from the sales. Amazon's sales from third-party vendors are still a small percentage of its total revenue, but the margins are higher. "The more things they can sell to (customers) and not do the dirty work, the better the business grows," said Kate Delhagen, a retail analyst with Forrester Research. And by the end of 2001, Bezos came through on his word -- in fact, he did even better. The company reported its first profit -- based on generally accepted accounting principals and not on a pro forma basis as expected -- with fourth-quarter earnings of $5 million. New technology and partners But the company knew that one quarter of profits -- especially one that eked out earnings of just 1 cent a share -- wouldn't be enough. Amazon has since posted quarterly profits in the fourth quarter of 2002 and in the third quarter of 2003, the first non-holiday quarter to post earnings. And yesterday's fourth-quarter profit report is the first time that Amazon has reported two quarters of earnings back to back. But to do so, it has had to continually drive sales and refine its changing business. The company launched a free shipping promotion that eliminated the fee for orders of more than $99. After several tests, the company settled on a $25 price point last year. And it continues to offer discounts on merchandise, offering consumers personalized daily deals on everything from kitchenware to computer hardware. In the past few months, Amazon has rapidly expanded the number of product categories on its site. It added four new stores, currently in beta, just before the holiday season: sporting goods, gourmet foods, jewelry, and health and beauty. Customers can now buy everything from soccer balls to Alaska smoked salmon to three-stone sapphire rings. The company will also likely unveil new technology developments. One of its most recent, which debuted in November, lets customers search for words that appear in books and view the text. Amazon has been reported to be working on its own search engine that would possibly compete with Google. The company might also look overseas to grow its business, opening new stores on its international Web sites or launch Amazon in other Asia-Pacific and European countries where it does not currently exist. "I think what's key here, the company is always thinking about changes in the marketplace dynamics, consumers' behavior and how they can best be relevant and address consumers," said Jeetil Patel, senior analyst at Deutsche Bank Securities, which has an investment in Amazon. 'An alien life form' Nearly 10 years after Jeff Bezos founded Amazon in Seattle, his name remains synonymous with the company. The 40-year-old, known for his trademark laugh, has been the face of the company since its inception. Hanauer doesn't get the sense that his longtime friend -- who he describes as "the smartest man in the world" -- is getting ready to turn over the reins anytime soon. "He is absolutely as single-mindedly focused now on Amazon as he ever was. He works just as hard today as he did on the first day. He has lost none of his enthusiasm," said Hanauer. "He is an alien life form. I am serious, honestly. He is wired different than any other human I know." At a lunch two months ago, Lipsky -- the former Amazon executive -- asked Bezos whether he would consider doing another start-up. The answer was a resounding no. "He really doesn't miss being the small company entrepreneur," said Lipsky. "He seems very comfortable being the king of a very successful and growing empire." That may be the case. But some believe Amazon needs to do more to build executive management bench strength. For now, though, Bezos is still firmly in control. And he has not lost his passion for making the online consumer's experience better. That's the mantra he used to build Amazon over the past decade. And it's something that he still preaches to this day. "The better you can make your customer experience ... the more customers you'll attract, the larger share of that household's purchases you will attract," Bezos said during a conference call after yesterday's earnings announcement. "You can become a bigger part of a customer's life by just simply doing a better job for them. It's a very, very simple-minded approach." AMAZON.COM TIMELINE 1994 July: Amazon.com is founded by Jeff Bezos after the former investment banker leaves New York for Seattle with the idea of creating an online bookstore. 1995 July: Web site launches and by the end of the month books are shipped to 50 states and 40 countries. October: First 100-order day. 1997 May: Amazon.com raises $54 million in an initial public offering -- the same month that it is labeled Amazon.toast and Amazon.bomb by Forrester Research and Barron's. October: Bezos hand delivers the company's 1 millionth order to a customer in Japan who buys a Windows NT manual and Kitty Kelly's "The Royals." 1998 June: Amazon.com opens its music store. August: Lease signed for 186,000 square feet of office space at the old veterans hospital on Beacon Hill. 1999 February: Amazon.com buys a 46 percent stake in Bellevue-based drugstore.com. March: Trying to keep up with eBay, Amazon.com opens its auction business. April: Amazon.com settles a lawsuit brought by Wal-Mart, agreeing to reassign employees who had knowledge of the Arkansas retailer's computer systems. July: Amazon.com opens its electronics and toy stores. October: Jeff Bezos says it would be a mistake to press for profits too quickly at the expense of new investments that could draw customers. November: Cumulative losses now exceed $550 million. For the first time, analysts express frustration and lower ratings on the stock. Customer growth and revenues per customer decline. December: Bezos is chosen as Time magazine's person of the year. 2000 January: Amazon.com invests about $60 million in Kozmo.com, an online service that delivers snacks, videos and other items to homes and businesses. Kozmo.com closes less than a year and half later after it runs out of money. February 2000: After losing $390 million in the previous year, Bezos declares that "driving toward profitability" is a top priority. June 2000: Suffers its second-largest stock drop -- 19 percent -- as investors reacted to an analyst report that said the online retailer could run out of cash by the end of the year. An Amazon.com spokesman calls the report "pure hogwash." November: Amazon.com opens its Japanese site -- the company's fourth international Web site. 2001 January: Amazon.com announces plans to cut 1,300 workers, or 15 percent of the 8,500-employee work force. February: An analyst with a history of tackling Amazon.com filed the company with a report warning that the Internet retailer will run out of money this year. Amazon spokesman calls the report "silly" adding, "We have plenty of moolah to pay our bills." April: Amazon.com partners with Borders to run the company's online bookselling business. April: "Ouch," begins Bezos' annual letter to shareholders this year, which notes "it's been a brutal year." 2002 January: Amazon surprises critics -- and some fans -- by reporting a fourth-quarter profit of $5 million, the company's first. August: Customers who spend more than $25 on Amazon.com qualify for free shipping. August: Former General Electric executive Thomas Szkutak, at left, joins Amazon.com as chief financial officer, replacing Warren Jenson. 2003 January: Amazon.com records its second profit. September: A9 -- Amazon.com's online search engine subsidiary -- is established in Palo Alto, Calif. October: Amazon.com unveils a new technology called "Search Inside the Book" that allows consumers to preview text of 120,000 books. October: Amazon.com posts its first non-holiday profit of $15.6 million. 2004 January: Amazon.com posts its first-ever annual profit. INNOVATIONS Over the years, Amazon.com has invested in a number of e-commerce companies, partnered with other retailers and developed new technology. While some of its innovations have improved the online consumer experience and generated sales, some of its attempts have failed. Here's a look at a few of them. Hits Online reviews: Amazon lets customers submit feedback on books and other products sold on the site. It becomes a popular online feature as consumers flock to share their thoughts with millions. zShops: Amazon charges other merchants a monthly fee to sell their wares on the Web site. zShops have higher profit margins than the company's own direct sales. Merchants who sell their products through zShops pay Amazon a monthly fee of $39.99 and a closing fee of 5 percent on items sold for $25 or less. Wish Lists: Customers can create lists of the products that they want from Amazon.com and save the list for online viewing by others. Free shipping: After testing several price points, Amazon eliminates shipping fees for orders of more than $25, its lowest price point yet. Although it costs the company in additional shipping expenses, the move boosts sales and Amazon decides to maintain the offer indefinitely. Misses Charging for book recommendations: Amazon charges publishers for placement of books on the Web site. After media reports disclose the practice, Amazon says it will tell customers when publishers have paid for its recommendation. Pets.com: Amazon agrees to buy 50 percent of the online pet supply store. Less than two years later, Pets.com says it will close after failing to raise additional financing. Its stock is worth 22 cents a share after it announces its closure. Kozmo.com: Amazon invests $60 million in the company, which home delivers videos and snacks ordered on the Internet. (Fellow Seattle company Starbucks Corp. is also an investor.) Kozmo.com announces it will close less than a year-and-a-half later after it cannot obtain additional funding. Living.com: Amazon invests in the online home furnishing store and agreed to add a Living.com tab on its Web site in return for $145 million over five years. Just six months later, Living.com announces that it would file for Chapter 7 bankruptcy protection. Living.com is now the Web site for the Fine Living television channel. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: The Eichler phenomenon STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 01/29/2004 06:26:17 PM ----- BODY: The Eichler phenomenon 1950s-era homes capture vision of modern living--and the hearts of architecture aficionados by Kendra Behling Known for their sleek lines, open floor plans and casual-yet-hip sensibility, ----- EXTENDED BODY: The Eichler phenomenon 1950s-era homes capture vision of modern living--and the hearts of architecture aficionados by Kendra Behling Known for their sleek lines, open floor plans and casual-yet-hip sensibility, Eichler homes stand as an icon of modern living among their devoted fans. In Palo Alto, which boasts about 10 percent of the Eichlers built in California, owners of the architecturally distinctive dwellings view them as a source of community pride. "They are very different from any other house you can buy around here,"said KC Marcinik, a Palo Alto architect and Eichler homeowner. Such statements are common among those who own Eichlers. The homes have inspired a devoted following uncommon among suburban tract designs. Web pages, newsletters, coffee-table books, and a recent U.C. Berkeley photo exhibit have waxed poetic over the virtues of the modernist homes. The homes are even part of Palo Alto's political landscape, as residents argue whether Eichlers should be included in the city's controversial historic preservation ordinance. So what's the big deal? Devotees list a variety of reasons why Eichlers are so well loved. Wally Fields, a Palo Alto native and self-confessed "Eichlerholic," traces his affection to a sense of nostalgia. "It's a pilgrimage to my past," said Fields, who grew up in an Eichler that his family owns to this day. He added that Eichlers were built at a time when suburban designs were still experimental. Generic tract designs had yet to be established, leaving room for some unique interpretations of futurism. People of that era, according to Fields, ultimately preferred more old-fashioned homes that mirrored their own childhoods. However, said Fields, children who grew up in Eichlers now treasure the homes' futuristic looks. "A lot of people criticize suburban architecture as being box-like," he said. "Ironically, a lot of Eichlers look like boxes yet are well-liked. They disprove the theory that box-like is unattractive." Jerry Ditto, a Midpeninsula Realtor who specializes in Eichlers, said the homes attract a special sort of buyer. "I don't think it's a single, monolithic thing," said Ditto. "For the most part, people that live in them and enjoy them have some sense of design, lines, texture and colors." It is said that Joseph Eichler found inspiration to develop his unique homes while living in a Frank Lloyd Wright-designed house in Hillsborough. Originally in the wholesale dairy business, Eichler was known for his keen sense of style and appreciation for aesthetics. With his housing developments, Eichler sought to create a homes for the middle class that had the same conveniences and stylishness of his elite dwelling. To realize his vision, Eichler hired young, modernist architects such as Claude Oakland, and the San Francisco-based firm Anshen & Allen to design the homes he built, distinguishing them from the proliferation of tract homes being created by builders and contractors. The designs he commissioned featured several now-famous hallmarks of the Eichler style. Their floor plans are open, with the kitchen, dining and living areas typically being contiguous, connected without walls. At the same time, the kitchen was reinvented and designed as a place for the family to gather. Another modernist motif found in Eichlers is the exposed architecture, where beams and support systems become part of the interior design. The ceiling is comprised of large, evenly spaced beams covered by flat roof decking. Extending a few feet beyond the house walls, the beams and decking provide shade from the sun as well as shelter from the rain. Simple, smooth lines flow throughout the house, creating a calm, cool and modern atmosphere. Perhaps one of the most appealing characteristics of Eichlers is a sense of airiness, with floor-to-ceiling windows offering a view of spacious backyards. In addition, many of the homes contain an atrium--an enclosed patio at the center of the house. It serves as a prime place for tropical plants or ponds and accentuates the 20th century architectural idea of "bringing the outside in." "The full glass walls, sloping ceilings, and putting the floor directly at ground level--it feels like there is very little separation from the outside and inside," said Marcinik. When first built in the 1950s, Eichlers were unique, new and affordable. Today, the tract homes have become a valued historical commodity in Palo Alto, costing between $300,000 to nearly $2 million. One of the largest communities Eichler built is Palo Alto's Greenmeadow neighborhood. Those in Greenmeadow and surrounding areas in south Palo Alto take living in Eichlers to heart. With an interest in preserving and promoting the uniqueness of their area, the residents of Greenmeadow formed a neighborhood association. The group prints a newsletter, has a board of directors and holds monthly meetings to discuss neighborhood issues. The association has also taken the aesthetic preservation of their neighborhood into their own hands. Any remodeling plans must first be submitted to the architectural review and covenants committee, which enforces conformity to standard Eichler style. The Eichlers' distinctiveness has spurred a fervent interest in Palo Alto, illustrated by the proposal to include the homes in the historic preservation ordinance, despite the fact they are less than 50 years old. Marcinik, for one, considers them historic. "They are unique,indigenous and architecturally developed for this specific area. They are high design and represent an important time in Palo Alto's history," Marcinik said. "While most historic homes in downtown Palo Alto are copies of East Coast homes, Eichlers are truly indigenous. They are 'the house of tomorrow'--today." A photography exhibit, "Building the California Dream: Exhibit of Modernist Eichler Homes," is currently showing at U.C. 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Minus the advertising (which can be removed in a pay for kinda format) the sensibilities of GeoCities works, and as is evident with this simple site, it’s still stylish, though a bit ghetto with it’s ad schemes. Luke is a strange case but still worthy of mention. While her sites aren’t usually seen by large audiences her work is far felt. On the web side of things, dwarves don’t toil in caves shaping Elven metals. Someone has to learn the code and the person who learns it has to actually enjoy the journey, cause let me tell you, learning code is for the few and sometimes it takes the hard work of an artist looking for the discipline of code to create a channel where other artists: writers, painters, visionaries can learn from this advanced thinking and take hold of things from distant minds. -Luke’s style works for the research crowd, which has it’s own creed; to learn and constantly learn, outpuy is hard to measure with this crowd. 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I’m maybe one step closer to finding out what I want the web to do for me and still maintain some life outside my Digerati experience. All four of us? We maintain some sense of destiny tied together by the web, I love that, it’s a unlikely inner circle and we’ve never hung out in the same room together. The web brings us so close in such strange ways. The overall point of the piece is old school, and so I gotta ask;Why aren’t you doing a web site or at least contributing to one? Recently my work buddy Leah reminded me to update my site, she is still working on her idea. She bought her domain a year ago and hasn’t done shit to it, but I should update mine. Maintaing a web site, doesn’t have any fixed way, each Web Deisgner will tell you what works for them and if they’re any good at it they’ll tell you the minuses of how they do it, but it’s so easy to go online, that it’s a crime that everyone isn’t already online, and pretty pathetic when you get online and see what people are doing, doesn’t that sound like a challenge you’d like to sink your teeth into? ----- EXCERPT: Long piece briefing the way that KFO, Unlikely Stories, and Bad White Trash Memories is made, some mention goes to Luke who hosts this R&D portion of KFO. ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLW EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisnator/whitetrash.html DATE: 02/11/2004 05:53:46 PM Hold on --------(edited), I'm about to pop your comments cherry. You said my name (*we did not). You've totally blown my mystique (*we did not), but I guess that since my name will be changing soon, it doesn't really matter. I feel a bit ashamed about living in the geocities ghetto. It does work for me though. And I don't think I live for my "cult following of strangers influenced by her site." You made me sound like a total loser. Which I'm not, so you should all check out my site and then send me email telling me how you relate to me and stuff. Not that I care. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Kilgore EMAIL: doublefuckyou@whoitis.com IP: 68.211.41.36 URL: DATE: 02/11/2004 06:46:31 PM JLW is referring to her site Bad White Trash Memories (http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html) You can go to this link to check it out and it is the ghetto, still it is an effective ghetto, where one may post their web vibe. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jonathan EMAIL: jonathan@unlikelystories.org IP: 171.75.25.240 URL: http://www.unlikelystories.org DATE: 03/07/2004 11:03:27 PM My shit works again and the "mystique" of JLW don't. What's that about? I feel like my entire universe is falling apart. 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The nether parts of a typical design were devoted to a garage and TV room; the midlevel, which usually jutted out from the two-story section, offered "quieter" quarters, such as the living and dining rooms; and the area above the garage was designed for bedrooms. Found mostly in the East and Midwest, split-levels, like their Ranch counterparts, were constructed with various building materials. While Wright loaded his home with attractive internal features, such as a focal-point fireplace, most suburban splits didn't include such niceties. That's because such extras would boost the cost of construction, something that was frowned upon by developers during the golden age of split- levels. : That age began in the post-war years of the 1950s. Builders hit upon the split as a low-cost design that offered the feeling of space and combined the best features of ranch and multi-story homes. : "They are very small houses, but they did offer a really good use of space," said Barbara Chiusano, of C&C Development Corp., builders of Ballenger Woods housing development in Egg Harbor Township. Having rooms on different levels allowed for a sense of privacy, while the small size and ease of construction kept the price within the range of young couples. : Homeowners also appreciated that staircases in splits tended to be short, and that most homes included garages and recreation rooms. Parents liked having a place where children could play and make noise that wasn't as isolated as most Eisenhower-era basement playrooms. : Buyers wanted splits in the 1950s, 1960s and early 1970s, and builders were more than willing to provide them. Suburban developments across New Jersey are testament to the popularity - and versatility - of the split-level home. : "My family's been building homes in New Jersey for more than 50 years. Split-levels were a large part of our product," Chiusano said. : But the public is fickle. By the mid-1980s buyers were no longer interested in groovy-looking splits. Traditional-looking styles dominated new home architecture. Homeowners began demanding designs that provided more space, a trend that continues today. : "Houses are getting bigger and bigger and more expensive," Chiusano said. "When we buy property, it's so expensive we are forced into building bigger and more expensive housing. If we could build smaller houses on smaller lots (split-levels) could have a come back." : That, Chiusano said, is because people still like the basic style and the amenities it offers. She has proof. : A few years back her company was building a development in Burlington County. One of the most popular models in the development was a type that the real estate agents were calling "a multi-level" design. : "We took the split-level design and gave it some upscale dressing," Chiusano said. "Some of the younger buyers probably grew up in homes that were very similar in style, but they didn't associate that house with a split-level." ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Installing Drywall STATUS: Draft ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Home Improvement CATEGORY: Home Improvement DATE: 02/11/2004 08:47:44 PM ----- BODY: ----- EXTENDED BODY: Drwall Installation Basics Drywall is sold in large sheets, in several lengths and thicknesses. Use the thinner 1/4 inch drywall for covering an existing wall. The longer the sheets of drywall, the fewer joints you will have to cover. Be sure you can get them into your home without damaging the sheets. Use screws to fasten the drywall instead of nails. They hold better and can be removed without damaging the drywall, if you make a mistake. Consider renting or buying an electric screw gun. They have magnetized tips that hold the screw and they sink the screws to the proper depth. Place drywall sheets horizontally on the wall. Hang upper panels first. Don't make joints at the corners of doors or windows. This increases the potential for cracks to develop. Instead, bridge openings with a drywall sheet and cut out with a saw. For maximum strength, stagger the joints. Vertical seams on upper panels should not meet those on lower panels. Materials you will need: ¼ inch drywall sheets 1 5/8 inch drywall screws Wooden wedge Joint compound Drywall tape Fine-grit sandpaper Tools you will need: Measuring tape Chalk line Straightedge Utility knife Electric screw gun Keyhole saw 6-inch taping knife 12-inch mud knife 4-inch corner knife (optional) Dust mask ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: History Of The House STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 02/12/2004 07:53:39 PM ----- BODY: When buying a house…Part 1. ----- EXTENDED BODY: When JLW and I bought our house, we had to make a lot of decisions. Determining the budget was our first concern; it was necessary to figure out how much we wanted to spend on the place we would probably spend the next decade in. Home buying has many schools of thought. The classic theory is that the classic homeowner will buy a house and keep it till they have children, and having children will facilitate the need for a bigger house. Many contemporary and trendy home owners like to buy a home these days and flip it over like a smartly gambled investment after they have fun filled years, spending a lot of time renovating it. Our goals were pretty simple; buy a home in our budget range. This plan always means that you end up foolishly buying more house then you can afford But we hope to make a good enough investment that we will be ok in the next few years. This means that the cost of ownership on the house will hopefully be less then the added value that the house accrues over time. If we’re right, and if we pay the house off faster then our financiers hope we will, it’ll be a smashing success and in our favor. That’s long term investing though, the stretch of time hopefully means less risk and less possible profit, but we may be able to squeeze some renovations in and still see a tidy gain at the end of it all. Of course much of this gamble is based on the efficiency of our home inspection. My father did our home inspection, he came on over and gave it a good look over. As a matter of fact I should go back and talk about the home buying process, more specifically how Jennifer and I happened to find a home less then a mile away from our rented condo, in an area we both considered more then passable for our lifestyle, and while a bit shabby (not shabby chic) around the edges, it’s a strong residential neighborhood and close enough to our international community (that’s code for meaning a strong Mexican and multi-racial Asian community) that we both feel pretty good about location, doesn’t hurt that it’s in the Metro Suburbs, so we’re in Atlanta, but not Atlanta-proper, so no insane property taxes and collapsing infrastructure. We feel much better then going on a gentrification pilgrimage and working with a true fixer upper, my fantasy and JLW’s realistic assessment that gentrification is not quite our style. But when we found this house, it was just a stroke of luck, in a neighborhood, we couldn’t really afford surrounded by other houses we admired and knew we couldn’t afford. This means that we couldn’t afford our house, a two and a half bath, four bedroom nineteen sixties split-level, with classic formal living and dining room and the traditional tv-room, with adjoining day basement, on a large rolling lot with a spacious backyard. Yeah, we couldn’t afford our phucking house, we were nuts to buy it. But the allure of this house, a bit outside our price range (but within our supposed budget) is that it wasn’t perfect and as a imperfect, loving couple, we like fucked up shit. Somehow, when JLW and I walked inside the house of the then owners, two childless middle agers, who had decent taste. As a matter of fact, their split level looked gorgeous, purely in that tacky dated way, but good none the less. It also needed work, the front was efficient, the rear was barren and waiting for some new landscaping; neither of us like gardening. But when couples buy houses, the house has to appeal to both of them, for similar and different reasons. The single door two car garage was my joy, from outside it looked giant, with two cars and a bevy of storage it seems small now, and unlike my parents more modern and bastardized two car, two garage door ,split level home, it doesn’t look tacky. Inside the layout reminds me not of the homes I grew up in as a child (most of these places were apartments), but the places where I hung out, watched tv, ate goldfish crackers and played roleplaying games at, when I hung out with my white friends, who lived in the surrounding neighborhoods. The split level home has a lot of meaning to me, it is the embodiment of the classic American home and this is important to note, for me, cause I’m from Chicago and I grew with a lot of architecture, I might have grown up in apartments, but they were mangnificent apartments, with all original interiors, glass knobs, crown molding, peeling lead pain. But the split is warm in my heart, inviting almost. Other things that were important, the expansive day basement which is unfinished and waiting for inspiration. The large lot, giving a bit of privacy from neighbors. I’ll have to let JLW talk about what drew her to the home, cause I think she could say it better then me…..JLW, what made you want this house? Moving on, JLW pays the bills, I maintain the house and bitch that we’re not doing enough to maintain it. Our two cats, look on disinterested, as long as we remember to feed them and change their litter box. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLW EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 65.3.106.155 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 02/13/2004 02:13:34 PM What made me want this house? I live in a fantasy world. I had envisioned a house in my head, and this house fit my criteria. I wanted an older well built house in an established neighborhood that had a pool and a playgroup for my fantasy children. I wanted this house because I could see us living in it. I could see my at home, with kids playing down in the den or in the back yard while I cooked dinner in the kitchen. I could see us sitting at the island helping with homework. I could see how I would decorate the house. That was probably a the biggest thing for me. When I walked into the house, I felt inspired to make it my home, to decorate it, to populate it. I could see us as a part of this community. And I'd also like to say that I don't think we bought more house than we could afford. I think that the wedding has really drained us financially, but that if we can afford to drop money like we have dropped on the wedding, then if we didn't have the wedding we'd have plenty of money. I recommed getting married before you buy a house. Weddings are way expensive than I ever anticipated, but once it's over (in 8 days) we'll be doing just fine and paying off our house. I love this house and so do you, but I know now that no matter how much research you've done and how prepared you think you are for huge events like owning a home or having a wedding, it's never enough. 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I was hooked on moving, for years that was an awesome gypsy life and I loved it, and it tied in well to my sense of paranoia. I think as wisdom goes, you have to decide to make an investment or keep your lifestyle simple and low budget. Though the fact that your rent can one day be cashed out as equity is pretty impressive when owning a house. You gonna live in an apt, forget that, a house might be a lock down, but roots aren’t horrible. I think if I couldn’t own a house, I’d travel like Jonnie, live out of a few bags, accompanied by a few steamer trunks and a reliable Shuttle of some sort. And sense I never did move completely to that gypsy lifestyle, I love my crib. And I have to say that I did not fantasize about doing homework at the kitchen island, I did think it’d be pretty cool to install a urinal somewhere in the house, like in my office or some other little corner. And I guess you’re a true sucker and probably shouldn’t buy a house when you can imagine replacing all the current owners shit with your own. We definitely did drive by and walk through this house and realize it called to us and said “This is your home” and it is. 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STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 02/18/2004 10:26:26 PM ----- BODY: Midnight... Sitting outside a closed starbucks, using a T-Mobile wireless connection, except for the fifty degree hard winds it's not as bad as it sounds. The concrete ground is hard though, updates will follow, tomorrow i suspect... I desperately want to post an article of substance, shit I just want to post something, i'm not suffering from my usual, nothing is coming out good problem, but I want to talk about so much. Gambling intrigues me, but i'm too disconnected to really be drawn into it. I'm getting married. I'm getting married. I'm getting married in two days. Kinda weird, I don't actively think of marriage in the way it is reflected in my married friends. having three groups of friends, those who are, were and aren't I am always pulled around and confused by the disposition. Are: happy or unhappy, the men grumble, the women smile falsely, a few genuine people actually come around, they consitently talk about the work involved in making it work. The consistency is like the stories which make their way across different religions. Were: Most of them are rushing back to get married, desperate to get laid as much as possible (catching up) or they just loathe it and divorce has made them bitter angry and selfish. Aren't: Women whiine about it a lot after thirty, you can the desire and longing out in the open. Men seem to be more mum about it and distrust it once they've watched a friend or two get cleaned out from a divorce. A lot of people didn't support the thought of our marriage. Her family was deeply disinterestd and mildly hostile to me, not impolite the southern are always polite, but the interracial element was surely a stickler for them. My friends didn't understand the connection between us, they got that we were both writers and we're both crazy, but after that, confusion settled in, as a matter of fact, a lot of people are turned off by JLW's style of interaction. She's a wicked smart girl, but she'll play dumb blonde in a second and is quite honestly disinterested in defending herself a lot. In the passive southern culture, she has a style which is part Aly McBeal and part southern princess. I can't say any of those things appeal to me either. Being from the north, midwest, Chicago, watever you want to call it, i always want to be direct. But in our writing, with imagery we really connect and from that, we have reached deeper into each other. Doesn't stop us from both being insane, but we work with that, we are deeply flawed people and don't always even agree or vibe with each other. Course, I always come back to how I think that's a good thing, I think conflict is good, seems like a lot of people really still want the conflict free relationship and I don't think it's real, I think the conflict free relationship is the one which simmers beneath the surface and eventually explodes. Couples who fight like cats and dogs are a strange breed, they always seem to last forever and people never understand them. Getting married we're about to create a relationship few people understand and that is a unique thing that i'm pretty happy about. This is all free style, totally off the cuff, no spellchecking and doesn't cover my trip to vegas, or the gambling. Right now, i'm sitting in Starbucks with Andy, while two people are now digging into his head talking about a post Amway internet business, pretty fucking funny.       ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dee EMAIL: deebaby@mindspring.com IP: 165.2.186.10 URL: DATE: 02/19/2004 08:18:50 AM Dude! You don't look happy! You're in a place where you can eat cheap and laugh at all the tacky tourists! And you're getting married! Cheer UP! LOL... Seriously, I have a couple of exciting things to tell you. Call me if/when you can. Congrats! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: ana amerigo EMAIL: analadevi@yahoo.com IP: 67.121.249.2 URL: DATE: 02/26/2004 12:01:29 PM paul ur getting married. the werld has spun so far from where it was when u were jus a small corner of sick puppy press. felicidades. contacame se me requerdes. xoxox http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=OceanBornNOceanDyin ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: taxi cams EMAIL: spp@opire4.com IP: 219.77.48.136 URL: http://taxi-cams.yblogs.com/ DATE: 08/27/2004 04:10:15 AM .. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: just adult movies EMAIL: spp@opire4.com IP: 219.77.48.136 URL: http://just-adult-movies.yblogs.com/ DATE: 08/27/2004 04:10:34 AM .. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: his first huge cock EMAIL: spp@opire4.com IP: 219.77.48.136 URL: http://his-first-huge-cock.yblogs.com/ DATE: 08/27/2004 04:10:49 AM ... ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Air Tran is starting to suck. STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 02/29/2004 08:44:48 PM ----- BODY: Also a two-week trip means that you gut your closet. drag your life halfway across the country and hope you'll come back with ninety percent of your shit. I came back with about eighty five percent of mine ----- EXTENDED BODY: Kinda weird being back in Atlanta, the last few days have been just as hectic as my trip to Las Vegas. It was interesting to be rejoined with not only my Atlanta friends, but Jonnie came along, as did my closest friend Juan, had a blast... It was an awesome time, coming back, strange, my job was just as I left it, which meant that things were waiting for my return, which I’m ok with. I have been overwhelmed, readjusting to the mundane. Being in Vegas their was a vague sense of elsewhere. Vegas didn't make it easy to get online though, as a matter of fact I had to find my way to StarBucks and using a T-Mobile Hotspot. So I’ve been partially wary of being online, today I worked on the basement throwing out a ton of trash and beginning the extraction of the mid seventies (is their asbestos in them) ceiling tiles. I'm kinda itching now. Also a two-week trip means that you gut your closet. drag your life halfway across the country and hope you'll come back with ninety percent of your shit. I came back with about eighty five percent of mine; lost a suitcase, one of my Kershaw lever action knives, some stereo cables and my torture/grooming kit. My back and forth with Air Tran is like some psychological test performed by the CIA to determine if I have what it takes, to keep my cool while being tortured. AIR TRAN is starting to suck and lose my faith and I liked them when they were Value Jet, I liked them even after their shit started blowing up in the air and they had to change their name. Other then that, been listening to a lot of Daft Punk and I saw Gothika (see What lies beneath instead folks.) it kinda sucked, not as much as that Bill Paxton flick with the floating heads and the magic gloves, but it was pretty horrible, i'm nervous about Cat Woman. Still haven't seen the last lord movie (haven't had the mood, but want to see the flick; conundrum huh) likewise, I have Lost In Translation and haven't brought myself to stick it in and watch it and I'm driving the Bad White Trash Mobile, while JLW gets to chill in the KungFu Shuttle, a ninety six accord isn't my thing, but I kinda like it, feels like a rickety escape pod. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLW EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.angelfire.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 03/02/2004 06:03:33 PM It's a 95 Accord, sucka. I accidentally watched the first half of Lost in Translation last night. I just hit play assuming Buffy would come on, but no. It was slow, but pretty clever. I can see how it would appeal to someone who has spent time in Japan, which is like everyone who is at all cool. Japan is the new Europe. It's where you go for a cultural experience when you're young and hip. I haven't been to either. Still waiting for Canada to become cool. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: KiKi EMAIL: kiki04@skittkitty.com IP: 68.19.32.83 URL: DATE: 03/02/2004 06:24:00 PM Thank god she didnt change her online name to JLS does not ring out likw JLW. KiKi ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Empress Ice Cream EMAIL: blanketgirl@yahoo.com IP: 65.222.84.72 URL: DATE: 03/26/2004 06:46:54 AM "rickety escape pod" is perfect for an accord. That's all. joy with a name like "joy," it's hard to come up with something shorter or more clever. any ideas, anyone? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jonathan EMAIL: jonathan@unlikelystories.org IP: 209.30.133.187 URL: DATE: 04/21/2004 08:53:17 PM Misery, obviously. Asians and Asian-Americans who have been to Japan really hate LIT, it seems. It seems that short jabbering yellow people experience something different in Japan than we tall, beautiful gods. Go figure. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Google Link: Anthony Hamlton and a rant STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 03/02/2004 06:18:31 PM ----- BODY: a google link, feel free to ignore, followed bya rant on blogging and the internet. ----- EXTENDED BODY: a google link, feel free to ignore. Anthony Hamilton, singer, Chappelle show. I gotta say the internet is pretty cool. This is why I feel like the new phenomena of blogging is phuked up. Here is a technology which allows you to not only write and create things then put them online, but it also allows you to do it instantaneously. Instead of writing and coding, or writing and GUIing or uploading files, you can shape anything you want and post it without needing to create code around it. Now that might be too simple, while it’s true that the internet is awesome and applications like Movable Type make that awesome thing even cooler, the truth is that blogging isn’t all bad. Blogging did save us from Vanity Sites and other horrible PB (that’s Pre Blog Era) type sites, all of which had in common the fact that people would make these horrible sites, then never update and just somehow litter the internet like dustbunnies, seen but unnoticed. Not the same with Blogs which do tend to play structure games with Search engines and emphasize stupid articles and sites. Also funny that the Golden Google era is being marred by link whores and Blogger who link to each other, but it is still mighty cool. Many of my friends who I am close to in the real world, do not really get into my online life. Many of my online friends don’t ever interact with me in person. Living in both worlds is helped with the new post GUI generation of database driven software. The Blog wouldn’t exist without the software. This isn’t to say that if you couldn’t simply post what you write with a few mouse clicks you wouldn’t go to the effort. To the contrary a number of sites would still exist and did before the era of blog software did. Kinda easy to get online, see the words of someone and disregard them, not dive a little deeper and see what they might actually saying. For me, I love the internet for the simple fact that it does in fact allow me to shape, create and write who I am. If there is a tool that I can learn (it’s taken some time to learn ) which will make that job of not just creating but also displaying, I’ll take any route I can if I believe it offers something to the speed of displaying said work. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: On The Road: My family and the Internet STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 03/07/2004 03:07:21 PM ----- BODY: I must be phucking with the Beats to title this article “On the road” since i’m only talking about using my laptop wirelessly at my folks house and how the highspeed access has made our family life better ----- EXTENDED BODY: Going to Vegas I was surprised to admit how excited I was whenever I got a wireless connection most of the time I was without it. Wireless access could be achieved by one of four ways. Dialup which was slow and expensive up to two dollars an hour to dialout? All the hotels had WebTV and that seemed to usually suck bad. On the seedier portions of the strip a lot of guys were offering Internet access ghetto style, with places that didn’t look as decent as a jack shack. Or you went to a clean Starbucks for your access and had a tasty sugar free passion tea. And here I am, now at my parent’s house working wirelessly, and writing this article. I suggested DSL to them because they need quicker web access for things relating to the family business. the wireless was an added bonus, and is pretty cheap right now so we added it on. Now I could have just let them plug in DSL to the computer in the office, but that wouldn’t be cool, they have a two story house and they have three computers, so we went with a router and separate wireless access point. Now the family visits are definitely more fun. And of course this isn’t a very interesting article but it is my life. Right now, my mother is bitching about me, with one of her girlfriends, about how I’ll leave if she stays on the phone much longer, and she is correct. Somehow this is my fault that I might leave because she is on the phone. All of this is happening while my step dad chases one of the cats out of the kitchen. All of this is happening and I’m online writing about it. It used to be that I’d come over to my folks house and my mom would spend the whole time jabbering on the phone, my step dad would chase the cats around and I’d watch the clock. Now I can hang out drink a Heineken, and write on my laptop while chilling out with my folks and leave peacefully, let time do its thing. Wireless access is only interesting of course if you believe that you are improved with a internet connection. I love the internet, I use it more then I contribute to it and I don’t quite like that as much as when my work volume has been higher. I do like it that I can at least write an article when I would have spent this time waiting to leave and I even seem to spend better time with my folks. ----- EXCERPT: I must be phucking with the Beats to title this article “On the road” since i’m only talking about using my laptop wirelessly at my folks house and how the highspeed access has made our family life better ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Good times with Spalding Gray STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/08/2004 12:18:12 PM ----- BODY: My phone, IM and email has never been so flooded with one singular event since 9.11. Sad to hear that Spalding Gray has been found dead, we feared the worst and hoped for the best. ----- EXTENDED BODY:
My close friend Shari turned me on to Spalding Gray years ago, and I’ve loved his work ever since. More often then not if you talk to many people about Spalding, they’ll mention Swimming to Cambodia, or his strong supportive roles in many independent films. And while I won’t spend this time to suddenly make a review of his films and body of work, I will say that Spalding Gray has always shown how a writer, poet, actor, and individual can truly contribute to the cosmos. Spalding Gray lived a rich life, struggled to stay on this earth as long as he could and then he walked away from it on 1.10.04. leaving friends, family, admirers and a great amount of pain behind him. Because you taught me how to find mine, I wish you the best Spalding, and hope you continue to find your special moments. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jonathan EMAIL: jonathan@unlikelystories.org IP: 209.30.132.24 URL: DATE: 03/09/2004 08:32:08 AM Still wishing I had something smart to say... R.I.P., Spalding. Good luck. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Shari EMAIL: astrolodalva@yahoo.com IP: 63.176.24.187 URL: DATE: 03/09/2004 09:57:42 AM Cried. Drank a toast. Kicking myself for giving up my ticket to see "Monster in a Box" because someone I thought should see him wanted the ticket. Don't feel any better... ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Video Games STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/08/2004 04:27:03 PM ----- BODY: Pretty funny article about the policing of arcade games, and the industry that makes them. ----- EXTENDED BODY: "On February 15, 2004, Eidos attempted its first move into the spotlight from the other side of the stage by announcing that it would release a game called Whiplash, developed by Crystal Dynamics and aimed at kids 7 years of age and older. The game's objective would be to free laboratory animals from torture in the name of science" See it here...    Hate to say it but the whole article just makes me want to go out and get DOA-XV Also interesting is this piece on prostitution on The Sims Onlinet and the shit storm it caused for a blogger Phew. I can’t use my exclamation point, nor can I express how awesome it is to continually update a article, on the fly, and keep continuity building. I’d kinda like to throw up a “updated” kinda mark to show that I’ve done something, but I currently find that a bit tacky. If I could program it to dissipate after about three days or so, it’d be cool, or make it cookie connected, that would be fly. I say all of this cause i've updated this piece about three times, and i've done it between cleaning and reading other articles. Pablo ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Gizmodo eh... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/11/2004 09:10:14 PM ----- BODY: Luke and I went back and forth about what was going on with Gizmodo (it started to suck) and she eventually found out the story. Pablo. ----- EXTENDED BODY: For any of you who care a lick about gadgets Peter Rojas, formerly the editor of the cult hit Gizmodo, has left to do his own site Engadget.com Peter has launched the new site, and as you might expect from someone familiar with Movable Type, the site is very reminiscent of the first Gizmodo interface. Peter is quoted as saying "Back in August of 2002 I helped found Gizmodo, the gadgets weblog. It was a labor of love, but never intended as more than a part-time freelance job. After nineteen months I’ve decided to take a risk and launch a new site that will let me do what I want" ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Have you cooked lately? STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/12/2004 06:07:55 PM ----- BODY: The history of Tripe and a jabbering moment on cooking ----- EXTENDED BODY: Watching an Anthony Bourdain show, and it’s pretty good. I like Anthony Bourdain, I like PBS cooks, like the little Vietnamese guy and the French guy with Julia Childs. I don’t like cable chefs much. I mean Anthony Bourdain always looks hungover on screen and while he’ll try anything sometimes you can tell it’s an acquired taste. He doesn’t eat interesting stuff every day, but he sure does appreciate living outside the monotony of same old same old. That is the kinda food I like. And you don’t always see recipes like this one here for Tripe. Very funny. I’m a fan of cooking. I try to do interesting things with my food, I try to cook food with sauces, and care. I spend time over open fire, or bake for hours to achieve what I believe is a better level of prepared meal. If you’re gonna eat something bad, I think you should cook it. You could have a burger and fries or you could have a filet of catfish, lightly breaded and pan fried with an amazing hollandaise sauce and seasoned sliced and simmered potatoes,. Doesn’t mean I don’t like cheap bratwurst and caviar, cause I do. I just want to eat interesting things and I’m willing to cook them. While having dinner with my old roommate Kristin, after convincing her that I knew a good Chinese Joint that had good Vegetarian cuisine. We rode on the bike to Little Szechwan ordered their fresh Hot and Sour soup, and their Shredded cabbage soup, along with salt and pepper squid, and some fried tofu dish. Little Szechwan is a great restaurant with amazing food. I’d like to say that it is perfect but many adventurous restaurants suffer from occasionally not being consistent. Hard to admit, but it’s rare that a Double Cheeseburger taste different from day to day, fast food is a science. Good cooking is an art. Tomorrow when you eat, try something new, and then after that, cook something different, not complicated just different, and that my friends is KungFu. Blogstyle. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: CyberChrist EMAIL: cc@dhp.com IP: 66.223.56.165 URL: http://www.hackerjournalc.om DATE: 03/15/2004 11:37:34 AM Movable Type... man, I am insulted... lol. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: billie EMAIL: billie762@aol.com IP: 168.8.240.52 URL: DATE: 03/16/2004 07:45:01 AM You mentioned Little Szechwan. I used to think that was a super restaurant until I tried Pho Tan Tan. You have to go! You would love it! It is just down the street from Little Szechwan. My favorite is the No. 30, Cha Cuon. These fresh rice paper rolls are each about a foot long and cut in half. You dip it in nuoc cham (seasoned fish sauce and lime juice). Inside the cool, soft rice paper are fresh mint leaves, spears of mango, lettuce, and griddle-charred slices of Vietnamese meatloaf. (kinda like a fried bologna, kinda) Deep inside these roll are pencil-thin spring rolls, furled with 10 layers of crisp wrapper and containing a whole, elongated, juicy shrimp. It's not that the flavors are so unusual or that the ingredients so remarkable. It's just the combination of hot and cold, fried and fresh, and sweet and salty. Delish! Paul, you will love them!! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.219.211.230 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 04/14/2004 08:42:45 PM I've cooked lately. Just two weeks ago I made pork chops, green beans, potatoes au gratin, and sauteed mushrooms for my husband for dinner. I know some people cook like everyday, but not me. I'm a pretty good cook, I think. I'm very good at following recipes and directions, and I think I have some instinct. And I even like to cook. But I'm always working during dinner hours. But I was feeling wifey, since I'm a newlywed, so I cooked and he ate it! yay! It makes me want to cook more. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jonathan EMAIL: jonathan@unlikelystories.org IP: 209.30.133.187 URL: DATE: 04/21/2004 08:57:58 PM Hmph. In the past week I've cooked spinach alfredo and albondigas. I'm planning on cooking stroganoff for my birthday. For myself. So lonely. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: working... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/24/2004 06:13:08 PM ----- BODY: For the last week or so I’ve been writing documentation for the gig. We’ve installed some new servers, and the documentation covers how to log in and properly log out. The documentation has taken a few hours to write and days to edit. The editing involves creating a simple interface of screenshots and easy to read language. If written properly the user (any user) will be able to follow the instructions and get up and running. Writing this documentation requires getting into the mindset of the user and then writing it for the user. Its mind numbing and painful to do. So I’ve had some anxiety and really been down while working on this project. I’m done with phase 1. Now I’ll have to present it to my team and coworkers and then re-edit it. Phase 2 is always interesting, but it is also fun, cause as much as I hate people who assign me to writing documentation, then telling me how to edit said documentation, I do love the challenge. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Wireless STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/26/2004 06:46:30 PM ----- BODY: Here’s an interesting situation for dial up users looking to try high bandwidth. The opportunity is available where you could take a laptop, and wireless “B” card. Go to a Starbucks and check out the very fast version of the online life. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Luke: you ready for the linkage possibly: sure Luke: http://gigaom.com/archives/2004/03/apex_gamebox_powered_by_amd.html Luke: http://www.compusa.com/products/product_info.asp?product_code=307818&pfp=external Luke: this is the funniest right here Luke: http://arstechnica.com/news/posts/1080340008.html Luke: right as im all ready to sign up for tmobile Three minutes later... read the link possibly: Anti pay WiFi article possibly: In the end possibly: Tmobile and starbucks possibly: are making a good network possibly: and they are selling two products possibly: who cares if you're not making much on the average site possibly: if you go up from 400k Luke: true Luke: and you know possibly: increasing to 1.4 million (more then tripling your previous year status) you are up 300% possibly: 100% more then the free sites possibly: and possibly: i'm not sure why they are running a T-1? If they are possibly: you can do it with a business DSL account possibly: no problem possibly: and even if it is a T-1 they are getting a corporate rate Luke: dude Luke: if they got umpteen t'1 lines possibly: which is cheaper then what one T-1 runs one guy Luke: they are getting a big ass discount possibly: BIG Luke: so that dig about them paying more than 400 a month in expenses is BS possibly: Yep Learn more about T-Mobile and Starbucks WIFI access Here’s an interesting situation for dial up users looking to try high bandwidth. The opportunity is available where you could take a laptop, and wireless “B” card. Go to a Starbucks and check out the very fast version of the online life. And it would only be a fraction of what you would see on a “G” line or the all mighty ethernet cable. pablo ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Danny EMAIL: jaja@smerica.com IP: 68.158.44.210 URL: DATE: 03/26/2004 06:54:51 PM Yeah and all I need is a thousand dollar laptop A $100 wireless card and money for the account and coffee. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: A 180 of sorts STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: 180 CATEGORY: 180 DATE: 04/14/2004 04:38:38 PM ----- BODY: It’s not only recession times; it’s just shitty right now. And that means that going down is far more likely then going up. ----- EXTENDED BODY: I realized this evening that the biggest thing about Speed 2 wasn’t just that Sandra Bullock did it after The Net. The Net sucked, nothing good can be said about it, but Speed was great. Speed had Keanu, Sandra, action, and all kinds of excitement. Speed 2 on the other hand blew. I want to think it didn’t just suck cause Keanu was gone, we all knew that Jason Patric was sporting a new HRS weave, and the plot blew. Didn’t you just kinda want Keanu to be in this bad sequel? I mean we forgave him for Neouromancer, another bad sci-fi film. You wanna think at the end of the original story that if the guy gets the girl you’ll see them again. You don’t want some explanation that he’s gone, but we got hunky Jason Patic instead. Fuck that. It’s not only recession times; it’s just shitty right now. And that means that going down is far more likely then going up. But we can come together. And if life is a reality show I picked the right partner for it. Hard to talk about being married, JLW and I have been together for years and now we’re “together”. And “together” we have managed to actually dig deeper into the blackness. Interesting, when we were just together we were fiscally up on both ends. Investments take risk, a result I am feeling similar pains with when I consider my ******************************** If I have to go down with someone I’m glad it is JLW. So much of our life is spent with work, that we have begun to understand the detriment of it all. I don’t want to work the rest of my life and neither does she, and that means we have to be smart enough to take the risks now and ride out the slow period, more importantly we have to be successful during the slow period. I don’t know why I thought of Speed 2. It isn’t some hook I can wrap up, and make this poignant with. I do know that I don’t want my life to be like some horrible Jan De Bont script; that’s for sure. But it’s definitely a roller coaster of a ride, and has been fucked up the last few months. I am often too breathless to speak about it online. Then I can have days like today, where I chatted with my boss on the virtues of HDTV. It was a kind of lament. See we both have HD-Ready tv’s, but they require converter boxes and we could upgrade cable and get one, but you know man… These are supposed to be rough times. Guys can sit around debating that kinda shit. And then, strangely, I know life is alright. On another note I still love Dave Chapelle, and I’m always suckered into watching SouthPark before the show. And I’m watching this fucked up one where Carter plays “Asimov The Robot”, and becomes the friend of this kid. It’s very fucked up… ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: figgit@kiki.com IP: 68.219.211.230 URL: DATE: 04/14/2004 04:56:52 PM It’s so painful when I feel like I’m not writing. I don’t know why. I don’t particularly care if I do poetry, or personal work or reviews. God please help me find something to want to write about though. Otherwise, I’m likely to just fucking get weird for a while. Anyway. This is just as much a piece about writing on writing, which I find fascinating when I do it and not when other writers do it. If you’re a writer and write about writing fuck you. Fuck me too. But you gotta guess that sometimes a writer just comes up with the notion of trying to translate what WHAFUCK means. And sometimes we just can’t do it. How do you sit around writing and not mention how you feel about writing. That’s way too hard for me, I want answers out of my work and my work doesn’t always give me the answers. That’s why I do it bitches…. So, sometime I write, sometimes I don’t, sometimes I write. Sometimes I just don’t write, and I get scared. Not sure why… ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.219.211.230 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 04/14/2004 07:08:33 PM Awww. That was kind of sweet. I'm glad you're ready to go down with the ship, but we're not gonna go down. We're still afloat. I haven't been writing much lately either. I like to think it's because I'm happy. I've been pretty happy, floating along, hating work and occasionally freaking out over nothing just to keep it spicey. That's my happy pattern. Maybe your happy too. Or maybe your soul is dying. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.219.211.230 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 04/14/2004 08:48:33 PM Also, I love how you were the first one to comment on your own writing. You're so cute! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: joy EMAIL: blanketgirl@yahoo.com IP: 68.217.15.56 URL: DATE: 06/14/2004 04:25:07 PM I never write when I'm happy either. I try sometimes, but it is always too stupid to read (unlike my sad, tragic writing, which is brimming with intellect and stunning in its brilliance). Also, I never write in my journal when I'm sad. Thus, I have no account of the bad bits except for the proetry, blah. So, P, maybe your soul is dying, but I'd prefer if you were just happy. And J: You spelled "you're" like "your." I forgive you. Just in case, do you guys have a periscope? ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: text comes from pause STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 06/17/2004 03:51:58 PM ----- BODY: I don’t know what to say about the silence, files resting, sometimes stirred and tweaked, still resting on the hard drive. I know that this last year has been something hard to describe. ----- EXTENDED BODY: You ever get to that point where you write and write and write and put nothing up? That’s right, this piece is not for the weary hearted who don’t want to hear about writing about writing. I swear, back when I used to ask for opinions it was always my chummy writing bits about writing that got people on the “boo” wagon. Of course when you’re stuck in the writing grind, sometimes that’s all you can do to get the fingers flowing. When JLW writes she says things like “I used to be depressed. I used to think about death all the time. About how I wished I were dead, about the dead people” JLW chugs along like any good established writer would with a solid voice and consistent style. Not only am I wary of consistency, I dread not seeing variation in my work, some sense of evolution as I continue down and path, and quite frankly some of my best work is drawn from emotion and feelings and if they are muted so is my writing. I begin to question now, do drugs or alcohol or distractions mute your voice? Does trying to find the artificial quiet in the storm, the faux zen vibe really get you through the tough times, without creating tougher times ahead? I think I’m starting to find out the truth about that theory, I think (over the years) I have become a test subject to that notion and the results are coming in. Consistency is not something I want in cooking, but I strive for it in life. Consistency makes Jack a dull boy. Jack, consistency is for the job and driving, does it have to be boring. Consistency equals death. I don’t know any more in words, I don’t... I want something different and the personalities are raging to define what different is, without just attempting to be different for the sake of it. . In Vegas, when Juan called me from California I was mutely excited, it wasn’t till he knocked on the door, white girl on his arm that I felt a relief. Getting married, the build up, the finale, drunken sex underneath a slanted mirror. Vegas baby. Juan was a comfort of the past, unchanged, but aged and somehow weary of the world. I don’t know what to say about the silence, files resting, sometimes stirred and tweaked, still resting on the hard drive. I know that this last year has been something hard to describe. I have come to no realizations, no insights about life. I have lain dormant and I have not waited for something to strike things up. People often times ask me about relationships and no matter how I phrase things, the response is that I am too practical, that no romanticism has come through. But I still remember the metal taste of humidity in my mouth when I stood beside JLW and she cried about her fucked up life, and three months of three sporadic emails came together and I felt something for her, connected with her like no one else. Gun on my side: comfort, steel, danger, Jonnie impishly in the background, hoping to stir things up find something interesting to find his attention. You romanticize love, I live in a house, work everyday, pay my bills, practicality is not a way of being it is survival, least you be swallowed. I am a writer, poet and many more things, but every day I should romanticize it? I live it. Every day I get up and go to work, for a while I did only that, but now it changes slowly. But I probably won’t show it with words, it’ll probably come in images and sight. Soon. 8am, Juan is persuaded to cut my hair, after a morning of drinking on the dawn of betrothing, we stand in the bathroom, mirror watching, two eyes, a stranger, observing the ritual of our childhood. For me it is ritual more then anything else, his hands, warm, radiating against my skin. Pair of clippers, flown miles from their resting place, buzzing caressing across my skin. Some anxiety, like release, tears flowing from my face, and all along a stranger, intimate to our experience watches. If you find yourself muted inside, constricted make the journey pilgrim. Vegas will change you. Driving with Leah today, concerned about the glare of the sun, we talked about love and relationships. I talked about love and relationships Leah mostly listened. Leah will tell you often that what she likes in relationships is not so much interaction, proximity is fine, and conversation is not necessary. Not very romantic huh. Inside, alone, always alone… When you’re married, when you walk down the isle, more empty chairs then full, you realize you are alone, but not by yourself. Writing is not escape; writing is an expression of self. What does it means when you don’t write? I’m not sure, but I do know that today, I am more alive, aware then I was for a long time, and it comes and goes. I apologize for using a definition, but romanticism means: a literary, artistic, and philosophical movement characterized chiefly by a reaction against neoclassicism and an emphasis on the imagination and emotions, and marked especially in English literature by sensibility and the use of autobiographical material, an exaltation of the primitive and the common man, an appreciation of external nature, an interest in the remote, a predilection for melancholy, and the use in poetry of older verse…. I am a romantic, otherwise, white gold, sheathed in platinum (a lasting metal) would not grace my index finger, which for years: dreamed of silver, lived silver, sat beneath the light. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: 180: Untouchable Outcaste Beats Volume STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 06/17/2004 04:22:40 PM ----- BODY: I got a series of old Techno albums, all with a dry European withdrawal to them and none of the urban appeal which made the clubs rock. ----- EXTENDED BODY: About four months ago I bought >*1 Untouchable Outcaste Beats Volume 1>*2 Untouchable Outcaste Beats Volume 1 Unlikely Stories 2.0 is live. Check it out cause you can't do better. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Evolution of silence in retrospect. STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 06/17/2004 06:10:01 PM ----- BODY: I guess I have to think that you at least call someone JoJo or Annie, complain of my desire to talk on things that do not intrigue you and then you move on to whatever it is that you might do in ElPaso. ----- EXTENDED BODY: I was some bitch…Maybe a girl pitifully in love with you (how long has it been) I’d be hurt by your actions, wonder and question them. But I am reminded of when we talk, the safe times (I guess) when things are ok, or it servers your purpose. But lately, when I want to talk you ignore me; maybe come to some conclusion of irrelevance and constantly in passivity (have you resorted to passivity eh?) you just act silently. I guess I have to think that you at least call someone JoJo or Annie, complain of my desire to talk on things that do not intrigue you and then you move on to whatever it is that you might do in ElPaso. And I take enough time to write about this. I do care. Or maybe idle chisel, I want to inscribe this moment, remember it. Remind myself that now in conservation, silence is suitable for words. That interaction is optional. And I still think back to Oxford Books and Caribou coffee and two black bags, faggily bought at the same times. Mine always bursting, yours always like a cake, spoken to early. I want to think on isolation and other dramatic things, but words are coming fast and I can only reminiscence on the past and wonder what you’re doing when I type and you don’t respond. possibly: emphasis@mindspring.com is dead eh. Long live emphasis@mindspring.com. p10pablo@*(&*(^(*^.com is cool. I got serious email space, but I need the joining option sent back to your group yo. Jonnie04: joining option? possibly: for the group possibly: Likewise (temper your notion with the thought that i'm drinking eh) Jonnie04: it just sent me a message saying you joined possibly: Remember not to be a bitch eh about your new infant. A new father is always sensitive, i'd like to talk to you about your design on Unlikely, but I likewise understand that you want me to fill a role, not moderate your design, but I am here to offer: opinion, help, thoughts you. Jonnie04: it's not important possibly: Taoist of you, but I'm not sure I understand eh? 10 minutes later… Jonnie04: those links don't work any more, they were at a test location, the site is live now & the links are http://www.unlikelystories.org/biosibs.shtml and http://www.unlikelystories.org/biolesant.shtml possibly: Dig. Jonnie04: I'm gonna take a shower possibly: Damn man, i'm feeling dissed eh possibly: I'll be around though. possibly: I dig you Jonathan, not against you eh. possibly: Well... possibly: When you come back possibly: What is Kurt's last name, do you remember how to spel it eh? 25 minutes later… Jonnie04: I think it's Kucheman possibly: Zettlymoyer? Jonnie04: oh! Jonnie04: Zettlemoyer possibly: Not it, but I dig you. Jonnie04: does he not hate you? possibly: My friend, are you a bit sensitive about US2.0 possibly: Oh I believe he hates us all eh. possibly: I'm just writing about the flick and other shit. 10 minutes later… Jonnie04: I just can't do a site redesign at this point, ain't gonna happen Jonnie04: and I was very hurt when you didn't know my URL Jonnie04: and you had tons of opportunities to see the design before it went live possibly: Do you mind me asking why? And as for URL, you were so intent on burying Unlikely, I didn't assume you were still using the same link, I thought you were going radical, not safe eh. (What the fuck does that mean?) Jonnie04: in any case, if you have some tweaking ideas, great, a redesign won't happen, right now I'm cleaning this nasty-ass pad, I've let everything go while working possibly: It was not meant to offend my brother. Jonnie04: have you talked to Doug since the Drama? possibly: Sure, but only light, he's busy. Jonnie04: dig possibly: I am saddened (though I don't dwell on) the fact that speaking frank is absent from our relationship. Likewise, in Taoist terms for me I Don't think it's as heavy as you may (?) dread it being. I only wanted to talk to you about design elements. I know you have slaved over the build on the site, it is not my intention to tear that down, only offer thoughts and influence. Likewise in closing to this topic, I understand that you may not want to hear it, but I have always listened when you spoke on such same subjects eh. 10 minutes later… Jonnie04: dig it man, it doesn't technically use "frames" but the same concept so the sidebars are easy to tweak, the central secton is not. Colors are easy, of course. I know the font size & spacing on the right has to be changed, I'm just going to have to study CSS a little so I've been putting it off, but not for long possibly: Well shit man, no need to shat on me for your sense of limitations possibly: Mostly cause possibly: If anyone can understand your fucking pain in design over content. possibly: It would fucking be me. possibly: Did we miss the oppurtunity to draw blood and become brothers? possibly: I guess as an equal and for damn sure I feel the heat of being your equal. I feel dis(dissed)missed in this silence you keep bringing when I: question, ask, wonder. I don't understand what feels like regression in our ability to be honest, when we both carried the same black bag, with so many different tricks inside. Still waiting for a response…. What I’ve learned, in relationships, marriage and over time, if someone doesn’t want to talk about something, it’s not going to happen. You can stick, probe, massage and do everything else, but it doesn’t matter. It’s frustrating, but I don’t have answers about how to approach a person when they don’t want to talk and sometimes they never do. It gets complicated, cause the intermingling time is the most interesting absence to the dialogue of what you want to discuss. It’s not hear in a text based rendition of a text basis of “read between the lines you fucker” that I find curious, the silence, layered between having to move on with my life, is still empty though, I haven’t found a good way to recapture it. Occasionally Jonnie will come back, apologize, joke and pave over It with casual asphalt and then we have to move on. Like sleep you often times don’t get it back. With JLW no addressing of the subject is “no addressing of the subject” I can hammer and bang, but usually, no point to it. With Jonnie, we come back to it, make up and kiss and like any good couple, we move on, but I still hit those potholes as I drive down memory lane. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Blah Blah Blah Blah you Fuckers STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Excerpt CATEGORY: Excerpt DATE: 06/18/2004 12:01:43 PM ----- BODY: I’m always in the center. I’m that little plastic yellow thing you used to stick in 45 rpm records. ----- EXTENDED BODY: I’ve been wary so long to write about anything. Too wary to write and draw conflict. That first year, a series of pieces which were just about how I felt. I bothered a lot of people, I didn’t really try to spare my friends, I wasn’t writing a tell all, I just drew the shades on my life and started letting out how I felt and I didn’t use pseudonyms or blank out shit, I just wrote about it. It definitely seems like it’s easier to protect the innocent, spare the truth when it could hurt me, and do other things to shape and make safe what I’m talking about. As a matter of fact that means I can’t talk about: JLW, Shari, drinking, drugs, fucked up people, the crowd I sometimes hang with, the bad people I know, the fucked up things I see and if I’m lucky I can sit at home and value constriction. When you unfurl from sleep, it’s not the old you that comes back the salty warrior. Those are rings on my tree, I’m in the center spreading out. I’m always in the center. I’m that little plastic yellow thing you used to stick in 45 rpm records. This is boring. I should maybe have never fucked with any of these broads who I’ve fucked with in the last few years. I don’t think I trust women anymore, I think women may just all be lying, moody self serving creatures who don’t think outside themselves and if that’s the case, then it probably has something to do with having a vagina, though it must be recognized that men can do a fair interpretation of acting like a bitch, as Jonnie has shown lately. JLW told me how she noticed the way I interacted with my mom one day, how If I don’t like something she says I “shut her down” well no shit, cause my mom is a nagging control freak and she taught me to take shit off no one, that would naturally include her. This was some reference to me being a controlling person. A control freak? No I give a rats ass what you do, if we live together it gets more complicated. Get married and locked down, I care a lot about what you do, cause it fucks with my mood, as I’m sure things I do fuck with your mood. How about this, I don’t really care about the grocery store bags never moving from where you take shit out of them, whatever! The fucking clothes in the basement. I’m snapping…I can feel it, these fucking people all these bitches have gotten on my one last nerve. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 06/18/2004 02:15:09 PM huh. Well, I'm certainly glad that you fucked with me. You have made my life wonderful and I regret that you don't feel the same way. Just to clarify, I wasn't implying that you were a control freak (you are)with my observation about your mom, but that you have developed some bad communication habits when someone upsets you (you have). I'll try to get those clothes out of the basement, eh? Maybe that will help and you won't feel the need to classify me in with the rest of those bitches. In any case, I love you madly and I am always your best friend and biggest fan. Write whatever you want about me. Your Wife, JLW ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: billie EMAIL: billie762@aol.com IP: 64.12.116.133 URL: http://let us rest in peace! DATE: 06/19/2004 05:34:21 AM I know you are hurt and angry because you see Jonnie dismissing you, but why lash out at all the women in your life... Why drag all the past "BROADS/BITCHES" into it? We did our time! We got OUR lashings... Let us R.I.P!! :) ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Just saw your blog Pt1 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 06/18/2004 12:23:42 PM ----- BODY: From Jonnie > Just saw your blog. > I assume you meant that to represent your > resignation. I accept. >Sincerely > Jonathan Penton My blog? You fucker! My fucking blog. FUCKKKKKKYOOOOOUUUU Jonthan Penton. I spit on you. I am your last true friend (only one ever you fuck) I spit on you. Bastard. He called it a blog. Dirty bastard. I’m A freaking BLOGGER! OMG ;) ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 06/18/2004 02:25:59 PM We find the term "blog" offensive and prefer "online journal." Thanks for your cooperation with this sensitive issue. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Just saw your blog Pt2 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 06/18/2004 12:48:27 PM ----- BODY: And all that's some sad shit cause all I was going to suggest was that you decrease your font size on your right column cause it is busy and detracts from your primary frame for displaying material. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Just saw your blog Pt2 My reply to Jonnie’s email Jon go fuck yourself, and don't bother me till you get back your ball sack . I'm tired of the fact that you don't hold conversations anymore, i'm sure it works out for your moods, but I don't have any desire to be indirect with you, you do that silly shit not I, no one accuses me of fucking being indirect about shit. You're not sincere anymore, you don't really act like my friend anymore and you don't really seem like you're up to conflict or disagreement. And all that's some sad shit cause all I was going to suggest was that you decrease your font size on your right column cause it is busy and detracts from your primary frame for displaying material. That was it you sensitive lil fucker. You have officially tried to treat me about one step lower then your bitches and hoes and I can't do it. I'm not gonna try to convince you that i'm your equal anymore and that I deserve better, too many times, just like this. > Just saw your blog. Hell I thought that was free advertising and me expressing myself and keeping it real. I've never treated you any different in my writing and you used to take anything I wrote in stride and now you're flinching I guess. > I assume you meant that to represent your > resignation. I accept. This is witless, I did no such thing, but this is the new way you communicate with these strange little coward tactics. I assume, resignation, I accept? Whafuck. You have become a coward, you used to be annoying and brave, and now you seem so small. Don't bother me anymore Jonnie until you've moved forward. I've sadly discovered on my own that it doesn't seem like you can go back? If you know what I mean. I love you and always have loved you, but you're habit of treating me like a bitch, is you acting like a bitch and projecting on me. Fuck that Adios my friend. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Angela EMAIL: enygma77@hotmail.com IP: 68.109.36.12 URL: DATE: 06/18/2004 06:16:55 PM Hey babe, just saw your blog. Yes, BLOG. Heh. Howdy from Jaded and Crazy, W. TX. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: j0ja EMAIL: j0ja@yahoo.nu IP: 206.243.39.17 URL: DATE: 06/19/2004 09:55:05 AM Hiya Pueblo, I think your blog is gonna spiral out of control now that you have stopped with all the tired old recipes and moved on to the more popular personalized attacks that make the Internet so qwwwwl. I was trying to fill someone in on this "debate" *giggles* last night and came up with the new expression "blog.blog.blog", which i shall now ever use en lieu of "bla.bla.bla". Thanks for that! Also, thanks for mentioning me -its like being the second cousin once removed of fame (; ~joja, the m0nkeygrrl ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: p10pablo@yukyuk.com IP: 68.158.38.200 URL: http://www.kungfuonline.org DATE: 06/19/2004 02:05:51 PM Wow. You know I followed Justin since the start of his site. Admired his comfort in shifting when consistency and rote trapped him in a box. And I have always loved his writing and what he shares of himself on the web. It's also pretty cool to be the father of online journaling and have lasted so long, even though, like any good personal web site, he has his ups and downs, he is still amazing with his output. I am likewise proud of my own half assed efforts to reflect my life though my online persona. I am likewise comfortable with allowing communities of followers, admiriers and people who just like to peek at my life, come and enjoy the scene I paint. that's why when someone says "I think your blog is gonna spiral out of control now that you have stopped with all the tired old recipes " I take those comments from you as a great compliment, since I wrote alot of the recipes and this is my cooking show. So thank you m0nkeygrrl and ring me up sometime, you sound facisnating. Pablo. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: *cough* EMAIL: anony@anony.net IP: 66.23.223.230 URL: DATE: 06/29/2004 02:30:10 PM Who would be this "father of online journaling"? ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: The outage is over STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Excerpt CATEGORY: Excerpt DATE: 06/24/2004 09:07:10 AM ----- BODY: Pictures from the Vegas Gallery can still be found here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: French Fry Survey Pt1 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 06/30/2004 05:25:47 PM ----- BODY: Survey Whore I test french fries for a quick buck. ----- EXTENDED BODY: I have been participating in corporate surveys for the last ten years. Usually the surveys involve answering questions about a product or concept and getting some strange high, being apart of early product influencing. But tonight I went and tested French Fries. Doing survey work first involves doing a phone interview, they ask you questions and if you qualify for the survey they invite you out for a few hours to share your feelings, more often then not with a group of other people. The questions are random and professionally drawn up by industry analysts. You can try to gauge how the questions might go, but really, you never have any idea if you’ll fit the profile they want. A few weeks ago I was called about a survey on fast food. I answered all the questions and it’s possible that my new healthy lifestyle negated me from participation, cause I don’t do fast food much anymore. I was a bit disappointed. But they then called me again and asked me the same questions and some new questions. You can try to answer the questions differently, but again it may not matter, hard to gauge where they are going, even when you were quizzed before. I failed the second interview. On the third interview I failed again. At this point I was bewildered, thinking maybe I was just being phone scammed for a free interview on my habits. But they called me a fourth time (desperate for recruits I guess) and I passed the phone portion of the interview. This evening I drove to a test facility, close to the first apartment I shared with JLW and this is where the second phase began. Now I began to doubt the sensibleness of my fat ass going to some survey on bad food. I mean, I guess I am a good subject for that reason, though no questions of self control, weight, or admiration of Orson Wells were questions during the phone interview. In the lobby of this small anonymous development I came to the start observing my companions. For the first twenty minutes it was me and four other black guys. I imagined all sorts of strange stereotypical scenarios, curious about if it might be an all black cast. Usually when I do surveys it’s always me and one other black person. Later on came the women, all together in a wave. The strange people, these folks almost always recognized falsely or otherwise as “regulars” in the survey biz walked in and made the waiting room feel a bit strange, and then the Asians came in. All in all it’s was about thirty of us. I’ve never been in such a diverse crowd; usually it’s just me and a bunch of white folks. While we waited the last session of people came out. This whole crowd had one similar quality, they didn’t look anyone in the eye, what kinda survey was going on? The other strange element to the survey is that this one is a two parter, you gotta come back a second time. This is so they can hit you with the same set of samples and get your opinion again. The thin walls of the observation room, littered with mikes and a mirror wall were subdued by the horrible décor, late seventies, with wood chair rails and shitty wallpaper. The first wait was about twelve minutes. during the wait, one of the black guys asked if we were being recorded and monitored. The Instructor, a lispy dry fella said no, a big lie of course and a odd question. All surveys are recorded for audio and video, often times a live audience sits behind large mirror walls and guide the survey. The rules were pretty simple for the survey, taste six different versions of a French Fry: grade it on looks, smell, taste, external texture, internal texture, crispness, flavor inside, flavor outside and what you thought of it overall. Before and between each test you’ll bite a cracker and drink a sip of spring water to clear your palette. Exhaustion seems to be a common element of participants regardless of race or age. Half of the people laid there heads down between each round of fries. The Fries were the courtesy size, you might get at a joint which did some kinda “meal” combo. About ten fries per small plastic saucer. We sat at a table with white paper table cloth, a small disposable saucer with six crackers and a small disposable clear cup of water. I sat beside a fidgety married asian girl. The monitor sat ahead of us and looked like he lost the bet to host this event. You aren’t really allowed to do anything like read a magazine or chat on your cell phone. I listened intently to sounds of people preparing the different versions of the French Fries in the other room. This intent listening always promotes sleepiness in me. There is no talking, no joking and no interaction at a taste test. Everyone just waits, eat a cracker, drink some water and wait. Each serving of French Fries are labeled with a number, you write the number and your name on your review sheet. You then observe the fries, smell them and begin to taste them. I was of course curious about who might be designing the new fries. By the interview questions, I decided it might be one of the second tier franchises like Krystals or Sonic. The first four fry tests were lousy, they all safely looked like McDonald fries, but they tasted like shit. I was curious to the science of how the fries might be designed. I’d read articles about the constant challenge to try to design fries which are as good as McDonald’s fries. During the early nineties you might remember all the fast food restaurants always coming out with new fries. Wendy’s has that limp shitty fry, only good when hot. Burger King is willing to tweak the recipe constantly, but none of them are good and everybody else kinda sucks, except for Checkers and their Cajun Fries. People who enjoy Jack In The Box and other franchise fries can tell me how they might be different, maybe better. The last two fries were amazing and tasted awesome. The fifth trial fries were the best, they had a very similar texture to McDonalds but had some slightly different vibe to them, saltier and meatier. The last batch were still good, but designed to be a bit softer on the inside. Then it was over. As we shuffled out, if you were to look into the office to your left, you could see the cameras recording the room, and the audio gear recording the occasional “mmm” and “ahs” of the session. Because I’m used to talking during surveys, I didn’t quite know what to make of the experience. There is usually camaraderie and disdain, allegiances are made, divisions drawn into the sand. This was just tasting and writing. It took about twenty minutes after the survey to realize that French Fries for dinner wasn’t particularly good. It didn’t make me feel all that great, I didn’t want to eat and while the fries were dry and crisp during the testing, I felt like I’d eaten a gallon of grease afterwards. Tomorrow I get to repeat it again, probably the same versions for a double blind test. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: laughin_boy2013 EMAIL: laughin_boy2013@yahoo.com IP: 24.151.155.82 URL: http://groups.yahoo.com/groups/demented1 DATE: 07/01/2004 03:06:46 AM I take surveys online. I recall one I participated in about that video game "Shinobi". I watched that comercial at least seven times. After each question you had to watch it again. I had the damn thing memorized by the time I was done. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Crazy in TX EMAIL: enygma77@hotmail.com IP: 68.109.36.12 URL: DATE: 07/01/2004 03:12:28 AM So, do you get paid to do this? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: pablo@blahblahblah.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 07/01/2004 05:02:42 AM Surveys in RL pay good money, though often times the food surveys seem to pay less then the regular survey. I must admit, I was surprised to hear that I’d have to come back twice (a rarity in the biz) and that the amount it was paying since it was lower then what I usually make. But survey participants can make between $25-$200 dollars an hour. It’s not unheard of to walk into a survey for twenty minutes and walk out feeling light on your feet. And let’s not talk medical surveys. The professional circuit survey crowd buys cars and pay back taxes with medical surveys. This is the category of drug/procedural induced Q&A where it’s not unheard of to be able to make thousands of dollars for a few days work. I’m still kicking myself for being chicken shit a few weeks ago about going to my first medical survey. It was a two day Sleep Study and I think I would have made five hundred bucks off of it. But they wanted to stick a watchamacallit up my nose and if they were only doing it once I might have, but I have delicate sinuses and that’s not where I like having things stuck inside of me. Online surveys are the runner up, most of them kinda dick you. They offer a lot of “Take our survey to win a new Palm 5” and “Enter our survey for an automatic chance to win $5000 bucks” the good online ones typically require a phone interview, and are just moderated online, in a interactive chatroom with a virtual whiteboard, so they aren’t horrible and sometimes the money is better cause the overhead is lower for the host of the survey, but most of them are crap. Pablo. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: French Fry Survey Pt 2 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 07/01/2004 07:09:37 PM ----- BODY: What can I say? ----- EXTENDED BODY: I wasn’t so excited about french fries on the second day of the survey. But they only pay you to come both times. We lost three people after the first night, I get the feeling they just couldn’t stand the prospect of boredom, carbs and sitting in a room which reminded them of detention. For whatever reason I was more upbeat on the second day. I spent my time in the waiting room chatting with the IT girl who supported the AV gear in the office. The only interesting thing of note about the survey team this time around is that everyone was dressed well. We were forced to sit in the same room, in the same seats, while the same team served us. For whatever reason, instead of zoning out, I spent most of my time watching the other survey participants by looking through the two way mirror. At one point, while thinking of some storyline I did completely go to sleep at one point (instant snoring on my part) and woke up before my head snapped open and I really let rip with some snoring. My side mate was a pretty chinese lady, she spent her time doodling (not allowed by the guidelines) and pulling her skirt up and rubbing her thighs. She doodled the first night, she didn’t rub her thighs though. The other interesting thing about her was that when she wrote her name she wrote two of them, one of them like normal the other one in parenthesis, kinda interesting. But that was it, got my cash, went about my way, once again I was disgusted by the fries. You think they would have given you a choice of soda or something else to cut the grease. Fuck french fries I can live without them awhile. Definitely though, I felt like a fat fuck going to some place to eat a bunch of fries and get paid for it. It brings some balance I guess, life changing events can’t always be car crashes or near death experiences. As a matter of fact when you hear the statement “Life changing” it sounds so meaningful, but it happens so often. And I don’t quite honestly believe that the french fries were life changing in that big way, they did realign and focus me though. The experience did make me think that eating bad food should be more of a bad experience, something that does make me feel kinda shitty afterwards, as opposed to comforting and fulfilled. And that’s not how bad food is, I love it, I eat it less `only cause I know that the calories are slowly killing me. You diet and it doesn’t mean you want to lose weight, good result, maybe living a little longer is my goal. Maybe understanding consequences of my actions is better and if I eat less, lose weight and come out better for it, that would at least be a change in how I’ve lead my life. Of course I used to say that I was glad I was fat, I thought it was a balance, I am so perfect otherwise. Of course, it helped that I love food so much, easy to come to that conclusion and easy to keep doing things the way I’ve done it for so long. And that is a whole lot like eating fries over and over again, and I say fuck that. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Another movie offer STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 07/03/2004 11:48:09 PM ----- BODY: I'm offered to direct another DV flick and I reflect (bitch and whine) about Lead Rain. ----- EXTENDED BODY: So I got offered to direct a short film, a small short comedy from my friend Dee. Dee is a screenwriter who I met through writer Scott Holstad. Dee got in touch with me a few years back to purchase Scott’s book. Jon and I published a chap book of Scott’s over at Sick Puppy Press. We started to chat and hang out, and these days we hang out occasionally, I do her computer work, we talk writing, and have dinner alot. A few weeks ago I drove a few hours out of Atlanta to the small city of Augusta to do a computer job for Dee’s mom. While working on the computer, drinking scotch and chatting with Dee and her mother -a well read lady who enjoys a good snooker of vodka with her fresca Dee threw out that I should direct her short. She was fishing and I was avoiding the hook. Frankly after working as Cinematographer/Sound Man/Lighting Guy for the failed film project “Things” for Lead Rain Entertainment. I was disdainful of the thought. Probably a fault of mine Is that I like To do shit I’m good at. I don’t like to do shit I’m unfamiliar with, and doing those three roles, with Jonnie helping, on a film I wasn’t quite a hundred percent on was disastrous. I have never couped an organization, gotten so much power and then been disinterested in the results. Don’t get me wrong, as I’ve stated in the past for those of you who may remember, I admired Lead Rain. I was willing to get suckered into the whole ordeal of being a (quote un quote) partner in the film cause I was excited. Their first film excited the shit out of me and it was a (not quite “short” or full length feature) medium length film, filled with the flaws of what a film often has to be burdened with to carry the story. The story line was a bit weak, but the characters rocked and the simple stripped elements of the cinematography (achieved through the use of VHS-C and a bad video capture card on a win98 pc) was electric, if a bit jagged around the sharp lines. The sophomore film was a action ghost story and didn’t have the same juice as the first story, the characters were weaker and the structure which led the characters through the plot was weak. Behind the scenes it was a little worse, the director my good friend Doug (haven’t heard from you lately buddy) was going through a case of the blahs, the writer was the most enthusiastic and maybe the most frustrated of us cause so many people were down on the script, the previous director of the first film Chris Kaylor was and is a bit of a auteur and he was mostly just kinda frustrated, but he’d given so much power up for the film (his choice) and given it to my own rag tag trio, cause he was in his own words “burnt out”. We owned the hard work, editing, cinematography, lighting and sound. The original principles of the group were focusing on other things. Kinda like making a film with two groups. As I’ve mentioned in the past, it went to shit, lotta anger and frustration all around which accumulated in the last great email war. Fighting over email, or going at it on a message board, fills the world full of angry avatars all who represent the worst in people. My methodology for this battle was to throw out homosexual innuendos and intellectual barbs, Jonnie backed me up and kicked it up a serious notch, with serial killer mutterings, and JLW just came on with her own strange sensible way. Well Jonnie got his life threatened, I wanted back in on the film, but couldn’t drop the wisecracking intellectual way I had, too quick be cool, more stuck on principle then the point sometimes. It was a good fight, a nice moment in internet irrelevance. The reason why this whole shit fest started? An announcement was made that the film was being restructured. No big deal right? Well, at this point, our director was indifferent, he was going back to teaching and wanted to host soccer. The writer Zettlemoyer was furious, the script had been rewritten, tweaked and mauled by the group, the new story was not much better. On top of everything, we were shooting a trailer, looking for Roger Corman like funding (which wasn’t going to happen) and no one was much interested in that save for the Zettlemoyer and Kaylor. But three of us weren’t actually invited to that meeting, or to vote in the change. The fact that anything about the movie was changing was a positive. The fact that editing, cinematography, lighting, sound and our three positions were being cut, that was an issue. The restructuring was one of those oustings which was a bit of a surprise to say the least, sent rather cowardly over email. The reason why we were given the power in the first place was because of a combination of burnout, distribution of work and cause we had the expensive gear. We were offered the chance to reapply for jobs, nothing good mind you, just lackey roles, we could help on the film if we wanted too. We were told that we weren’t needed cause Chris Kaylor had bought a new camera, updated his computers and was ready to take over everything in true auteur fashion. Kinda sad… My friend Doug took a good position, a safe one, he defended our eclectic trio and knew nothing of the plot (E tu Doug? Nah…), but I didn’t sense any true principled break from the group on Doug’s part. Doug to his credit, did what he is good at, he stayed neutral and is still with Lead Rain to this day. The three of us JLW, Jonnie and myself, waged a holy verbal war, which got a little indy digital film it’s last rites. After being canned, we were told the movie would go on, it would be be remade without us. That didn’t happen. I wish in all honesty that I hadn’t done that. I don’t really think much of time machines or going back and undoing things. Lead Rain is working on a new flick Enigma and it seems to be working for them. My disdain of joining a group and watching it not work, in a situation where I admired all the people in the room sucks. The truth is that organizations have to be extreme and think for the best of the group. That part they did well. Being such an outspoken guy my disinterest in the film project should maybe have been in quitting, or taking on some lesser role, not likely that it would have been accepted as anything but betrayal, had I done it earlier then my firing (coming back in said rarely thought of time machine) but it would have given me more dignity in the situation. And I continued to lessen my own dignity more by engaging in a satisfying email fight. For whatever reason the beginning of the film work came at the same time when I was really excited (fad?) in the thought of making film, and ended in the realization that making a film would involve me working not just in a handpicked (by the grace of god) kinda group which would see it to the end. My desire to do film work, working with so many people waned and got shot to shit. I love to collaborate, it’s why I can devote so many words to talking about Jonnie, he’s my counterpart in collaboration. I’m sure I could chat with more people, do the rounds and kiss babies, work up a team, but I want to really be part of a team, not a cult of personality. I wish the best to Lead Rain. They are good guys, for all the potential in their future and the variations they may attempt, they have done something gorgeous in their past and will likely find that magic again and I wish I was a part of it; in any role. 2. Anyway, my buddy Dee has asked me to direct her short film. Of all Dee’s scripts I like this one a lot. It’s funny, fresh, small and I can imagine seeing it to it’s end. But at the same time I suspect she wants me to actually direct and shoot this film. Now when you sit in the directors chair, it’s not boring, the whole production sits on your shoulders and you gotta make it happen. Hell, working with Lead Rain, I saw how frustrating it might be to direct. Likewise, from the shooting side, working with Lead Rain on a special effects film, where just like they say on the docutainment’s you find on the second DVD of your special edition movie, it’s really fucking boring. Special effects shooting basically says that you have to fix the camera into a locked position. You’re allowed to give your thought on framing and why it may not work, but you’re still fighting for your shot. Of course, a series of fixed shots could let you do your thing, but it’s hard. So if I’m offered a job to direct a short by my writing buddy, a buddy who is a Leo, possibly more pushy then me, and prone to sometimes not listen. Sorry Dee, I’m not bitching, but a Leo knows a Leo. I am curious about the shoot, for a short film it’s got a lot of locations and this mini movie could give me tons of action behind the camera and with directing, it’s still kinda big though. Remember, this piece isn’t about Lead Rain and the clusterfuck movie I helped them not make, or about my aggressive Leo friend Dee who has a good script she’s offered to me to direct. This piece is really about me, I mean this is what they call a blog right? Can I direct this piece? Do I want to direct this piece? Do I want to direct this piece and again be put into the bad Lead Rain scenario of having to shoot, light and be concerned about sound? I don’t know, surely this piece will spurn conversation with Dee about her film. I don’t really want to be responsible for someone else’s entry into the world of filmmaking. If I make my own short film, it’s my thing, and I’ll worry about everything, and I’ll likewise still (hopefully) have the ability to use someone to worry about at least sound. Motherfuckers… 3. One last thing about Lead Rain, the first Lead Rain movie Siege Of The Dead was grainy and had a lot of the same elements which made Night Of The Living Dead good. It was raw, is still very retro (being low budget it was shot on B&W) and while the characters did silly shit, you stilled mourned the; most of tjhem. Lead Rain survived the nastiness of VHS-C with the horrible porting and losing proper color correction with the analog transfer, gorgeous results, but accidental folks. Lead Rain hadn’t done Digital film, they wanted to, but they were a bit pussy about it and lacking the gear, not to mention, it seemed nice to expand the group and share the burden. And being a digital film guy (digital film is good, but raw and ultra real) I wanted to tone down the super video look of the movie, I wanted to do this with lighting and tone. This choice of lighting (I was the lighting guy) was vetoed cause it might fuck up the old school, poor man’s frame for frame special effects. My lighting effects would go for primarily low light shots, using natural lighting, small background amplification and, using strobes and glowsticks near the subjects to reduce the graininess of low light DV shooting. It was an action movie, so all the conventions were acceptable. There was a big no on this choice, Chris would have had to do far more work, grading the light filters on his fucking ghosts, as he placed them into the film frame by frame (30 frames a second for digital video) . Instead we were gonna fake light it all and throw the ghosts in on framed interlay and fucking hope. The problem with all of this was that it left the film grainy and still underlit as far as the Digital Video was concerned. Chris was still rolling with windows 98 and dialup so we couldn’t pipe it to him highspeed over the internet, like his favorite director George Lucas did during Star Wars Episode 1, we had to mail that shit. Motherfucker, that’s the funny thing man, I didn’t fucking care about Kurt’s script, I thought from the start if I could light it well it would fucking work, not be as good as the first movie, but better in shooting quality and still doing something more then the first. Fixed shots, shitty lighting, bad DOGMA-95 technique… I’m glad that flick fucking died and I hope Chris took some of my ideas to make the next one better, cause he’ll need them. DV is great for reality TV, but you can’t do it on a nobudget indy flick. If this was worth reading for any reason it might be so that I could suggest the good indy DV flick called the Anniversary Party. This movie was written and directed by Jennifer Jason Leigh and Alan Cumming. It was shot by John Bailey, he filmed Swimming to Cambodia, Cat People and In the line of Fire. The film was produced on a twenty five thousand DV camcorder and used every lighting trick imaginable to give it a film like sense of care in it’s production and is great. Good night. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Dee EMAIL: julygagirl@yahoo.com IP: 68.220.80.95 URL: DATE: 07/04/2004 11:35:51 AM I am sort of flattered to be mentioned in your column, Sweetie, but at the same time, I'd like to make a couple of comments/corrections. 1. I am a Cancer, not a Leo. Just correcting the record. 2. I'd like to discuss making the film in a slightly less public forum. I think it would be a totally different experience than your Lead Rain deal - sorry that went sour on you. 3. If you don't want to do my script, no big deal. I just thought you'd bring a nice slant to the material. I think it can be done quickly and very low budget. I'd get the script locked in, and plan out everything very carefully ahead of time. We could be co-producers if you like. However, as much as I like to control things, I'd then defer to your directorial instincts. I think it could be a pretty happy experience. // Let's discuss over dinner one day soon, OK? ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Moore ok with Bootlegging STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 07/04/2004 12:33:08 PM ----- BODY: Michael Moore says he's ok with Fahrenheit 9/11 being bootlegged on line. click here. The original text can also be found here for you late bloomers who missed the direct link. ----- EXTENDED BODY: "Fury as Fahrenheit 9/11 director backs illegal not-for-profit downloads By Iain S Bruce, Online Editor Controversial film-maker Michael Moore has welcomed the appearance on the internet of pirated copies of his anti-Bush documentary Fahrenheit 9/11 and claimed he is happy for anybody to download it free of charge. The activist, author and director told the Sunday Herald that, as long as pirated copies of his film were not being sold, he had no problem with it being downloaded. “I don’t agree with the copyright laws and I don’t have a problem with people downloading the movie and sharing it with people as long as they’re not trying to make a profit off my labour. I would oppose that,” he said. “I do well enough already and I made this film because I want the world, to change. The more people who see it the better, so I’m happy this is happening.” Moore’s views have not been well received by Hollywood’s establishment, which is fighting a war against the online pirates it claims cost the industry £1.6 billion a year in lost sales. Jack Valenti, the outgoing president of the Motion Picture Association of America (MPAA), said: “We are proud that American films continue to enjoy immense popularity around the world but the need for copyright protection in the digital age is crucial to the preservation of our most prized trade asset. “Piracy is having a dramatic impact on the creators and copyright owners of this nation, and its defeat depends largely on the commit ment and resolve of the entire industry. “File sharing causes tremendous financial loss to the movie business, untold hardship to support workers, and costs thousands of jobs.” Distributed via websites such as suprnova.org, which lays claim to having served more than 17 million downloads, Moore’s documentary critique of the Bush administration’s red, white and blue rush into war with Iraq is among the web’s hottest properties. Thousands of copies of Fahrenheit 9/11 have already been downloaded, each taking about 3.5 hours over a broadband connection. Ironically, the burgeoning underground market for Moore’s much-debated documentary has been championed by both sides of the political divide. While left-wing sites promote the film’s message, opponents of the high-profile polemicist are urging people to “steal” their copy, thus denying its director his cut of the profits. Last month the website of producers Lions Gate Films was subjected to a barrage of attacks by hackers, with one creating a link to a download destination on the site’s front page. Despite up to 150 people simultaneously bagging free copies of its most valuable property at any given time 24 hours a day, Lions Gate says it has no plans to oppose the practice. While unwilling to make any official statement likely to further provoke Hollywood’s heavy hitters, the film company appears to have fallen into line with its director’s laissez-faire approach. Moore said: “Is it wrong for someone who’s bought a film on DVD to let a friend watch it for free? Of course it’s not. It never has been and never will be. I think information, art and ideas should be shared.” Defenders of Moore’s position include Pulp Fiction director Quentin Tarantino, who earlier this year encouraged audiences in countries where his films are not legally available to obtain counterfeit copies. The furore engulfing Moore is just the latest in a series of controversies surrounding the film. Almost smothered by original production company Miramax’s refusal to distribute the final cut, he also this year launched an unsuccessful legal attempt to overturn the MPAA’s decision to give the documentary an “R” rating, which barred under-16s from seeing the movie without an adult. Opposed by Move America Forward, a conservative group set up to dissuade cinemas from showing the film, Fahrenheit 9/11 has become one of the most controversial productions in Hollywood history. Last month Australian distributors Hopscotch Films claimed to have received e-mails warning that if the company went ahead with its planned release of the movie, it would do so “at our own peril”. The hubbub is unlikely to subside any time soon. With Lions Gate reporting that DVD rights are likely to be won by Disney-owned Buena Vista Home Entertainment, many commentators believe the digital distribution network may yet face serious opposition. Valenti said: “Nobody can allow their rights to be stolen because, if you can’t retrieve your investment, you’re out of the movie business, “I don’t think there’s really a single actor or director in the world who does not believe that if you don’t combat piracy, it will devour you in the future.” 04 July 2004" ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Obvious Site Cheat STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 07/04/2004 11:12:25 PM ----- BODY: For some odd reason I went to dig through the site, the first article I found (honestly) was a previous entry about Lead Rain. Great update. I guess if I was blogging back then it'd have been about nine entries (wooohooo!) of bliss. Elements of the piece (which has little to do with LR are interesting to read, for me. click here. Also! This piece uses my old side bar tactic for adding more content, I talk more on the house, about my mother and about (wink wink) David. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Must not write about writing STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 07/04/2004 11:23:54 PM ----- BODY: My big failure with this site is that I don’t link enough to the old shit so that it’s always in play. Arrogant I know “If only I could constantly throw old content out to you, you’d be plenty happy” Truth is that I believe that. I love my sites when my writers reference shit. I”ll try to do it more in the future. Must go now, otherwise I’ll get into the philosophical discussion about how “blended” site design is the edge of expression and should be further considered by my fellow web buddies. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Three Limited Edition Vegas Pics STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 07/05/2004 02:32:00 PM ----- BODY: These are three LeSant images from Vegas. click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Walmart vs The Mob? STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 07/06/2004 09:03:05 AM ----- BODY: Walmart gets ready to make it’s foothold in Chicago. click here. use the login: bugoff use the pw: bugoff And because Chicago has such formal Mob ties the city is a smooth running creature. Something about having the Mob in your government is so stabilizing. And a lot of people think "Corleone" when I mention the Mob, but it's a little more complicated then that, less street war, and more of a viral control of the City at every level. In Chicago “One hand washes another” Unlike Atlanta where goverment corruption is willy-nilly, without oversight, and we can’t even drink the tap water anymore. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Atlanta STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 07/07/2004 07:43:56 PM ----- BODY: click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: montie EMAIL: pumpkinbun@yahoo.com IP: 4.239.0.32 URL: DATE: 07/08/2004 05:20:53 PM this is beautiful, and then again, not so much...it makes me miss my city...and would be my wallpaper, had I no children to display...however, I keep telling myself I've moved on to bigger and better skylines....more impressive ones anyway...or are they? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: Pablo@whodeewhoo.com IP: 68.223.12.100 URL: DATE: 07/08/2004 05:39:48 PM Montie you used to live in Atlanta? :) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: montie EMAIL: pumpkinbun@yahoo.com IP: 4.239.150.232 URL: DATE: 07/09/2004 12:25:19 PM Yes Pablo...have you forgotten me and all our good times already?!?!?:) ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Max STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 07/30/2004 10:43:31 PM ----- BODY: An old friend called me tonight. Kinda odd cause I haven’t talked to Max in ten years. I remember our last time together; he curled his hair around his finger (old habit), and told me that I couldn’t teach him anymore. It was an odd end to things. I remember mostly the drugs, disapproving not really vibing on the notion. I defiantly changed my tune on drugs. And now seeing Max years later, so peculiar, and polite. I felt something, wondered if that was what memories were about. I don’t know Max anymore. I know he sounds the same, and I know his gestures, but the past meeting the present? My relationship with Max was all music and poetry. We’d stay in the basement apartment of his parent’s home and talk about art, and sleep to music. So now I get to see him on Sunday. We’ll chat over coffee, and catch up, very peculiar. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Hm... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 08/02/2004 07:58:48 PM ----- BODY: When I was in Vegas… I created this windows media of music files, it included: The Bluman Group, Earth Wind And Fire, Daft Punk, Dirty Vegas, Inu Yashu, Royksopp, and a few others. I didn’t realize how often I’d play this file and this strange collection of music. But I refrained from bringing two laptops. I’d usually bring two systems, just in case anything happened to the first, or if I wanted a very lightweight system to carry. Instead I compromised with a 2ghz Celeron. The machine worked well for wireless giving me access at Starbucks, via the T-Mobile network. Likewise it was a great dumping box for my digital pictures. But my WinDVD software chocked and I didn’t think to get a download online. So I spend the next week trapped with Windows Medial Player files, with a lot of bondage porn, and some music. No point really. I have since fixed the DVD issue. Upgraded the ram, optimized the system for work, and even optimized my ITunes lifestyle on this box. I’m doing this side project, I’m picking out a laptop for a small business owner and her daughter. Work has been a bit long in the tooth lately, and I may attempt some repairs on the Honda myself, cause it’s a bit flaky lately. That’s Life. I’m currently reading some Kurt Lee stories (formerly Laugh At Me) and watching the Food Channel. JLWS is jacked into the IPOD and the Little Guy laptop. Surf Laugh At Me at Kungfuonline. Or dig for Kurt Lee via Google.com ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: What I dream about... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 08/04/2004 07:14:38 PM ----- BODY: I go back and forth dreaming about certain computer gear. I dream about them cause they are fucking expensive. Dreams don't care about money, and given time i'll eventually get some variation of these dreams products. Not a laptop. Not a desktop. The Sony U70 click here. New Life. The Apple Ibook click here. Just the data ma'am. The Lacie Data Bank click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: yahyah@yah.com IP: 68.217.64.43 URL: DATE: 08/04/2004 07:26:34 PM more on the U70 http://jkontherun.blogs.com/jkontherun/2004/07/sony_u70_review.html ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.217.64.43 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 08/04/2004 08:53:54 PM Haha. Clever, but I already bought your gift so you can stop hinting, birthday boy. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: 72 hours from now STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 08/12/2004 10:14:05 PM ----- BODY: This party is this saturday and i'm mildly excited. Over the years we've had sword fights and giant palmetto bugs feasting on vomit outside. This year we hope to raise it up a "another notch!" and put some "bam" in it -snicker-. Inside this little yawn I chat about making drinks, what it means to throw a party, and how pussy some of my friends are; like Doug, or Shy for example. That's it. You can now go to some other blog/journal/guy talking site. Or read on. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Day One of the preparty prep is over. JLWS has been working on the bathroom all night, and she has laid her grid out. I made drinks, and hung out with friends; Andy and Sexy Don. The Menu is spontaneous, and includes an update to my standard house drink: The Hollywood. Other variations of some of my standard trick of the trade includes; new Jello shooters, a new cream based drink (The White Russian is gone and JLWS is supposedly gonna drink Hollywood’s all night. I have a small concern that my menu shift has taken needed cash from building volume. The quality of the drinks are so good though and I can’t really complain. It’s possible I will bury more liquor in the soft costs from the food budget. We throw a party once a year. JLWS often times chooses the opportunity to remake the house in some way. This is usually translated into a painting project. Last year the bathroom was remade white, with a photo from ********* , and a queer little penguin… The look worked, but didn’t age well, and she’s at it again with a much more daunting project. Likewise this is year two of Jonnie not being around. Last year sucked, but we survived. I definitely enjoyed having Jon’s companionship and feedback on projects. Being a self-proclaimed collaborator I really am just pussy about shit sometimes. Working with Leah is half hearted, she ain’t Jonnie and those are hard shoes to follow anyway. She was instrumental in me making a eleventh hour dash at really going radical. But as she helped me make the new menu I came away thinking she still didn’t vibe on anything we chose together.* I know it’s too much to not reveal the drink menu, it’s kinda magical though right now. Most years JLWS and I get hammered while we test the drinks and I tweak them. This year Don and Andy were the guinea pigs and it allowed me to just enjoy my work and not do overkill on it and get that hung over feeling I’d usually get. Three am, going to sleep. I finished off my birthday dinner from Monday it was stupid good. Tomorrow I focus on food and wrap up the drink selection. One more thing. Evite isn’t my style, but JLWS loves it. I tend to think that throwing a party is like running for office. If I just wanted to hang out with friends in a intimate situation I’d barbecue and break out Scrabble or something. I think when one throws a party one should make it an event. There is no need to pussy foot around and while Evite is a interesting gauge of things, it’s about as useful as early election night coverage. Evite does fill our night with some interesting chatter about things. Some people were invited this year in token gesture; we don’t expect them to come. Other people were invited cause they are friends, and we’d love to see them, and have not seen them in a while. Other friends are invited as that one last desperate attempt to say “Hey where you at motherfucker?” So it is very interesting to watch people not RSVP, or look at their invite, then still not RSVP in any kinda way. We have both agreed it’s kinda shitty, but we don’t think ill of the person, just strangely chickenshit. I mean if you look at it why not reply in some way. Believe me we don’t care if you come, we want a lot of people, but no one will cry when you don’t show. Obviously we think about it a little bit though and it is curious. I think JLWS and I are good party goers, cause we go to a lot of half baked shitty parties *I should mention Leah is a finicky drinker and has yet to get drunk with me. That doesn’t stop her from calling me every time she gets drunk though. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: montie EMAIL: pumpkinbun@yahoo.com IP: 4.238.246.43 URL: DATE: 08/13/2004 02:40:15 PM I'm missing another party. I miss Atlanta more and more, and I love Philly more and more. The extent to which I miss my friends really hurts though...it makes for great writing material. Anyhoo, have a great party, and have a few drinks for me....cuz you know I'd have more than a few for myself if I were there....ah, the nights nursing the Kahlua milkshakes with the ever potent "liquor only" top-ups.....much love to all, i'll be there in heart.... ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Day two of the party. STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 08/20/2004 07:48:29 PM ----- BODY: Throwing a party can be about many things. I have few friends who throw good parties... Read more inside suckers as I talk about the eve before the party. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Day 2 of the party was all about food. My usual mix of fixings is; a thai peanut sauce meatball dish, smoked salmon, caviar, a vegetable platter, and a number of dips were not to be had. But this year I stuck with the sweet meatballs, I also made a jambalaya, though it’s not for the weak spirited. Also in a moment of inspiration I sautéed portabella mushrooms, shitake mushrooms, and sun dried tomatoes, with garlic and olive oil. The variation was breed out of necessity, and it made the food more personal. Throwing a party can be about many things. I have few friends who throw good parties. Andy used to throw the best parties. He’d have them at his mother’s house, and then later at the apartment he shared with a roommate, toward the end he’d do them by himself, with a steaming bowl of chili. The Astroladalva also throws an excellent party, bringing a circle of friends together for a night of food, music and the original Hollywood drink, which is a superior version to my own mass appeal version. And while I admit it with a bit of resentment my friend Shy throws a decent wine party, though the earlier events we shared together were more about French onion dip, corn chip Pringles, strawberry fig newtons, and cheap jug wine. The truth about parties is that you bring friends together for a reason; maybe you want to love and socialize, or get drunk and talk loud. Whatever your reasons for throwing a party the proof is in the pudding. Is it possible to bring people together for a good time? Yes it is possible, but it does require a lot of work and a fair amount of money. Thursday was of liquor, Friday was food, and Saturday was decadent. Watching Cold Mountain now, it’s a star-studded subtle kind cast, pretty good… More often then not you should allow four days for a party. The first day is for liquor. Give your booze a chance to marinate, while I don’t endorse “settling” for meat it does work for liquor. The next dayyour food shopping is more about selection, and ability to afford. While I can sometimes be accused of “liquoring” up my guests I also feed them. I spend as much money on food as I do on liquor. The third day is the party, more on that later, and then on the fourth day you rest and cleanup. Of course with good and close friends money has no meaning, getting drunk isn’t relative, and the food is still a must, but should be more intimate in it’s preparation. Leah was a no show for Liquor night, she was on the money and a pretty decent sidekick for the six hours of shopping and prep that we did on day two. Hell we even got drunk on said liquor, and that was pretty damn cool. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 08/26/2004 04:51:22 PM ----- BODY: Dave Chappelle fucking rocks. And this is pretty much why I’m ok with doing a blog style interface when on hiatus or otherwise. Cause it’s pretty simple to write this shit up, paste it, draw up some code and go back to the real world. Anyway. Dave is getting 50mil to stay with Comedy Central. click here. Of course the actual text is here and came from MSNBC. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.241.88 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 08/26/2004 10:17:54 PM damn, bitches! ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Job Security STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 08/31/2004 08:39:01 AM ----- BODY: I think it took a while for people to catch up to the notion that leaving the job for another few grand, while giving up job security was kinda stupid. I don't think job hopping is dead, but people aren't as proud of that ten page resume anymore. I love my freaking job. click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Hm... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 09/29/2004 05:02:46 PM ----- BODY: Lately, I’ve been searching for words. Somehow not willing to write the words I feel. I make excuses, and I can say some bullshit, but the truth is that if I don’t write, its cause I haven’t written. This doesn’t change anything. I’m not even sure I care about writing. I remember it, but it’s scary to think about. I want to express myself again, and my extensive Recession training doesn’t provide for that. Tonight: Vodka, Rooster Booster, FX, and some good reading. I hope that something comes forward. I hope I can begin to remember, and still keep some balance. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.237.138 URL: DATE: 09/29/2004 09:35:50 PM Perhaps you should lose the blog. Maybe it's not your best format. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: billie EMAIL: billie762@aol.com IP: 168.8.240.52 URL: DATE: 09/30/2004 08:50:02 AM maybe you are at a point in your life where you are in harmony.....mellow.....cosmic forces are perfectly aligned .....no pressing issues to ponder.............or .........maybe you should just drink more vodka...... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: Perhapsyoushould@gofuckyourself.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 09/30/2004 01:46:43 PM It’s kinda funny that coming from a site which has been about expression, overcoming things, finding your KungFu, and getting your angry Tony Robbins on, I now feel stunted with expressing myself. I know it definitely doesn’t seem exciting and might be as unticklish as when I talk about writing, but the truth is that this is my life right now. This isn’t some “format”, or cause I’m using Movable Type as an engine, as opposed to when I used to build pages from scratch. Get the fuck out of here Jennifer. I don’t link with other bloggers, I don’t do any of that highschool popularity shit. This is just Paul writing, not particularly fired up, not much in the way of good content and not intrigued to go stumping around finding any either. I don’t know what this “format” is you speak of? Is it the “Paul doesn’t have shit to speak on” format Is it the “Paul writes an article, and then does one-click, and a few taps, and it’s up” format Is it the “Paul doesn’t do what he used to do, like when he’d spare us from his bad grammar writing, with good work from other people?” format. I ought to write a piece of code that says “Click here if you want to know when KungFu has returned to normal" then everyone who doesn't like the "Format" could go away until things are back in the other "Format" Whafuck... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Crass Sparrow EMAIL: enygma77@hotmail.com IP: 68.224.212.212 URL: DATE: 09/30/2004 04:02:27 PM Babydoll, just write. Turn off the TV, kill the microwave, close the door and chill. It'll come. And don't you dare say something smarmy, like "look who's talking" or whatnot. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: DATE: 09/30/2004 04:26:10 PM man, fuck you too. I don't even know what you're talking about. I just meant that perhaps the format was holding you back, giving you an out. And I think that maybe I'm right and I don't know why this would upset you. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: montie EMAIL: pumpkinbun@yahoo.com IP: 4.239.150.116 URL: DATE: 10/01/2004 04:10:44 PM i haven't been able to write anything of worth in about 4 years. Good luck....i hope you find something. do the math... ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Notes on filmmaking #12 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: film CATEGORY: film DATE: 10/03/2004 01:54:36 PM ----- BODY: thinking about zero-budget filmmaking... ----- EXTENDED BODY: I think if writing and passion are your love, their absence can leave you empty. I’m not sure why, but over the years I have sometimes stopped writing. It is more perplexing because writing has always been my life, but feeling the loss of it, the loss of something which I used to express myself (me) was a new experience, and a strange loss. I think it’s harder on those of us who do not desire payment, or compensation for our work; we just want to write. Then you're given advice to: change your style, go back to editing, doing things how you used to, and it’s fucking frustrating, cause that’s not where writing comes from. 1. Using scenes in a film like a slide show. 2. Follow characters while they walk, from inside a exiting car, or exiting interior 3. Incorporate reflection for dramatic tension. 4. Dialogue: 1. Come over the shoulder of speaker 1 2. Cut to speaker 2 3. cut to the speaker 1. 4. Zoom on speaker 1 for tension 5. Cut to closeup of speaker 2 5. 1.Cut to a speaker (1), allow a pause at the start of the scene. 2.when switching to a speaker (2) finish the dialogue of speaker (1) while speaker 2 is paused . 3.Unrelated to the first 2. Focus on your action. Don’t show the figure, show the limbs of the figure, show what he is working on, not him. 4.Be willing to be out of focus, not sloppy, but in introducing a scene, or at points in a scene, when you want to illustrate tension (music helps) 5.Silhouettes can be subtle. KillBill has great over the top silhouette work. But low budget silhouettes can be created. 6. 1.Watch Pan and Scan to understand the limitations of what shooting a scene will be like with a mini-dv camcorder. If you try to watch wide screen films frustration will quickly consume your eye and perspective. Pan and Scan shows you how to shoot on a zero-budget. Remember that, this thought will serve you well. Cause if you’ve spent your perspective trying to study widescreen, it is fair to have done so, but it will not prepare you for the ugly (“I can’t work under these conditions) results from fullscreen. I believe those of us who see completely in words can storyboard with notes. It’s arduous, but maybe it provides time to work on a visual expression, something you don’t hold to the thought of being a story or a film; a choreography of sorts. 1. JLWS was right. In a strange way, but I took it to heart. I don’t think me or my wife quite understand each other on anything but a cerebral level. I think on those higher levels, in gestures that we give, but do not necessarily need to reciprocate, we share something. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: spam blocker EMAIL: vincent1987@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://209.152.169.39/~hptime/archives/000013.php DATE: 11/29/2004 07:24:18 PM A little more than kin, and less than kind. spam blocker The devil hath power To assume a pleasing shape. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: spam filter EMAIL: miki@mail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://209.152.169.39/~hptime/archives/000013.php DATE: 11/29/2004 07:24:21 PM When we are born, we cry, that we are come To this great stage of fools. spam filter 'T is better to be lowly born, And range with humble livers in content, Than to be perked up in a glistering grief, And wear a golden sorrow. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: spam blocker EMAIL: vincent1987@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://stopspam.host.sk/spam-blocker.html DATE: 11/29/2004 07:59:07 PM I have not slept one wink. spam blocker A man in all the world's new fashion planted, That hath a mint of phrases in his brain. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: spam filter EMAIL: miki@mail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://stopspam.host.sk/spam-filter.html DATE: 11/29/2004 07:59:12 PM Costly thy habit [dress] as thy purse can buy; But not expressed in fancy - rich, not gaudy. For the apparel oft proclaims the man. spam filter I wish you well and so I take my leave, I Pray you know me when we meet again. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: chuck EMAIL: chuckie1222@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://saveonshoes3.cjb.net/ DATE: 11/30/2004 12:27:58 AM The game is up. chuck Your face is a book, where men may read strange matters. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: vinnie EMAIL: vincent1987@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://saveonshoes2.cjb.net/ DATE: 11/30/2004 12:27:58 AM Full fathom five thy father lies; Of his bones are coral made; Those are pearls that were his eyes: Nothing of him that doth fade But doth suffer a sea-change Into something rich and strange. vinnie Have more than thou showest; Speak less than thou knowest. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: trevor EMAIL: trevorthegreat@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://saveonshoes4.cjb.net/ DATE: 11/30/2004 12:28:07 AM My library Was dukedom large enough. trevor What's gone and what's past help Should be past grief. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: martha EMAIL: martochka@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://saveonshoes5.cjb.net/ DATE: 11/30/2004 12:28:16 AM But to my mind, though I am native here And to the manner born, it is a custom More honoured in the breach than the observance. martha If all the year were playing holidays; To sport would be as tedious as to work. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: mike EMAIL: miki@mail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://saveonshoes1.cjb.net/ DATE: 11/30/2004 12:28:18 AM He who has injured thee was either stronger or weaker than thee. If weaker, spare him; if stronger, spare thyself. mike Life is as tedious as a twice-told tale Vexing the dull ear of a drowsy man. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: AndroGel EMAIL: sales@rxonlinecenter.net IP: 38.112.123.92 URL: http://www.rxonlinecenter.net/androgel.html DATE: 07/08/2005 03:19:53 PM androgel adipex phentermine adipex phentermine http://vicodin.rxonlinecenter.net/ http://hydrocodone.rxonlinecenter.net/ http://adipex.rxonlinecenter.net/ http://phentermine.rxonlinecenter.net/ ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Mostly offline projects STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 10/03/2004 08:05:45 PM ----- BODY: The five projects i'm working on... ----- EXTENDED BODY: 1. The first project is to finish the web site I’ve been working on. Progress has been slow, but I suspect it was right, to wait. We have more content now and the design is taking it’s time. 2. The second project is a Multi Media poetry book, to be produced for mini-cd and it’s for Luke. It is a followup to the design elements which I used in the Catalyst 2.0 beta, and will be a local/website, and a PDF edition, and a cd including special features. 3. The next project is a redesign of Catalyst (beta 3.0), and bringing on a new secret editor, we’ll see if she’s got the juice to carry a poetry site on her back. 4. Next, a limited edition chapbook that I’m working on with Shane Allison. This is a publishing project that I started working on, which is slightly different then the halted SPP work. 5. JLWS wants a chapbook. I feel guilty about this a bit cause I’d like to get the Anna Amerigo book out (still owe you that one babe) and I have a few other books I’d like to do first. Doing a book with JLWS will be interesting, and feels like a relationship building tool. I hope these projects come to some level of fruition. They are all small, and induce a large degree of frustration, but they seem a bit more satisfying then the web route. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: People EMAIL: who@hate.people IP: 68.224.212.212 URL: DATE: 01/23/2005 10:22:13 PM "it's" is not the same word as "its" - bad publisher. ----- -------- AUTHOR: rikke TITLE: blah STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 10/04/2004 05:51:40 AM ----- BODY: test blah blah ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Montie STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: friends CATEGORY: friends DATE: 10/04/2004 06:13:17 AM ----- BODY: A letter from Montie. and the reply ----- EXTENDED BODY: Hey dariln... Hey babe! ...Listening to the new Jill Scott...have you heard it? It's great...she is a terrific writer. Have not, though I’ve heard it’s off the hook and she looks all sassy and sensual in the new pics I’ve seen of her. I’m listening to Untouchable Outcaste Beats Vol.1. Anyhoo, I jsut wanted to say hey and say how is everything, and that I miss you and yours. I hope that all is going well. Everything is good, a little tired. Got back from Savannah yesterday, went for the weekend to do computer work and see a Cabaret show. The computer work as you can well imagine was ass, and took all phucking day. But as the night finally wore on, and the humidity, came to be mist, we went and got seafood. I’ve still yet to find a really good place in Savannah for seafood. I want a hole in the wall, some place, where you’re curiosity may ask if they have a good health inspection rating, or a rating at all. Fighting between local chains, upscale restaurants, and way fancy places, is a bit of a drag to me. The Cabaret Show was pretty awesome, got my first taste of “Gay Fuel” and Vodka, got hit on by a guy who looked just like 50cent, and met a great old queenie bartender, who I swear I know from Atlanta, he discounted the drinks to me, since he had an auto pourer and couldn’t stiffen them up anymore. The show itself was likewise pretty good. JLWS said: “The first time I went to Cabaret, I remember how beautiful the girls were, that they were prettier then me, not so much this time” The review had about seven performers, some of the songs were lackluster, others were big crowd pleasing shockers, and very old school, some were just the pure raunchy stuff you’d never hear unless you go to the club. As the dancers themselves go, I liked two of them, one girl was white, tall, and thin and beautiful. The other girl was white and insane. It was kinda funny, cause the vibe was good, everyone was having a good time. The dancers weren’t making nearly enough money to be lipsynching on stage, wearing heels, but that changed. The thin white gal we saw in the lobby, as we paid our cover. I missed her act, it was one song, I was getting drinks, kinda sucked if you ask me, but it happens. Let’s get back to the insane gal. First off, any man who goes on stage, lip synchs to bad pop songs and dresses like a woman, with his dick tapped between his asscheek is crazy. Sadly and for the life of me I can’t remember the damn song she played (JLWS?), but it started low, and during this time, it was really kinda queer, cause she was tall (6’2 w/heels), her eyes were wide, and nutty, and her hair was very Ziggy Stardust, as well as her outfit, which kinda looked like a lime cloak, with tatters and glittery material ( she coulda been a jedi fag). Then the song kicked off it’s first high note, and she threw off the cloak, revealing nearly knee high, glittery boots, a bikini bottom and a gorgeous pair of tits. The crowd went wild, and if you combined everyones earnings they probably made a few hundred bucks, she probably made seven hundred bucks for just those two songs. It was a good night, we needed it, I’m not even gonna mention the journey through Savannah during the kick off of Octoberfest, and all the other shit, it didn’t matter so much afterwards. After the Cabaret JLWS and I ********************************************* while in the car, went back to her moms house, ************** in her *********** and slept peacefully. I am surfing around on KungFu almost daily; It makes me feel somewhat closer to home. I'll be down from Dec15th (wed) until the following Monday or Tuesday, so we should definately see each other. We should get together sucker. You know where I live, commit to me and I’ll commit to you, we’ll sit around and ********************* or **************** or maybe we can have a **********************, does your husband do any of that? :) Are you gonna have the kids with you? Ashley is getting married the 18th, and I’m the matron of honor. Why? Did you tell her she was too young? Maybe she should wait awhile, any of that shit? How phucking old is she now? 21½? She wants to go to the Clermont for a bachelorette party....so we'll see what happens. Anyway, I love you and Jenn, and I hope that all is well in the world of Mr and Mrs Sibley... Married life is phucking great, JLWS ***** her ******, and is worn out, marriage debt sucks, economy doesn’t suck quite so much, my job is a bit hinky but awesome, the sex life is good, the Bad White Trash Mobile lives up to it’s name these days, the KungFu Shuttle rocks (great for road trips), the cats are good. And Montie the leaves are endless, don’t buy your house on the flipside of winter, when that address calls to you like a comfort from the outside, buy in the fall, check it out during the humid months. I turn my head and my gutters are full of phucking leaves. ..How's Shirley by the way? My mother is fine, consumed with herself, critical, a little pushy, about like usual. Tell her hi from me....Get back to me when you can. I got back to you. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: 2mb video: Afro Ninja STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: video CATEGORY: video DATE: 10/04/2004 06:33:34 AM ----- BODY: When I was a fat kid growing up I wanted to learn how to ride a skateboard. I would gingerly test my friends boards outside when we were playing, and soon realized that I would have to learn on my own, away from people, mostly cause I was a top heavy buttery ball and a big pussy. I did eventually get my own skateboard, a plastic job from the seventies (Makaha USA for you aficionados), the light wooden boards tended to bow a bit underneath me, and I did bust my ass over and over again (alone) in my backyard, but I kept my pride, and one day I didn’t know how to skate, and amazingly enough a few weeks later I was sharp. You know the cliché, fat people love to make you laugh, we should all be comedians. Well we don’t really like to accidentally make asses of ourselves and be laughed at. No, it seems to be exponentially more horrible when you’re fat and get laughed at, and it was not your intention to strike humor in people. This file is going to open in a new window folks.. it's 2mb and should take a short time to load... ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: yutzi_ohio23 EMAIL: yutzi_ohio23@hizzitmail.com IP: 67.35.11.42 URL: DATE: 10/04/2004 07:47:55 PM Hilarious! Fucking funny. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Old Friend EMAIL: whatever@sucky.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 10/13/2004 10:46:41 AM Pablo nearly had the same thing happen to him in highschool minus the nunchucks. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: A peek at a couple who quit smoking at the same time… STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 10/05/2004 11:39:08 AM ----- BODY: Lessons learned on a bad Hump Day 1.Do not argue with your spouse at work. 2.Finances will wreck the best relationship. 3.Put Property taxes in Escrow (after the fact) 4.Do not dream of the car your spouse dreams of, especially when it is 30k new. 5.“This car is your car. That car is my car. The next car won’t make us happyyyyyy! No it won’t.” 6.Before going outside to “lose your shit” make sure no one is in the conference room adjacent to the patio And here is a great link on anger management. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Fuzz Moppet STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: friends CATEGORY: friends DATE: 10/05/2004 07:06:21 PM ----- BODY: I had dinner with Fuzz Moppet tonight. It was pretty interesting; we hung out at Pho 79, and got bowls of Pho Tai Chin, and spring rolls. We were gonna eat at the Chinese joint, that the Missing Micheal Fornier introduced me to. Instead we had to go get Vietnamese, and chatted for a few hours. I met Fuzz Moppet online about two years ago and we’ve chatted since then, and have come to be online friends. She came to my birthday party, brought here Amazonion (Wonder Woman) roommate and also another friend. Of note, on my birthday, she drank for the first time in about a year. The meal was good. Pho 79 constantly shows videos of Vietnamese television, and the owner of the shop is a friend of mine. Neither of us ate all of our Pho Tai Chin, and spent most of the evening talking about relationships, love, race, and white folks. I’ll get back to talking about white people later, the conversation wasn’t negative, more a wistful observation of a life we see as different, and don’t quite relate to. from Creative Loafing Atlanta Pho 79 About a dozen cafes on Buford Highway specialize in pho, the Vietnamese soup of beef broth and rice noodles garnished with meats and herbs. But this 8-year-old charmer is my favorite. First, there's the ambiance. Where else can you watch videos of gorgeous Vietnamese women in native costume lip-synching ABBA? Second, there's the owner, kind of a Vietnamese Majestic waitress. "Honey, you like it real spicy, don't you?" she asks, completely rhetorically, as she loads chili oil into your bowl. Third, while the pho is terrific, the combination soups are most unique. My fave is the mi quang, yellow noodles in a spicy red broth with pork, shrimp, herbs and ground peanuts. Warning: Skip the "lemonade," which is purple and tastes like Hawaiian Punch. click here to read about other great spots on Buford Highway in Atlanta. As a matter of fact, avoid all the drinks, except the tea, which is strong and nearly clear, likewise the royal cafe is ok, kinda like Thai Coffee. The rest of the drinks are different, strange and don't need to be refigerated to be thick and creamy... Pablo ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Friend Spam STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 10/07/2004 12:02:13 PM ----- BODY: This post is stupid, please ignore it. ----- EXTENDED BODY: So E my screen writer friend (Hi E)) sent me an email. I get about fifty three emails a day, twenty of them are submissions for publication. Twenty five of them are spam. Five of these fifty three themails are Friend Spam. Three of the emails are from friends writing email. So E didn’t send me a submission, and while she’s a friend I have asked her to not send me funny shit, chainmails, or explanations about; God, good and evil, Love, and hope. the email... “I am passing this along because it's fascinating to me that it explains in a scientific way what I feel in my heart to be true. XOXOX E Does Evil Exist? The university professor challenged his students with this question. Did God create everything that exists? A student bravely replied, "Yes, He did!" "God created everything?" The professor asked. "Yes sir," the student replied. The professor then asked, "Does evil exist?" The same young man again replied, "Yes, it does." The professor answered, "Well then, if God created everything, then Godcreated evil. Since evil exists, and according to the principal that our works define who we are, then God is evil." The student became quiet before such an answer. The professor was quite pleased with himself and boasted to the students that he had proven once more that the Christian faith was a myth. Another student raised his hand and said, "Can I ask you a question professor?" "Of course," replied the professor. The student stood up and asked, "Professor, does cold exist?" "What kind of question is that? Of course it exists. Have you ever been cold?" The students snickered at the young man's question. The young man replied, "In fact sir, cold does not exist. According to the laws of physics, what we consider cold is in reality the absence of heat. Everybody or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolute zero (-460 degrees F) is the total absence of heat; all matter becomes inert and capable of a reaction to that temperature. Cold does not exist. We have created this word to describe how we feel if we have no heat." The student continued. "Professor, does darkness exist?" The professor responded, "Of course it does." The student replied, "Once again I beg to differ with you sir. Darkness does not exist either. Darkness is in reality the absence of light. Light we can study, but not darkness. In fact we can use Newton's prism to break white light into many colors and study the various wavelengths of each color. You cannot measure darkness. A simple ray of light can break into a world of darkness and illuminate it. How can you know how dark a certain space is? You measure the amount of light present. Darkness is a term used by man to describe what happens when there is no light present." Finally the young man asked the professor, "Sir, does evil exist?" Now uncertain, the professor responded, "Of course, as I have already said that we see it every day. It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations are nothing else but evil." To this the student replied, "Evil does not exist either, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God. God did not create evil. Evil is not like faith, or love - they exist, just like light and heat. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. With that, the young man sat down and the professor dismissed the class. Anyway, phuck that student, the professor, and E. I mean no harsh feelings or nothing, I just fucking hate shit like this in my email. If it’s that serious to send it to me I’d rather hoist it on suckas who come here, cause I damn sure never think about sending it to people in email. Pablo ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: DixieTrick EMAIL: satre@exitentialist.com IP: 67.34.240.100 URL: DATE: 10/07/2004 12:23:21 PM Thanks for passing that along but I learned that concept in Sunday School. I can't believe you even read that shit. I only read like 4 lines and then I was like fuck this, I know where it's going. Plus I don't believe it. I believe the God did create everything part, but I also believe that he created evil. Evil is necessary in order for good to exist. I learned that in the 10th grade. God could not exist without evil. Why would we need Him? How would we recognize Him? If anything, the inverse is true. That which is "good" is only the absense of evil. We are evil, that's why we need God. It's like how in Buffy, Giles had to kill Ben in order to kill Glory. The evil exits inside of the good. Without one, the other would cease to exist. It's all energy repelling and attracting- positive and negative- love and hate. It's Life. It's God. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: sparrow EMAIL: enygma77@hotmail.com IP: 68.224.212.212 URL: DATE: 10/08/2004 12:34:18 AM I don't know all about the strange Buffy reference, but that was cheesier than cheddar babe. Not Buffy. The email. Yeah, you warned us. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: watch moi EMAIL: cindy23ny@gmail.com IP: 193.188.105.9 URL: http://www.webstarcast.com/ DATE: 03/16/2005 08:53:53 PM Omg thats right! Please come see me and my friends! ;) ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: I am Pablo Sibs and I approve this post STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 10/08/2004 04:42:16 PM ----- BODY: I am a War Voter, and we are at war. ----- EXTENDED BODY: I have forsaken my love of Talk Radio. I still listen to NPR, but conservative talk blows. There is this intense desire to make the horse win by a nose. In today’s political election the desire to not let the other guys candidate win sucks. In the old days Conservative and Liberal meant something. And I guess, if you look at it, there is still some difference, one that has a subtle effect, I’m not sure it means more then a soundbite though. I am a War Voter, and we are at war. I don’t so much care for social issues, cause I think they find a natural balance. I don’t care about finance, cause Greespan is still in charge, and I like Greenspan. The President is judged by end results. It isn’t as if I’m saying that Bush has no effect, or that Clinton had no effect. But the president, in these times, is a figurehead. And it’s easy to say that the president doesn’t really have much say in things, but he does represent us to the World. And the world tends to love us when we have a weak President. And while I do think that Bush is a figurehead, I don’t think he’s weak. I prefer Bush over Kerry. But I do wonder if a second term Bush is dangerous, my thoughts have wondered in that direction. I mean, the social, economic and long term effects of Bush as a second term president could be very queer. More than ever I want us as a nation to be strong for the next ten years. I am wary in believing that the UN is good for anything but territorial disputes. And it’s frustrating to hear people when they speak about how it’s ridiculous to think outside their own point of view. I know one thing for sure: more challenges are ahead regardless of who we choose…. And I haven’t given up on Talk Radio. Talk Radio is full of personas, people who talk about fun and annoying shit. It’s not some secret agenda (till voting time, then it’s a pretty obvious agenda) it’s just a good listen, stirring the pot, and talking shit. Unfortunately it’s boring as shit during the presidential season, cause then there really is a political push, and that’s boring. For a few years I disdained NPR and most of the PRI lineup, it was just kinda behind the times; for me. Recently though NPR has gotten sharper, and has taken a pretty objective disposition on the upcoming presidential election, and the bumpers are awesome. Likewise, everything is about politics, but most of the political discussion does work towards building perspective on our actual life; the economy, public opinion, community and society, as opposed to just being about how much Kerry (Bush) sucks. And it’s kinda interesting that I talk politics at all. I don’t like to talk current events or politics. A few days ago I went out to my car to get something, and I went outside with my friend “K”, who wanted to put her “W” sticker on. We spent a few moments, affixing the sticker proudly on the back of her silver Honda coupe and I could only wonder about the negative exposure she might be giving herself, admitting she was a Bush supporter. I got a “W” sticker too, didn’t use it. It sucked, wasn’t the popular black one with the simple W, it was like this Route 66 version, and it blew. I would like a black one, but I’m more likely to save it and just stick it a book. Would I drive the Bad White Trash Mobile around with a sticker proudly proclaiming a portion of my political perspective? A black guy in a ragged out shitty Honda with a Bush sticker, it’d be good contrast to all the crisp cars you see pimping the “W”. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: montie EMAIL: pumpkinbun@yahoo.com IP: 4.239.213.131 URL: http://www.badnarik.org DATE: 10/11/2004 08:54:52 AM Vote Libertarian..... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: pablo@pablo.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 10/13/2004 10:42:59 AM I love the Libertarian concept, and I consider myself very sympathetic to the Libertarian cause. And I think Libertarians need a bit moe focus. I mean Ross Perot and his followers had more focus then the Libertarian party. Likewise the fact that we are so laid back and accepting as a group of people, it always seems hard to make much policital headway. Likewise i'm not gonna talk about the drugs, and all the other platform bullshit which slows this party down from moving forward in out culture. Pablo ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Ricky EMAIL: ricky@fortran.com IP: 67.34.237.236 URL: DATE: 10/14/2004 12:38:04 AM Fuck Libertarians and fuck Republicans. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: montie EMAIL: pumpkinbun@yahoo.com IP: 4.239.150.232 URL: DATE: 10/17/2004 07:10:13 PM That wasn't very nice at all. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: watch moi EMAIL: cindy23ny@gmail.com IP: 193.188.105.9 URL: http://www.webstarcast.com/ DATE: 03/16/2005 08:53:36 PM Omg thats right! Please come see me and my friends! ;) ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: You're losing your hair... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 10/11/2004 09:06:45 AM ----- BODY: And now I'm wearing a hat at work, I've worn a hat for like three weeks. I look ridiculous, everyone knows that black men don't go bald... ----- EXTENDED BODY: I started growing my hair out a few weeks ago. Some combination of being curious about what it would be like to go it one more time, likewise a probably a notion reinforced with JLWS telling me that she liked my hair long. As a child I would go see Brewster. Brewster was the neighborhood barber; he cut my hair for eight years. The ritual, started with walking into his shop, all the old shops still had storefront stages on either side of the entrance. Large Windows, a few feet off the ground, mall like enclosures, little curtained areas where products were put out. I think the storefront stages served a dual purpose, peddling wares and also lending some privacy to the customers. Those old stages catered to young boys with; switchblade combs, "Snaps", rubber baseballs, and cap guns. Inside it was always clean and bright, the long narrow walls of the barbershop were waist-high to ceiling in mirror. They sometimes varied in size, but little changed about their interiors; A cash register, hair products beside it, a line of cutting chairs, a row of seats, coffee tables overflowing with magazines. Brewster would get you to climb on up, he'd add some disposable cloth choker to your neck, bring the white apron around in a flourish, and then he'd ask how you wanted it. I'd always wanted something dramatic and hip; two parts, or a fade, or I wanted it be cut so I could get waves. Whichever parent was with me would give the ‘no’ nod, which meant 'cut it low and nothing more' and Brewster would go to work, giving me the same old stupid haircut every time. Without fail Brewster would mention how I was thinning up front and would go bald early in life. I never thought much about it, the fact that my mother and/or father would run the comb through my hair like they were fighting a tangle of weeds, I never thought about it either when I did similar, and I never much pondered my thinning hair. As a matter of fact I started cutting all my hair off before I had to fear it at all; I was pretty smart. Recently though I had some combination of being curious about what it would be like to go it one more time, probably a notion reinforced with JLWS telling me that she liked my hair long. And now I'm wearing a hat at work, I've worn a hat for like three weeks. I look ridiculous, everyone knows that black men don't go bald, we rarely have receding hair lines. I used to be proud of my widows peak dammit! Then my widows peak kinda became a…. Well it didn't become anything cause I cut all my hair off. Then I started growing it out, For the last year I have occasionally let my hair get past it's "good point" The place where it's getting too long and you can tell, usually my buddy Leah would point out that it was starting to look stupid (Thanks Leah), and I'd cut it that evening. But here is the truth…My hair has always been thin upfront, Brewster always reminded me of this, it's always been like this though. But now my hair seems to grow like wild fire, and the front of my scalp is slow growing but fairly full, as full as a guy in denial about balding (all his life) can call full. And I know if I want to grow my hair out again, I'll have to cut my surrounding hair off and match it up to the slower growing portion of my scalp. I convinced myself that this would take about three weeks to a month, and then I'd be ok. But the truth is that it will probably take about six months, growing my hair out, getting it professionally trimmed to get my hair back to a nice length. Do I even want to get my hair back? I don't know… ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 10/11/2004 12:25:27 PM Damn long haired hippie! Next thing you know you'll be stinking of pachouli and recycling. Maybe we should shave you this weekend? I didn't know you'd been wearing a hat to work. I just like to touch your fuzzy head, but your shaven head is sexy too. I'll shave you if you shave me. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: pablo EMAIL: pablo@pablo.com IP: 67.34.237.236 URL: DATE: 10/14/2004 12:22:44 AM Snicker... Perv. I forgot about shaving you. Growing my hair out is a strange event. I’m going with it, maybe for another day, maybe longer. You do certain things… I used to think it was about the past, nostalgia is strong in me. Kinda funny, cause usually when people mention the good old days I’m reminded of hangings, and sitting at the back of the bus. Besides I think it has something to do with how I feel when my hair grows out. Whenever my hair gets too long I feel fat. I am fat. Whenever I cut my hair I feel thin. I am still fat. Fuck it man. Sometimes you feel like a nut, sometimes you don’t. Had an Almond Joy a few days ago (I used to love those things) and it kinda sucked. Pablo… ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: New John C. Reilly film STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: 180 CATEGORY: 180 DATE: 10/11/2004 09:39:22 AM ----- BODY: Criminal is a remake of the Argentine Film "Nine Queens". Some people may be reminded of the little seen Ed Burns film Confidence, which also may be a remake more inside... ----- EXTENDED BODY: I saw a sneak peak for the new John C. Reilly (the cop from Magnolia) Film Criminal. I actually saw it a few months ago. I nearly forgot about it, but I was watching IFC’s At The Angelika, and they showed a preview of it. So you probably won’t see a preview of it, you may, hell a lot of people here might. And it’s a good trailer. Criminal is a perfect example of what Hollywood calls a ‘hard to sell movie”. It’s definitely good, and as is the case with seemingly every movie I watch, two old biddies sat behind me, chewed their popcorn loudly, and fucking talked the whole time. After the film, they climbed into their M-class Mercedes and I followed them down the street, two birds flying ahead of me. Criminal was excellent. I shouldn’t dwell on the two old ladies that nearly spoiled it for me. It is a character movie, if you get caught up in other aspects of the movie that’s fine, or it may bore you, but it does try to develop it’s characters. I saw Criminal at the Garden Hills Cinema. This local Atlanta Theater has one screen (built in 1939), is antiquated; has shitty service, doesn’t accept credit cards, the seats blow, the screen is shitty, sound sucks, but it’s a pretty good place to hang out and watch a film. I really can’t say enough good stuff about the Garden Hills Cinema, but it does one good thing; show great movies. Venue: Garden Hills Cinema Details: 2835 Peachtree Road Taped information (404) 266-2202 Office (404) 266-2850 ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: See ya later Chris STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 10/11/2004 01:21:38 PM ----- BODY: > ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: 0101010101010101010 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 10/15/2004 03:31:00 AM ----- BODY: The offsite use of this box is to do secure sharing/trading of files via FTP over a secure independent wireless scenario. Notes for an upcoming gear project. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Luke and I are working on a concept for a home wireless music system/mobile wireless warez FTP server. The HWMS is a wireless streaming scenario. The goal is to take a minimum strength system, plug it into a existing wireless network and let it stream to computers over your network. Our goal is to have it so you could feasibly run it on two systems at the same time, which allows you to run it on a laptop and a say over a home stereo system. The MWWS has a home scenario that allows you to do simple FTP from any box in your home and have a central linux based platform for file delivery and management. The offsite use of this box is to do secure sharing/trading of files via FTP over a secure independent wireless scenario. Instead of bringing your system to, say, your job and plugging it into your work environment (a no no), you can bring a box in, broadcast with your own wireless access point and be separate and secure from any other network. Both systems will use a Linux distribution. They will be able to boot without the use of a monitor and be managed remotely from Telnet. The system configuration will be based on a low tech minimum requirement; 400mhz, 128mgs of ram, 40gig hard drive, and a stripped out enclosure. The whole point of both these systems is to have a computer that centralizes and manages files. It doesn’t really matter if it’s music or documents. A pure document and image server could have minimum requirements that are more then half our multimedia-based box. The difference between creating a contemporary computer; mouse, keyboard, monitor, typical enclosure, is that you want a box which can be managed from a secondary system (desktop or laptop) and likewise not need a lot of management to control. Why would you separate this system from your existing computer in the first place? Well first off footprint is important. A full size computer setup requires a pretty big space. If you want you can do this project pretty easily, either creating a file server, or music server for your small environment and simple needs. For a music server… Buy a switch box, it’ll cost about twenty or thirty dollars and this box will allow you to control multiple computers. Say you want to use this second computer to play music to a speaker system (Creative Labs sells a banging 3 piece 30watt for $35), all you need is a decent laptop or desktop which has these minimum specs; 200mhz, a decent sized harddrive (10gig or more), audio out, and that’s it. Add your music, a decent software music player, and you can either hook it up to speakers, or run it to your AUX port on your existing stereo, and you have a nice remote mp3 player. For a file server… The file server has the same basic setup. You may want to get a larger hard drive, but other wise you need to basically choose a folder, or the entire hard drive and share this volume. Sharing is basically done from windows explorer, this starts with a right click and a bunch of other shit, it varies from OS to OS, but it’s pretty simple. This situation will work over Ethernet or wireless. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.239.157 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 10/15/2004 09:32:55 PM huh? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: spam blocker EMAIL: vincent1987@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://209.152.169.39/~hptime/archives/000013.php DATE: 11/29/2004 07:24:24 PM 'T is better to be lowly born, And range with humble livers in content, Than to be perked up in a glistering grief, And wear a golden sorrow. spam blocker There's nothing ill can dwell in such a temple: If the ill spirit have so fair a house, Good things will strive to dwell with 't. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: spam filter EMAIL: miki@mail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://209.152.169.39/~hptime/archives/000013.php DATE: 11/29/2004 07:24:26 PM I will wear my heart upon my sleeveFor daws to peck at. spam filter Every man has business and desire, Such as it is. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: spam blocker EMAIL: vincent1987@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://stopspam.host.sk/spam-blocker.html DATE: 11/29/2004 07:59:12 PM Silence is the perfectest herald of joy: I were but little happy, if I could say how much. spam blocker And many strokes, though with a little axe, Hew down and fell the hardest-timbered oak. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: spam filter EMAIL: miki@mail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://stopspam.host.sk/spam-filter.html DATE: 11/29/2004 07:59:18 PM And many strokes, though with a little axe, Hew down and fell the hardest-timbered oak. spam filter True hope is swift, and flies with swallow's wings; Kings it makes gods, and meaner creatures kings. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: vinnie EMAIL: vincent1987@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://saveonshoes2.cjb.net/ DATE: 11/30/2004 12:28:05 AM This is the third time; I hope good luck lies in odd numbers.... There is divinity in odd numbers, either in nativity, chance, or death. vinnie The end crowns all, And that old common arbitrator, Time, Will one day end it. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: chuck EMAIL: chuckie1222@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://saveonshoes3.cjb.net/ DATE: 11/30/2004 12:28:06 AM My words fly up, my thoughts remain below:Words without thoughts never to heaven go. chuck Good name in man and woman, dear my lord, Is the immediate jewel of their souls: Who steals my purse steals trash; 'tis something, nothing; 'Twas mine, 'tis his, and has been slave to thousands; But he that filches from me my good name Robs me of that which not enriches him And makes me poor indeed. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: trevor EMAIL: trevorthegreat@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://saveonshoes4.cjb.net/ DATE: 11/30/2004 12:28:14 AM Neither a borrower nor a lender be; For loan oft loses both itself and friend; And borrowing dulls the edge of husbandry [economy]. trevor I would fain die a dry death. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: martha EMAIL: martochka@hotmail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://saveonshoes5.cjb.net/ DATE: 11/30/2004 12:28:23 AM There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so. martha For they are yet ear-kissing arguments. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: mike EMAIL: miki@mail.com IP: 69.13.185.95 URL: http://saveonshoes1.cjb.net/ DATE: 11/30/2004 12:28:24 AM Praising what is lost Makes the remembrance dear. mike The play's the thingWherein I'll catch the conscience of the king. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: I don't even remember writing this.... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 10/16/2004 12:53:53 AM ----- BODY: I am constantly mourning the fact that I don’t have a lot of real life friends, but honestly that is 100% my fault. I don’t call as often as I should. I don’t write. I don’t intentionally push people away, but I let relationships that I really value die. I’ve always done this… and I still don’t know why. Even when I realize that I’ve been letting a relationship fall apart, I still have a hard time getting myself to resurrect it. I would really like to figure out why it is so easy for me to do this. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Letter to a friend... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 10/16/2004 01:43:15 AM ----- BODY: Open reply to an offline im From ******** You asked me about sticking a knife in a coworker for personal gain. ----- EXTENDED BODY: You do what you have to do babe. People will recognize, and admire, or hate you for what you do. People in power like people who compromise themselves, cause they know they can use you and they like that. People out of power will either want to fuck you, or fear you. Of course you can live your life not fucking people, not taking opportunities to secure your position and your position will never change. The good do die young, often times they are given token awards, sometimes they are genuinely loved and admired, but the truth is that your career will not be about someone admiring you. I don’t mean to be cynical, bitter, or dry about all of this. I will speak of balance instead, and I admit that I live my life in balance. I try to make people laugh, and know that I am there for them. I also have no conniptions about fucking you, especially if you’ve tried to fuck me. Cause this is the situation…. If someone tries to fuck you, make sure you fuck them back. Do you have to be subtle about this? Nope. Do your thing. If you feel like what you’re doing is wrong (my modified catholic side says), pay your karmic debt. Otherwise, don’t worry about it. And watch reality tv shows. Think about everything you do and you’ll sleep peacefully. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: business week article: jobs STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 10/16/2004 02:22:31 AM ----- BODY: good read Original link is here My own printer friendly version is here. I am sharing this with you, but it's' copyrighted by Business Week. ----- EXTENDED BODY: OCTOBER 25, 2004 NEWS: ANALYSIS & COMMENTARY Commentary: Jobs: The Lull Will Linger Structural shifts across several key sectors make the robust job growth of the 1990s unlikely to return anytime soon Remember when the U.S. was a big, mean job machine? The 1990s saw the creation of 22 million jobs, the equivalent of adding another California and New York to the national labor market. Even after the 2001 recession and the September 11 terror attacks sent employment reeling, most economic observers -- including this one -- were confident that the job slump was just temporary. In fact, the employment market didn't turn up until August, 2003, and its performance since then has hardly been riproaring. In September only 96,000 jobs were created -- the fourth disappointing month in a row. And while the economy has added 1.7 million jobs in the past year, that's still 500,000 less than the 2.2 million average annual gain in the 1990s. True, the shortfall may be reduced a bit when the Bureau of Labor Statistics revises its data in early 2005. But there's little doubt that job growth has slowed significantly from the glory days of the '90s. That sluggish performance is also starting to raise questions about the economy's underlying strength. Tepid job growth weakens household incomes and makes the economy more vulnerable to negative shocks, such as more bad news out of Iraq. That's why some economists have started lowering their gross domestic product forecasts for the fourth quarter and beyond. What's holding back job creation? Many believe the problem is short-term in nature, caused by such factors as this year's unusually active hurricane season, political uncertainty, and the spike in oil prices. Others blame more persistent influences, such as high health-care costs and intense global competition. Yet the data clearly suggest that the job machine may have developed a long-term stutter for other reasons. The current shortfall in job growth, in fact, is heaviest in a few surprising sectors, such as retailing, education, and health care; telecommunications is a big culprit as well. A comparison of how many jobs these sectors added over the past year with the average number they added annually during the 1990s indicates that these laggards, for the most part, are undergoing structural changes that make a return of robust job growth unlikely anytime soon. The hardest-hit has been retailing, squeezed by low-cost Wal-Mart Stores Inc. (WMT ) and high-productivity online retailers. Retail jobs rose by only 94,000 during the 12 months ended in September, far lower than the annual average gain of 210,000 jobs in the earlier decade. Next on the list is education, where the slowdown in growth of K-12 enrollment has dramatically reduced hiring. Other job laggards, such as telecom and health care, face severe pressure to reduce costs. And the arts, entertainment, and recreation sector, which created 65,000 jobs per year in the 1990s, added only 10,000 over the past year. One explanation: upheaval brought on by new technologies in areas such as the music industry. The story in manufacturing, especially recently, is a bit more complicated. Manufacturers were not contributors to the job boom of the 1990s, with factory employment falling by 400,000 annually, on average, over the decade, and continuing to plunge in 2001, 2002, and 2003. Thus, the 9,000-job increase in manufacturing over the past year, however small, marks somewhat of an improvement. Overseas Shift Still, gains in manufacturing employment should have been a lot bigger thanks to the recent jump in retailing productivity. How so? The logic is simple: Lower costs and higher productivity help retailers hold down prices. Lower prices, in turn, enable consumers either to buy more from that company or to spend elsewhere. That creates a greater demand for services and other manufactured goods. But while gains from higher retailing productivity are boosting demand for goods, the resulting factory jobs are showing up in other countries. Retail sales rose by a strong $62 billion over the past year, measured in 2000 dollars. But guess what? Imports of consumer goods, motor vehicles, and foods and beverages rose by exactly that amount. So rather than creating 100,000 or more manufacturing jobs in the U.S., that $62 billion in spending only hiked job growth elsewhere. Given the continued pressures, it's unlikely that the forces holding down job growth are going to abate in the near term. The newfound productivity boom in retailing underscores the point. Until recently, much of retailing had been stuck in the productivity doldrums. From 1990-2002, output per hour rose by only 1.7% per year in department stores and motor-vehicle dealers, and a meager 0.2% per year at food and beverage stores, including grocers. Together these industries account for over 40% of retailing employment. Over the past year, though, a combination of job cuts and new technology, from improved inventory-management systems to wireless computers that allow shoppers to cut checkout time by scanning their own groceries, have led to much bigger productivity gains in these industries -- 4% or more, according to estimates by BusinessWeek. But these retailers will still have to hold down hiring if they hope to compete with Wal-Mart and an ever-more-efficient set of online rivals. Published data show that online retailers boosted productivity by 16% in 2003, while BusinessWeek estimates suggest that productivity growth accelerated yet a further 20% by the middle of 2004. Amazon.com Inc. (AMZN ), for example, boosted its workforce by 8% in the year ended in June, 2004, but its sales were up 34% compared with the previous year. That translates into a 24% gain in sales per worker and explains why online retailers added only 12,000 in the past year. The bottom line: Retailing isn't likely to soon regain its prominence as a job creator. The same is true in education, where slowing job growth is driven mainly by demographics. During the '90s, elementary and secondary enrollment rose by an average of almost 700,000 students per year, generating huge demand for new teachers. Today, the Education Dept. estimates that the increase in the student population is much slower, with enrollment growing by only 160,000 in 2004. An Eye on Telecom Partly as a result, the education sector added only 135,000 jobs over the past year, compared with an annual average of 240,000 in the 1990s. The BLS recently reported that the number of people working in education, training, and library occupations hadn't risen at all over the past year despite gains in most other occupations. Since teaching and related professions almost all require a college degree, such stagnation in education-related jobs is also one factor in explaining why the college-educated job market continues to remain troubled. That's a critical difference between the 1990s and today. Given these demographic changes, it's unlikely that a rebound in education hiring to the levels of the 1990s is on the horizon. The only thing that could change the equation would be enough additional government money to significantly lower teacher-student ratios in K-12 schools or to significantly boost enrollments at the college level. The long-term job situation is not all gloomy, however. Consider telecommunications, which was a moderate job creator in the 1990s, adding about 30,000 per year. Now, of course, the sector is in slash mode, cutting 40,000 jobs over the past year, with more to come. On Oct. 7, for example, AT&T (T ) announced plans to shrink its workforce by an additional 7,400 jobs on top of what it had already announced. But in the long run, telecom could again become a net generator of jobs as new services are developed and the need for workers to install and maintain broadband connections -- more temperamental and finicky than ordinary phone lines -- keeps growing. Both Presidential candidates have voiced support for an expansion of broadband connections. Then there's health care, which added 280,000 jobs in the past year. That's a big number, but not as many as the annual job gain of 340,000 in the 1990s, with much of the shortfall coming in nursing homes and home health care. However, here demographics are a plus. As the population ages, health-care employment will likely accelerate. The lesson here is that the days of prolific job creation are over, at least until another breakthrough innovation such as the Internet comes along. In the 1990s, the wind was at our backs, and jobs were easy to come by. Today job creation is much tougher for many reasons -- and for now that's just a reality we have to live with. By Michael J. Mandel ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Your first Internet Appliance STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 10/18/2004 02:07:41 AM ----- BODY: Linksys Network Broadcast Player. A necessary second read... I checked this out with Luke tonight, while at WalMart. This device is worth the cash. By the Christmas season you will either see it selling out (not likely, it’s good, but still early), or you may see it cheaper. If you have a c-note (and a half) lying around consider buying it. Original link is here The readable text is inside... ----- EXTENDED BODY: The Linksys Wireless-B Music System lets you bring the digital music stored on your computer to your Home Entertainment Center, without running cables through the house. Using a wireless connection, the Music System finally frees your digital music collection from those little computer speakers to play in full glory through your stereo system. The Wireless-B Music System sits by your home stereo and connects to it using standard consumer electronics cables. Then it connects to your home network by Wireless-B (802.11b) wireless networking, or if you prefer, it can be connected via standard 10/100 Ethernet cabling. Using the included remote control and the built-in LCD menus, you can browse your MP3 or WMA formatted music collection on your home PCs by title, artist, album, genre, or playlist. Or, access the Rhapsody Digital Music service (free trial included) to listen to over 450,000 songs on demand, create custom playlists and radio stations, and burn mixed CDs on your PC. You can also tune into thousands of Internet radio stations from over 100 different countries around the world. Choose the music you want, and let the Wireless-B Music System play it through your living room stereo. Or, with its small but powerful detachable speakers, it can also act as your portable digital music "boombox". Carry the Music System around the house and have access to your entire music collection, and your favorite Internet radio stations, anywhere within range of your wireless network -- the kitchen, den, even out on the patio by the pool. Let the Linksys Wireless-B Music System bring digital music out into the living room for the whole family to enjoy. Years ago if you came to my house, you’ve be greated by a tv, stereo and a thin laptop. The laptop played my rather small mp3 cd collection through my stereo speakers, and had a nifty screen saver. And if you have a double computer wireless setup, or a computer, and laptop computer setup, this device is for you. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Drunken Style KungFu STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 10/28/2004 10:59:57 PM ----- BODY: Useless series of pictures.... It should probably be titled: Negro smiles with drunks crackas. ----- EXTENDED BODY: So you’re out with your friends having a good time, then a camera comes out. You round everyone up and take the picture. Because you’re drunk; you don’t put down your drink, you don’t put out your smoke, you don’t take your heavy fucking messenger bag (which is pulling on your shit, and automatically designates you as the guy who has to carry shit) off, it might get dirty. Everyone smiles, Heffy bitches about her strange picture prowess. C1 can’t keep his eyes open. A-dog04 looks caught in fear. J-Kelly is obviously having a good time, and C2 is in rare form. 1st picture starting from the left: C1, Heffy, J-Kelly, A-dog04 (in back), C2. As drinking pictures go, if I cold pull out A-dog04 and C1 this would be a great shot. Don’t get me wrong. C1 looks good for this kinda shot, his closed lid humor is accidental and necessary. A-dog04 ends up looking the disembodied head we bring around. 2nd picture starting from the left: C2, me, Heffy, A-dog04. -C2is neither a cook, terrorist, or my gay lover. -For some reason I decided not to stand tall and instead hunched over, which of course makes me look real sexy. -Heffy is pointing or sticking a twig on her tongue ring for some reason. - A-dog04 kinda looks like he’s preparing Heffy for impregnation. 3rd picture You know who they are, and they all look like they’re fucking… -Heffy looks like “Not only is it tight, but this hurts” - A-dog04 is working a smile, and J-Kelly looks like she’s backing backing it up for him. -Ca2? Boy Band. 4th picture -Smoke -J-Kelly and C1 are on the money, the rest of us look half hearted. - A-dog04 and Heffy share mutual grimacing sex faces. And there is no point in sharing these pictures, but I thought I would... ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: A-dog04 EMAIL: arch@mindspring.com IP: 66.245.78.148 URL: DATE: 11/11/2004 01:33:07 PM OMG I am so totally a floating head, youa re right... I never notice just how short some of you people are until I see pics like this... ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Ed has wood STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 10/29/2004 12:05:07 AM ----- BODY: It took awhile for me to like Ed Wood. This is a interesting piece about his last film, a skin flick that hasn’t been seen in awhile. here be the link ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Propaganda STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: guest writer CATEGORY: guest writer DATE: 11/02/2004 01:10:56 PM ----- BODY: JLWS writes on the election. ----- EXTENDED BODY: I know this is a day late and a dollar short and will further alienate me from my friends, but I just have to say something about the election. I don't love Bush. I think his views on gay marriage and stem cell research are stupid and the Patriot Act is a horrible piece of liberty reducing legislation, but if Kerry wins this election, we're all going to die. Although Bush has been criticized for making this election and his presidency all about the war on terror while neglecting domestic issues, we must recognize the fact that, while he may not be the best man for social reform, he is the best man to fight these terrorists and to keep us safe. It is niave to believe that we can make peace with the terrorists. They waged war on us and now the government has a responsibility to protect us from this enemy. Kerry does not recognize this. This is not his priority. What are you priorities? When it comes to your families, is keeping them alive and safe more important than teaching them to make friends? While having friends is important, dead men have no friends. This war is about protecting the lives of Americans, and do you really trust Kerry to protect you? Do you really believe that he puts your life above his own political success? I don't. I not aware of anything in Kerry's record, or personal life that indicates that his involvement in politics has ever been for anything but personal gain. The terrorists and Osama bin Ladan don't trust him to keep us safe either. The Iraqi insurgents (you know, the people that keep beheading innocent American and Brits) have endorsed Kerry. Abu Jalal, and insurgent leader in Iraq said the following, "American elections and Iraq are linked tightly together. We've got to work to change the election, and we've done so. With our strikes, we've dragged Bush into the mud." Are you falling for this? Are you playing into their game? Are you on Abu Jalal's side or on Bush's? Even Osama bil Ladan has endorsed Kerry. According to the Middle East Media Research Institute's translation of the most recent Bin Laden tape, bin Laden says that any state that votes for Bush "We will consider it an enemy to us," while "any state that will vote against Bush, it means that it chose to make peace with us and we will not characterize it as an enemy." You really think that Osama wants peace? No, he's just trying to scare people into voting for Kerry because he is afraid of Bush and he knows that Kerry will make the US an easy target that refuses to fight back. This is a sign that Bush is making progress, he just needs your support. Kerry has also been endorsed by Yasser Arafat and Kim Jong-Il. The terrorists want to kill us. They believe that Americans are evil. Not just regular ol' evil, but the Big Evil. They think that we must be destroyed. Do you think that? Are you willing to betray your fellow Americans and vote the way that our enemies would like for you to? Will you be able to look at yourself in the mirror while your friends and family are dying around you? Tomorrow, I hope that Americans can celebrate another victory over terrorists with Bush and it makes me sick to think that we could be celebrating a victory by the terrorists with Kerry. Think about our enemies celebrating Kerry's victory in the streets of Iraq and Afghanistan tomorrow. Think about Osama smiling in his cave, knowing that we betrayed the man who was going to save us. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: leah EMAIL: carwilel@convergent.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 11/02/2004 04:39:20 PM I think that it is wishful thinking to call Bush our savior when he has fucked this up from the begining . . .unless, that is, you can explain to me what Saddam has to do with Osama. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: pablo EMAIL: pablo@kungfuey.com IP: 67.34.238.14 URL: DATE: 11/03/2004 12:08:33 AM Sadaam and Osama? Take a Nomad terrorist. Take one US created Omar Khadafi (version 2.0) and get those guys together. Sadaam has been a consistent foreign thorn in our side since we put him in office, and he learned that showing his ass and living life like some lost childhood; rebelling against Daddy America. Slate has an article http://slate.msn.com/id/2091381 about the little known Saddam-Osama memo, which is detailed by the News Corporation affiliate The Weekly Standard The following is a link for the The original “Case Closed” article by Stephen F. Hayes http://www.weeklystandard.com/Utilities/printer_preview.asp?idArticle=3378&R=798D1B52B Here is a New York Times article lambasting “Case Closed” http://www.nytimes.com/2003/11/20/politics/20MEMO.html?pagewanted=print&position= Some say that Bush is as Bush does. And some believe that Iraq was just closure to an old fight between two families. This is an interesting theory; it is also a concept that must be considered, especially since I’m going to pull out the more traditionalist notion that our government will not tell us everything there is to know. If you watch Frontline, or any decent new show you know that the original Iraq war was unfinished business and similar to our retreat from Cambodia, though, it was perceived to have much better short term political benefits. Likewise after watching us beat the shit out of Afghanistan but not take home the kewpie doll, it’s a frustrating and Dejavu like event to watch this second Iraq War. Does Oil play a part in our attack of Iraq? I think so yes Did Al Qaeda and Osama play a part? I believe so yes. Was the connection between possibly getting an Oil partner, and crippling a potential Al Qaeda supporter a offer the Bush Regime couldn’t pass up? I think so. Remember how Russia was negative on Iraq and aggressive American policy on handling them? Yes. Do you remember their response after the school massacre? I do. What is this war about? What is this presidential election about? And what do you want to see in the next four years? Regardless of who wins I will support the next President and hope the best for our nation. Do I believe that terrorism will continue to be a major issue? Yes. Do I believe that the economy will continue to be another big issue? I do and I think we still have some rough financial time ahead, regardless of who the President is. I definitely believe that party line voting is not realistic anymore. I think there is a political game that used to be two flavored and it was easy enough. We had some rogues, a bunch of mainliners, a shit load of people who didn’t care, and the occasional independent movement, not to mention the stillborn Libertarian effort which is valiant but polluted by the clash of “less government” and “more drugs”. Today politics are about media games and our system of understanding things about our politicians and the issues has to be smarter. Better we disagree here and at least talk about it. Pablo ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: sparrow EMAIL: imsitting@home.coop IP: 68.224.212.212 URL: DATE: 11/03/2004 12:47:37 AM Melodramatic, extremist, and fatalistic. Bush wants you to remain afraid. Good flunkie. Living in fear is abysmal; it must suck to be you. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: pablo EMAIL: killa@killa.com IP: 67.34.238.14 URL: DATE: 11/03/2004 01:08:26 AM I’m not sure if JLWS or me should respond to this, who is the flunkie? It sucks to be who? For me this week I got called everything from a Wigger, Nigger, Sellout, Tom, Flunkie, Loser, Stupid, and all of that was family and friends. Here is how things can go folks. You can; poke, stab, shout, scream, rage and or disagree. Jump on board (with your ass in your hand) and write some silly shit (nice semi-haiku btw) and be done with it. Or….you can; poke, stab, shout, scream, rage and or disagree. Jump on board (with your ass in your hand) and write something which actually contributes to the discussion. I know it’s late, someone should have spoke on it earlier, and we maybe could have had some rousing discussion, but we have all decided to bite our nails now and screech now. I am personally an ok flunkie, and it is actually ok to be me. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.238.14 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 11/03/2004 01:46:18 AM It's 12:30am and I'm not afraid anymore. In fact, right now, I'm feeling pretty good. But I wasn't living in fear before. I looked at the situation and made judgements about the consequences of Kerry as president and it looked pretty dismal. With Bush as president, I can continue to live my comfortable life. It is the democrats who live in fear. They fear going against the international grain. They fear failure in Iraq, so much so that they project it. But most of all, they feal their own failure. They are so afraid that they need the government to provide a safety net for them through social programs such as social security, welfare, and national healthcare. I don't want any of that, because I am not afraid. As for the link between Osama and Saddam: while Pablo provided us with documentation, the link I think is most important is a little more abstract. President Bush, unlike Kerry, understands that the enemy is not one person, not only Osama bin Laden, but the enemy is a culture of religious oppression the dictates and endoctrinates that America must be destroyed. So, it is in this way that the two are linked and in this way that they are both our enemy. Also, I certainly would not charaterize Bush's actions as "fucking up." Afghanistan just held its first election. Saddam is out of power. Plus, there have been no more attacks on American soil. Bin Laden has not yet been captured. I don't think that means that it has all been fucked up from the beginning. In fact, I think most evidence suggests that it has been a success and America agrees ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: pablo EMAIL: pablo@pablo.com IP: 67.34.238.14 URL: DATE: 11/03/2004 02:09:18 AM A good friend of the family called JLWS an idiot at his site. He was very polite about it though. Free advertising of his site and the link is here. http://www.livejournal.com/users/shavedapebaby/ Notice how I carefully don’t say anything else. Is this a lack of support for The Bride? Nope. I wrote on my political position a few weeks ago in this link http://kfo.polymoog.com/archive/000131.html#more I want to give us a place to speak, and hell I even like to dig around and see what people think, even if they did not share it here for the simple fact that it might go from personal thoughts to just feeling like an attack. In the journal world, where many of us are veterans at expressing ourselves, there are a lot of unspoken rules and acts of politeness, acts of war. What is always true is that when we share how we feel, we are doing this to either generate attention, or express how we genuinely feel. Tonight, a lot of us are obviously up, this is the cool aspect to the dreaded “Blog” word. We are right now. Most of us are using a Add/Load structure to quickly upload our thoughts on current events. A few weeks ago JLWS and I were lashing out at each other on this site, and a friend of mine wrote an email telling me that we should be professional and that I was marring my site with such silly bickering. This site, your site …We are all free to express ourselves. We all have different opinions. Pretty neat to watch. Ok. So sometimes we do a little name calling huh…. It’s fun to stir the shit on occasion and I guess it’s been stirred tonight. Anyway it may get good over at "G's" site http://www.livejournal.com/users/shavedapebaby/ since I know JLWS is responding to his piece. Gosh golly. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: blanketgirl EMAIL: blanketgirl@yahoo.com IP: 131.96.34.8 URL: DATE: 11/19/2004 07:02:22 PM “Today politics are about media games and our system of understanding things about our politicians and the issues has to be smarter. Better we disagree here and at least talk about it.” Well written, Pablo. To JLWS: a few comments, if anyone is still reading the comments on this post: One: Isn’t it amazing how we change as we grow older? There was a time when you and I disagreed on spanking…remember that? Now I think spanking is absurd, and you are supporting Bush. I guess that’s what makes a friendship strong: respect and appreciation enough to allow for differences. I totally disagree with you, of course, and plan to say that and why, but I don’t think you’re an idiot. Well, I guess we’ll never know what would have happened if Kerry had won the election, but I think we’re all going to die anyway, so there’s my answer to that. I’ll give it to you that Bush probably is better for fighting “these terrorists” than Kerry would have been, but to say that he is the best man for the job is to ignore the fact that we only had two choices, and that’s fucked up. It is also to assume that we need/want to fight these terrorists, and further, that we have a clearly defined view of who they are, and who are they (which I think we don’t.) Now, I’m not exposed to as much media as are you (a choice on both of our parts), but at the end of the day, I don’t think it would change my mind. If you want to talk about fear, and it seems that representatives from both political parties do very much, then let’s talk about it. The media perpetuates our culture of fear to the point that we are saying things like “When it comes to your families, is keeping them alive and safe more important than teaching them to make friends? While having friends is important, dead men have no friends.” I don’t believe that keeping my family alive and safe is mutually exclusive with teaching them to make friends (in fact, I think the latter leads to the former). Also, I know dead men with friends. Not that it’s relevant. And not to get all, “would you kill a monkey if,” but why are our lives so much more precious than theirs? I don’t believe most politicians put my life above their own political success. That’s the problem with lifetime politicians. One-term limits, dammit! I would rather be friendly with a mobster than not. To be unfriendly is to invite trouble; better to feel there is at least a chance that I won’t get shot. You say the terrorists believe that Americans are evil. I ask you: do you, American, believe that the terrorists are evil? You say “the enemy is a culture of religious oppression the (sic) dictates and endoctrinates (sic) that America must be destroyed.” So, you think your culture is better than “their” culture? I think that’s a little arrogant. Our culture is better for us, but it certainly hasn’t proven to be better for them. You don’t need welfare because you have a place of financial privilege, and I’m not talking about your job. If you don’t know what I am talking about, well…I’ve known a lot of middle-class folks who have a hard time accepting our privilege (especially educated, white, male bougies!) And I’m smiling now, so don’t send too much fire my way, folks, but there’s something to it…The Bluest Eye¬ isn’t called The Brownest Eye for a reason. Do you think there would have been additional attacks “on American soil” even if Bush had not been President? You know, maybe there wouldn’t have been any attacks in the first place if he hadn’t been President – guess we’ll never know that either. Glad to be back in the dialogue. Happy pontificating. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: watch moi EMAIL: cindy23ny@gmail.com IP: 193.188.105.9 URL: http://www.webstarcast.com/ DATE: 03/16/2005 08:53:32 PM Omg thats right! Please come see me and my friends! ;) ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Election viewing commentary by Mother Jones STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 11/03/2004 02:30:22 AM ----- BODY: Fun to read (!) article by Tom Engelhardt A Couch Potato's Guide to Election Night link is here ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: online casino EMAIL: jessica_2003@yahoo.com IP: 203.101.31.20 URL: http://www.wildcitycasino.com DATE: 11/04/2004 02:46:59 AM As the elections near, I must inject some commentary from a very well respected journalist by the name of Charles Reese from the Orlando Sentinel. He pretty much writes what I feel & what I believe many others feel about an administration that cannot be put back in office for another four years. Being a pragmatist, I have fought the urge to post anything up on our website. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: The Hand Project STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 01/05/2005 03:49:34 AM ----- BODY: Series of recent images.... click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLWS EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 02/13/2005 07:52:04 PM I love hands. You have big sexy hands with big thick fingers. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: uhm STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 01/05/2005 03:51:08 AM ----- BODY: Happy belated holidays! ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Apex to include Divx. STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 01/11/2005 01:16:31 AM ----- BODY: Most people won't care, but if you love your bootlegs neat and small, you should get a future Apex with DIVX decoding embedded. click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Eclipsed by Closer STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: 180 CATEGORY: 180 DATE: 01/12/2005 02:48:46 AM ----- BODY: I almost forgot about the indy relationship flick "We don't live here anymore". It's on DVD now. The site is here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: WTF is Edamame? STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 01/12/2005 04:48:44 PM ----- BODY: Well kids Edamame is Japanese soy bean. Edamame in it’s natural form looks like a caterpillar cocoon, or a very full snap pea shell. ----- EXTENDED BODY: The beans are harvested at the peak of ripening, and then flash frozen. A lot of people like Edamame shucked and served in a bowl, with soy and other such crap (see Leah), but the best way to eat it is slightly warmed with a shake of Sea Salt, or Lemon Pepper. I’ll ask my Rachel Ray of a buddy Leah for her Shelled Edamame recipe, and we’ll see if she sends it our way. I love Edamame steamed in the shell and with a few shakes of sea salt.. If I have to cook it, and you can try this as well, take a cup of Edamame, some chipotle seasonings, crushed red peppers, a shake of soy or teriyaki, and add a small serving of cheese (approximately a quarter cup of your choice) and then bring the mix to a quick simmer (about forty seconds in the microwave), stir and serve. It’s freaking delicious. For people who start sniffing out the origins of Tofu in Edamame, you’re not far off, Tofu is derived from Edamame, but it is not the bland jiggly puff that some view Tofu as being like. So try it if you never have. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.240.224 URL: DATE: 01/12/2005 06:57:43 PM I love your edamame song... sung to the tune of "That's amore!" That's edamame! Of course, i have in it my head now. I learned about edamame from Martha Stewart. She did a whole show devoted to soy, one day and prepared edameme much like you do, with salt, for an after school snack for the kiddies she doesn't have. Shelled, in a bowl, salted. She recommended eating it during a movie, like popcorn. She also showed how it was grown and how they made it into tofu and soy sauce and some other stuff I can't remember. In any case, I do love it. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Leah EMAIL: Leah@leah.com IP: 12.166.247.12 URL: DATE: 01/13/2005 01:02:58 PM That recipe for shelled edamame Here's the preparation that I enjoy . . . I use the shelled edamame and sauté them with a little spicy sesame oil (it has a better flavor than the plain sesame) and a little soy sauce, which adds enough sodium that you really don't need additional salt. I have also just recently started adding a little sweet chili sauce as well. You usually see this as a dipping sauce at Thai restaurants or at a noodle house, but I discovered that it's fairly easy to find at the grocery store. There it is, nothing fancy or amazing but it's pretty damn good. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Freaking spider crawling on me STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 01/13/2005 12:39:20 AM ----- BODY: So I wanted to remember to research ragdoll physics, and then I saw a spider.... Maybe I saw a spider. I don't think i'm going crazy or anything. The spider has only shown up on my left (a place one might expect to see a spider), and he only peeks out, which of course really means that there could be a spider somewhere to the left of the couch. I have looked for him...didn't find anything though. Spiders don't really bother me much, so I guess I’m ok, and the first time it happened i was half asleep on the couch, which is probably why I keep flinching abit at the thought of it. Anyway eh. Ragdoll Physics are used in contemporary computer/console games to dictate and create dramatic tension in the bodies of characters when they receive injuries, fall, and get shot to shit, interesting enough to look at later. click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: DATE: 01/16/2005 07:21:27 PM awwww!! my little paranoid voilence obsessed pookie! you're so cute! ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Apple: $99 Ipod $500 Computer STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: review CATEGORY: review DATE: 01/13/2005 12:04:12 PM ----- BODY: So Apple has come out with two new products; The IPOD Shuffle (a displayless ½ and full gigabyte player), and the Apple Mini (a $499 mini computer that competes and does in fact trump the equivalent consumer PC. But are they right for you, and more importantly do you care? ----- EXTENDED BODY: For my friends who didn’t watch Steve Job’s Mac Keynote address and haven’t already spent six hours verbally masturbating about Apple products in the last week or so, if you’re curious here is the scoop. The IPOD Shuffle is good for people who like to hear their music and don’t care if it’s random. People who listen to the same mix tape/cd for months at a time, people who want a Ipod and don’t want to roll out $250 for a Mini, it’s also great for people who want to work out, especially since the other Ipod siblings have hard drives and this is a flash based unit. For the first couple of years that MP3’s and music by way of computer storage was available I typically had small collections ranging between three hundred megs and a gig, and that’s about right for a lot of people, so the shuffle could be your sexy walkman replacement, for people who love music but have not managed to acquire the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame library of music, it’ll also be enough space for you. The Apple Mini makes me a little more excited. The specs for this computer are close to what the Apple IBook has, and for a non computer user what that means is that this computer is not a major compromise or some completely stripped out piece of shit. Will getting an Apple simplify your life? The answer is yes and no, cause the Apple has nearly no viruses, is easier to use, and even more fun to use. When you get an apple though, you are isolated a bit from your pc family and friends, who will be unfamiliar with the interface, and will be unable to share software with you. From a support standpoint it’s a bit of a tossup, lose your support group of half wit/shrugging/confused/ill advised family members for a computer that just consistently works. Maybe it’s not such a decision making struggle at all. Will you be able to swap music, and movies, files and porn? Yes, with ease….(the ease of a CD rom that is) Is the $499 price honest of is there a proverbial “*” lurking around? Sure, the Apple Mini requires a USB keyboard and mouse (go the Logitech route, for about thirty bucks and treat yourself to a wireless black model), also it will need a monitor, and you can use your existing shitty PC monitor, but you may want to at least invest in a Flat Monitor CRT (still big and heavy but better glass and no curves; about $150) these days, or a cheap LCD (easier on the eyes, sexier, about $220 for some no name brand shitty bargain at Walmart). Also you’ll want to drop more memory into the box Mac Mini, but say you already have a USB keyboard and Mouse, and a monitor, all you’d have to do is get some more memory and you’d be on your way, you won’t be getting no bootleg software from your pc friends though, to get you started. Both products are worth the buy if they fit into your personal economic model. Next tier purchasing is of course expensive by a factor of three fold or so, so go figure, Apple has done right by the masses for the first time. Go to the Apple store near you, and if there are cows outside your window, go to the Apple website to learn more. Seriously, it’s so much easier then the pc side of things. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Randy EMAIL: r1230cook@ct.com IP: 67.34.240.224 URL: DATE: 01/15/2005 04:30:32 PM Would you get rid of your PC for the mini pablo ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: pablo EMAIL: email@kungfuonline.org IP: 68.223.127.185 URL: DATE: 01/17/2005 01:32:22 AM I believe I will buy a Mac Mini. I think the time will be right for me when I finish researching whether or not I can plug it into my television and if I can then get some decent inexpensive remotes for it. My desire would then be to use it as a home *PVR (discarding the need for Tivo or Windows Media Center) and central storage repository. I wouldn’t buy the Ipod Shuffle, but that’s because I own a 20Gigabyte 4G model. It is fair to say if I probably wouldn’t buy it anyway, since I’d want to have a display and more control over my experience. But If I could have a way to skip through to multiple playlist I would get one. For the money on either though you’re doing pretty well. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: E tu Pedro STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 01/15/2005 04:37:52 AM ----- BODY: Oh Canada.... The unfair treatment of Migrant workers. Check out the article here, and come back to see what I say about it, or screw said article cause I of course sum it up impartially with no personal dispostion -snicker-. click here for the pop up read of the source piece. ----- EXTENDED BODY: This quote “below” goes to an article that outlines the conditions of legal Mexican migrant workers in Canada. “For all of this, they are paid $7.70 an hour minus Employment Insurance (EI) and Canada Pension Plan (CPP) deductions, which are taken from their paycheques despite the fact that they are not entitled to either of these government services themselves. “ It goes on to to talk about how they pick married men and mothers (people who won’t try to run and become Canadian; I guess.) and how horrible it is; that families are broken up for 8 months of a year. OK, honestly, The truth is that if you come from some shithole country and don’t get to typically see a sum which amounts to a fraction of $7.70 an hour (minus Canadian taxes) is this such a horrible thing? Is this actually exploitation as the authors of the story claim, or is it just the end result of regulating how foreign workers come into your country and work? I guest this is interesting to me cause I’ve often had white folks confide in me (peculiar I know) that they have greater respect for “them Mexicans” then say blacks or (we’re too arrogant now?), or slacker white folk. Of course it’s not like the white folk (who say such ignorant things) you talk to would actually go pick some fucking vegetables or work for said migrant worker wage. I mean, if my family is in a third world country, and I’m somewhere else and I make a kings ransom in third world country money, I wouldn’t give a flying fuck what the amount might be, minus the taxes I’m paying to benefits I won’t get, in the country legally allowing me to make more cheese than my birthland The economists have fucked it all up a bit. And if the socialists have decided to allow migrant workers to live in squallid (still better than home) conditions and get paid less then whatever the fuck the Canadian “living wage” is (if the eh-folk have one) that seems pretty fucking win-win to me. Seems like the most compassionate group of people around are the fucking Canadians, and if they are taxing foreign third world country folk to help with their equivalent to social security (read; free medicine for all, and safety net for our old folk) we should be ok with that and take notice of it. Of course my more compassionate, and supposedly social-minded friends may think otherwise… ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: maybe EMAIL: ngr@ngr.com IP: 192.168.0.55 URL: http://www.ngr.com DATE: 01/15/2005 01:22:36 PM maybe if all the illegal mexicans in the US were taxed for benefits they aren't going to get we wouldn't be having this snake oil sold to us called "privatized social security." ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: Pablo@thatplace.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 01/17/2005 11:51:44 AM Well I'm not saying we should tax our illegal workers. I first think we should manage the flow of our illegal workers, but I do find it facisnating to see what I believe is a very powerful structure for economic controls; allow migrant workers to come in and do your hard labor, set up rules for how they can do it, and then enforce them. The fact that they do the equivilant of also taxing their legal migrant workers is ok to me, cause they are guests of the country and that's the deal. I think we should look at a more managed structure ourselves, and use that to balance out the fact that our illegal foreign workers do often times have infrastructures of social/medical help when they are here in the states. Pablo ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Tuna Salad STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: recipe CATEGORY: recipe DATE: 01/17/2005 03:46:14 AM ----- BODY: I made an awesome tuna salad for dinner on Tuesday, and then proceeded to watch Extreme Home Makeover and Iron Chef America. Personally as tuna salads go, I will continue to live my life enjoying my mothers version of this all-american dish. Her dish is probably a lot like your mom’s dish, it includes; tuna, eggs, mayonnaise, and also but not necessarily; onion, relish, mustard and other ingredients. I still like that style of tuna salad, but it’s not particularly sophisticated in taste and it tends to age badly, developing puddles of mayo and tuna juice. So I made my own recipe, took a picture of my results and put it on my freaking website. How about that for some art and creativity motherfuckers? ----- EXTENDED BODY: Tuna Salad 05 a recipe This is a dry spicy salad, perfect for sandwiches or by itself, it makes great leftovers and is also great with any of the other ingredients you might enjoy in your tuna salad. It will also hold up well in the refrigerator. If you were to go the traditionalist route and add macaroni, it would be great to mist the macaroni with olive oil and a shake of sea salt and pepper, to add flavor. Ingredients 1.Seven Eggs (The pot wouldn’t take anymore, otherwise, if you can, I’d say use eight) 2.Two cans of regular tuna in water 3. One table spoon of crushed red pepper. 4. One shake of McCormicks seasoning salt 5. One teaspoon of Oregano 6. One teaspoon of Italian Seasoning 7. One teaspoon of black pepper 8. One quarter cup of minced mixed olives 9. One Half teaspoon of olive oil 10. pinch of sea salt 11. Three tablespoons of mayonaise 12. One tablespoon of ranch dressing Ok the preparation is pretty simple. 1. Drain the tuna like you never have before place it in a large mixing bowl. 2. Add the mayo and stir it with the tuna in the mixing bowl. 3. After boiling the eggs, remove the egg yellows (they are kinda disgusting if you think about it) then, mince the boiled eggwhites and leave them in small pieces, but don’t obsesses over the size people. 4. Add the McCormicks Seasoning, the sea salt, the crushed red peppers, and the black pepper to the minced egg whites blanketing them with color. 5. Mince a quarter cup of fancy olives, pitting them and mincing them. You can substitue a mix of black and green okives if you like. Then add the half teaspoon of oregano and Italian seasoning, again a small shake of salt, and now add the half teaspoon of olive oil and the tablespoon of ranch dressing. This combination of ingredients should be mixed in a separate bowl, and allowed to sit for a few minutes. 6. Next mix everything together stirring with a large spoon. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: DATE: 01/17/2005 05:10:27 PM Looks great baby. And beautifully presented too! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: p10pablo@kkk.com IP: 68.219.225.124 URL: DATE: 01/18/2005 01:59:35 AM Gee thanks mom. Mental note, band wife from commenting on my site. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Video killed the Blogger Star STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 01/18/2005 01:47:45 AM ----- BODY: After a one of his longest hiatuses, Justin of Links.net brings it on hardcore in video fashion, creating something interesting and worthy of consideration. Speaking of videos, you know, I'm still waiting for Jonnies Video Masterpiece to hit the web. Hell i'm still waiting to edit it and even see the footage I shot introducing his work; it could still happen..... What’s interesting in this game we’ve all played some part in for the last few years, the truth is that we are still doing all of this to express ourselves. Is this some mugging for the camera, a desire to be accepted, or just the screaming need to express oneself in some original fashion? It could be said that the reason why we dream of writing the Great American Novel, or the fact that we have written three failed novels, or that we never risk our reputation outside producing other peoples work is because I think the thought of some original combination, that your work actually be something that is inspired by homage and admiration, but breaks new ground is important to people like us. And leave it to us to seek it in raw passion, with polished skill, and tempered spirit, all the while trying to make it spontaneous. I used to think there was a taint to success, that immediately upon being loved and admired, your work couldn’t go on, that it has at least lost it’s naïve presence, and everything after that is selling your comic collection and dating Lisa Marie Presley, making movies with Jerry Bruckheimer. It doesn’t mean you can’t do good work, and it also doesn’t mean that the search to work within different mediums is not a genuine desire to further one’s expression. Justin has done some good work, whether it is tortured, or crafted. quite possibly both. You can view his video here, obviously as he intended; naked, almost separate from the web experience. click here.* *Pssst. If you right click and choose "save target as" you can download this and have a copy as opposed to just getting it in cache. pablo ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Hiro Protagonist EMAIL: hiro@snowcrash.org IP: 66.194.32.101 URL: DATE: 01/18/2005 05:20:20 PM The problem is not that we are mugging for the camera. The problem is that we expect the camera to mug for us. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: pablo EMAIL: dl@kungfuonline.org IP: 68.217.60.7 URL: DATE: 01/21/2005 02:13:58 AM "The problem is not that we are mugging for the camera. The problem is that we expect the camera to mug for us." If we do expect the camera to mug for us, it is a problem. WTF is the camera gonna do for us. I am not attacking the notion, cause I know such a statement must infer something I can't quite grasp (maybe?) but the truth is that camera is innate, it waits for us only. If it is us waiting, then we do struggle, but does the common man, with dv or vhs-c expect his shitty camera to do the work; The Camera won't, it can't. Please people. don't mug for the camera. Pablo ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: My First Blog Entry STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 01/22/2005 01:35:27 AM ----- BODY: Ok I think I’m going to **************************, and if it happens that’ll be great. Likewise, I have been thinking about putting firefox on a system at home. I guess I will have to find out if FireFox will run Gmail. Hm… Likewise, I’ve wondered if Jonnie has scored a Gmail account yet, and whether or not any of my other friends have, so far I only know about JLWS, Astrolodalva, Luke, AngrySparrow, and Leah. Kinda interesting. Tonight I’m gonna to try Firefox, I kinda live my life between IE and Opera, and the Mozilla/Netscape/Mosaic crowd kinda bores me, so it’s a new experience. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: p@p.com IP: 68.223.127.230 URL: DATE: 01/22/2005 01:44:43 AM KungFu needs a little work in Firefox. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jonathan EMAIL: jonathan@unlikelystories.org IP: 69.148.190.150 URL: http://www.unlikelystories.org DATE: 03/07/2005 07:41:02 AM Yeah I've got a GMail account. Tanya sent it to me and I said "WTF is this 1337 sh*t" and she said "It's for file storage, stupid," and I said "Oh, OK, that fits in great with my cool hard-rock lifestyle of poet orgies in Mexico or weeping alone in an unfurnished room or whatever the fuck it is I'm doing nowadays." Also I eat cactus and curse G-d. Now everybody stop blogging about me or my face will turn red and I'll shake my mighty fists and scream about how I don't like to be looked at. And I never check my GMail and use Firefox. Thank you for your time. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Napolean Dynamite and Lead Rain STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: 180 CATEGORY: 180 DATE: 01/23/2005 03:00:58 AM ----- BODY: For a long time I really wanted to see Napoleon Dynamite, It seemed like a cute quirky movie, then It became a inexpensive (“lowbudget” in indie terms) flick, which was advertised heavily; which was a business decision, which determined that it would continue to make returns with continued advertising. This is all great, and we’d prefer to see more quirky original movies, and when your quirky movie is a eighty or hundred million dollar Fight Club or Magnolia (loved them both) who both barely eek a profit… Well, I’ll just say that rich white guys and super companies don’t like to spend one hundrend million dollars to make about fifteen million over a couple of years, I mean they really hate that, that’s why you should resist The Tomb Raiders, Van Helsings and Dodge Balls of the world, that they think are better bets. Anyway, my bias is my bias, Napolean Dynamite seems interesting and fun enough, though it does also seem like a cute quirky movie. As a matter of fact this is the exact kinda movie those LeadRain guys should make.... OMG more to come inside! ----- EXTENDED BODY: Right after they finish their second film Enigma those cockmouth bastards. I can’t believe they went through all that ridiculous drama. I mean I worked on three films and the one I have the best memory of was the one where I was a fucking (great!) extra. Anyway, having been the worlds fucking best extra I wanted to do more, and my natural love of film brought me to the conclusion that I shoot a fucking followup film, from the guys who’d just brought us a Zombie film. And just to make sure I didn’t sell out and lose my literary roots, I fucking helped Jonnie on his poetry indie opus, uhm whatever it was called. And we should remember the best results came not with my eye behind the camera (those films never made it to the small screen), but with some faux maggot gag shot, while made up as a fat zombie (the fat was real, the maggots were fake) And the truth is that you can’t suck enough dick to get back into the good graces of some OTP motherfuckers when you poke fun at them online, Jonnie I don’t have to worry so much about, cause he loves a good poke, can’t take much in the way of criticism, but he can in fact take a joke. Cause that’s all I’m doing, just making fun, cause I feel a little funny, watching a silly ass movie and their second movie seems to be stalled, which may be worth more discussion then referencing a fucking film i haven't seen.. Looks like they finised the first 70 minutes of production and I know it was important that they make something feature length to compete with the big boys. So it could be two or three hours long, I mean a big epic. ENIGMA, that’s a big title, and the by line is “Ally or enemy, lover or killer, criminal or law bringer, the nature of the people around you is unknowable, impenatrable, an enigma at best...” And that sounds like some running with the big boys kinda movie, lost on a Blockbuster Video shelf (wow what a difference BlockBuster Video!), buried between East La Drug Lord (no lie, a real movie) and a Ernest Goes to “…” movie. Those crazy guys. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: NotAngrySparrow EMAIL: imasitting@home.com IP: 68.224.212.212 URL: DATE: 01/23/2005 09:59:15 AM So I'm flummoxed - did you or did you not see Napolean Dynamite? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLWS EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 01/23/2005 04:16:22 PM OMG! You just totally made fun of me! It's bad enough I have to speak like a valley girl, but do I have to write like one too? You're a frickin' IDiot. I still wanna make that low budget ceiling fan movie I've been dreaming about. Oh, and last night, before you came to bed, I could hear the wind knocking the trees around and I had this crazy like half awake/half asleep experience where a tree came crashing through the roof and a limb impaled me and you came rushing up the steps and tried to get the tree off me, but it was really just shredding my insides into pieces everytime you moved the tree. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: user(change to myname)@kungfuonline.org IP: 67.34.237.94 URL: DATE: 01/23/2005 10:44:47 PM Sparrow. I did see Napolean Dynamite. It was a cute quirky movie, but I enjoyed, a lot of heart went into the creation of it, I disdained one thing and i'll share that thought, but not here, i don't want to spoil a good movie for people. ----- -------- AUTHOR: rikke TITLE: recipe template STATUS: Draft ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: recipe CATEGORY: recipe DATE: 01/25/2005 01:14:19 AM ----- BODY: I made an awesome tuna salad for dinner on Tuesday, and then proceeded to watch Extreme Home Makeover and Iron Chef America. Personally as tuna salads go, I will continue to live my life enjoying my mothers version of this all-american dish. Her dish is probably a lot like your mom’s dish, it includes; tuna, eggs, mayonnaise, and also but not necessarily; onion, relish, mustard and other ingredients. I still like that style of tuna salad, but it’s not particularly sophisticated in taste and it tends to age badly, developing puddles of mayo and tuna juice. So I made my own recipe, took a picture of my results and put it on my freaking website. How about that for some art and creativity motherfuckers? ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Desperately Seeking Jonnie. STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 02/09/2005 05:29:42 PM ----- BODY: Kinda funny, everyone knows I’m not really talking to Jonnie, but if they can’t find him they ask me. Michael Rothenberg of Big Bridge called and seemed genuinely worried, no one can find Jonnie and he is concerned that something is wrong. A couple of details do make it look a bit peculiar. Jonnie was at the end of a project. If he’s gonna burn out and disappear it’s usually not when everything is done. He also tends to stick to himself, doesn’t do much in the way of socializing when he’s working. As a matter of fact I can’t really say as much about Jonnie as I’d like to because ********************************************* . I did realize though that I missed a small email from him over the holidays. It struck me peculiar cause I knew we weren’t talking (couldn’t quite remember why) and he had sent me something relating to a chapbook, and I replied back immediately but did not look at his reply to my reply. That’ll be the guilty last email if Jonnie is gone won’t it…. Enough projecting needless drama into an already odd situation, Jonnie is missing, I don’t expect my feelers to make contact with anything till later this evening. If anyone knows anything let me know. Jonnie has been missing since 02.03.05 (thursday last week eh) Pablo OMG Bitches! Read the update inside.... ----- EXTENDED BODY: Ok, so I talked to Michael Rothenberg (of Big Bridge Dot Org) we have found Jonnie, he is safe, and the doctors are taking good care of him now. it reminds me of the last time I saw Jonnie in the hospital, when I helped him check in and waited a few hours for him to be accepted, and processed. On the outside you can be an editor, you can be a athlete, or a freaking porn star, but when you go inside, you are a two, five, or ten milligram dose of something so powerful that people who talk to you will feel it. The few hours I spent as a visitor on The Inside were intriguing. It’s a lot like a covert government installation. If you go outside and observe it, it’s always nondescript, a series of joined buildings that seem very office parkish. A few minimum security areas that look a whole lot like secured smoking for the nonexistent inmates. Inside, it’s very corporate furnished and a heavy duty doors. People do walk around in white coats, they all seem cheery, minus the casually dressed doctors, who look serious and overworked. If you get the right access, you often times go down some stairs. You sign a disclaimer, they do ask you to not bring in weapons, not to agitate the patients, keep things simple. It is not what you expect with a seasoned old black orderly telling you the rules, telling you to stay away from “Shelley” or “Old Bill”. I remember being a bit envious. While we were checking Jonnie in I was not envious, his mother is not great company, and the magazines weren’t worth stealing, or reading. But the thought of going in, being with straight up crazy fucking people, being able to work with some great drugs and some awesome doctors. Seemed pretty cool to me. But it’s hard to describe the truth, go through two sets of seriously heavy doors, check your knife (leave your gun in the car) and then you are flush with crazy folk. I mean drugged up nutty motherfuckers, all of whom move “bullet time” slow. No fast movements going on here, and don’t raise your voice, or your dose will be upped. As a matter of fact if you feel funny, you can have your dose upped. And sometimes you can hear screams coming from some random corridor. Jonnie moved slow. I mean I understand the institutional elements. Dose a motherfucker down till they are cool, loosen up the reigns, see if the rebellious subconscious wants to act sassy and carpet bomb it with a range of drugs, all determined with either bullshit group sessions or quick one on ones. Kinda like having a court appointed fucking doctor. I can see why, after seeking help, taking your medication and wanting to feel better you might seek out your own numbness for the numbness. I can see why being on The Inside is no different then being a career criminal and always going back into the joint. Our prayers are with Jonnie. Get high motherfucker, then come back out, and keep on shining you crazy diamond. What a lucky asshole ;) Pablo. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Poem #4 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Poetry CATEGORY: Poetry DATE: 02/11/2005 03:03:53 AM ----- BODY: Zero Five ----- EXTENDED BODY: There is rust on my blade maybe blood? I still taste you in my steel thoughts remember your fingers wet from cunt fool from liquor full of ego -duel- short. dead by sunrise meat and fools left on a winding hill in my wake. I’m back bitches. None of you are ready for this. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Andy Garcia was so not in The Godfather Part II STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 02/12/2005 02:36:50 AM ----- BODY: Dear New York Times Editors I guess we shouldn’t get into a big discussion about how most people think that the Godfather Part III was dick (you have your opinion, I have mine) but for God sakes if you’re gonna write an article about someone who only had an opportunity to participate in the third movie, don’t give them credit for being in I or II. ----- EXTENDED BODY: So I gotta ask HTF (How The Fuck) did Mirta Ojito and his editorial staff miss this little point? I couldn’t stomach the rest of the article, which had something to do with how Garcia has been doing some film about Cuba for sixteen years, which might explain his shatty movie choices since then including “Things to do in Denver when your dead” But would you guys mind fixing that glaring fucking mistake about his participation in TGFPII Wait I’m sorry. Please fix those two mistakes. I did go on to read the article, and he does it again, with his statement “With two exceptions, he said - Francis Ford Coppola's "The Godfather: Part II," for which Mr. Garcia received a supporting actor Oscar nomination” Ok, fine you didn’t see the Godfather Part III, but someone had to see The Godfather Part II right? I mean how many people missed a dropped roman numeral I? It screamed at me, disturbed my psyche. It was also a shitty article by the way, we all have our days though, I don't begrudge y'all. Original link is here ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Saturday morning STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Excerpt CATEGORY: Excerpt DATE: 02/12/2005 03:07:58 PM ----- BODY: Forty treadmilling minutes split between commercials, BET, and CMT. Kinda odd I know but they had videos playing, and videos are so fab to work out to. And while I may be losing some weight, the treadmill may be losing some life. 3/4 cups of granola, 1/3 cup of milk, one ounce of raw cashews, chase the cats down in the front yard, drink a shot of Shiraz, clean the dining room (wedding shit wtf?), clean the living room (Christmas shit wtf?). Reorganize boxes, displace shit to reorganize, organize, make a mess to organize, drink more wine….Read the Wall Street Journal, write, chat online. Ah... Saturday. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: If you just found the joy of bittorrent you can stop now eh STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 02/12/2005 04:11:37 PM ----- BODY: On the inside is a great example of how the MPAA has a better strategy then the RIAA for taking care of illegal downloads. Good psychological warfare IMHO. ----- EXTENDED BODY: here are websites that provide legal downloads. This is not one of them. This website has been permanently shut down by court order because it facilitates the illegal downloading of copyrighted motion pictures. The illegal downloading of motion pictures robs thousands of honest, hard-working people of their livelihood, and stifles creativity. Illegally downloading movies from sites such as these without proper authorization violates the law, is theft, and is not anonymous. Stealing movies leaves a trail. The only way not to get caught is to stop. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: don EMAIL: akamushi@gmail.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 02/14/2005 02:08:44 PM uh, sucka, this dont make no sense to me. great example? what links? what are you babbling about? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: pablo@kungfuonline.org IP: 67.34.241.212 URL: DATE: 02/17/2005 02:46:41 AM Uhm…. The image and text is MPAA graffiti from www.lokito**entdotcom, they were shut down recently, and I felt no need to actually send all my friends to a recently shut down bitto**entsite. I have been a bit to**ent fan for a while, but it took some time before I dove in hardcore, and I tend to stay away from top 40 and bad movies, so I am not really afraid to get busted by some Copyright Hawks, likewise though, no need to direct all my hacker friends to some spot that the main owns. Other big point, if you were as confused by Don by this posting, the simple truth is that it’s not downloading the bit to**ents that’ll get you busted, it’s picking up your hits from the mainstream swapmeets, and looking for money making shit, like top 40 songs, bad summer blockbusters, and overpriced software. Pablo ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Drove my chevy to the levee STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 02/24/2005 03:30:31 PM ----- BODY: I hear Hunter S Thomson offed himself.... ----- EXTENDED BODY: My first Hunter S Thompson book was Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas. Gerard had just died, and to get away, I took a trip with a family that Gerard and I were close too. The Smiths were part of a americanized (and international) Yoga movement known as Siddha Yoga, which has a decent foothold here in the states, large presence in New York and California, and some satellite offices in other states where a lot of members live. And I don’t want to be a part of some Google search and be seen saying flippant things about Siddha itself, because as an organization that I was a fringe member of for two years, it seemed pretty nice, just Americanized a bit, and in that I mean, that enlightenment (courses building towards it) had an optional fiscal cost. Organizations must survive, and survival will come from the largesse of its members. Besides, I don’t know a better group of harmonious people, and they have incredibly reasonable rates for the common pilgrim seeking spiritual and physical refugee. And now….Back to the story Because Laurie and myself were both very close to Gerard, she invited me with her family to travel to New York to the Siddha Ashram (an annual family retreat), a huge facility nestled in the woods. And when I say huge, I mean this facility had auditoriums, various levels of housing, support buildings, retreat sites, it is amazingly huge. And for a philo-ligous place, it is one of those places where you register like you’re in a resort, choosing lodging and how you want to stay. The lowest tier of living participation involves working on the site while you stay; the next stage up is to do a dorm scenario. In all the living arrangement tiers which went from part time working, to getting your own Chalet, basic food is free as is basic services for meditation. Very interesting, I should do it again sometime, it was a very positive experience. I took a few books with me, Fear And Loathing in Las Vegas was one of them, I read it at night, with a book light, the same way I’d read at home as a child, except being an only child, I didn’t bunk with four people, including the hunky, blonde (all over) guy who was not shy about his nudity or his dangle, oh to be thin and good looking. So it was a bit peculiar, and my initial comfort, was to escape into myself those first few days. I mean, this is a story about my trip to the Catskill Mountains to stay at a Yoga Ashram while I mourned the loss of my friend and read one very phucked up book. And for that week I skeptically spent my daylight among the happiest and most positive people I’ve ever met, this is not exaggeration, and I allowed myself to participate in their practices and explanation of their philo-ligion, and when time was my own, more often at night then during the day, I would read Fear and Loathing. And I never laughed so much in my life, that strange book about drugs and writing, came to be such a comfort, it was also funnier then shit. I basked in upbeat people during the day, stared at the most brilliant clouds, and felt a greater disconnect with the Chrisitan (manmade) God I’d grown use to not understanding, but at night I laughed Like all artists (Save Michael Jackson and Fatty Catty Liz Taylor) HST will be most remembered for Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas (thankfully not his ESPN series, or say The Curse of Lono), And Vegas is a interesting book, not just cause it’s about drugs and a sharp interpretation of how your psyche changes on drugs (if you’ve seen the movie on TBS and were turned off read the book fool) Vegas ends up being a book about being way outside the outskirts of behavior acceptable to society, it also doesn’t let up, it stays raw and ridiculously intense. It is sometimes hard to imagine that he wrote anything after that, but he did, a strange bibliography which forked on politics and counter culture. I mean this is the guy who honestly meant it when he said "I hate to advocate drugs, alcohol, violence or insanity to anyone, but they've always worked for me." And I can’t say that it was Hunter S Thomson who saved me from suicide or a depressing life, turning me around and making me a better citizen, (but that book, that page turning solace where I didn’t feel guilty to enjoy something was a huge help) it probably was that sojourn to one of the most peaceful places I’d ever had the opportunity to travel to. Hunter did turn me on for a long time, to some great reading, and a awesome sense of individualism. If you’ve never read his books, his body of work is worth the read. Wikipedia is a great place to begin referencing his work and life. click here. And of course when I was told about his death (I’ve been offline for over a week) my comment was not glib or from sadness. What a full life Hunter S Thomson led, and if anyone had the right to choose to end their life, surely it was that man and I said “Good for Hunter”. Where was he in the end? I don’t know, so hard to be a writer, persona and have to constantly live up to what you have created, being larger then life is a bitch. But if you vaguely know Hunter S Thomson, through his work and writing, you know if he wanted to check out, it was his call. So we should celebrate his passing, whether he chose it for good reasons or not. Some people whined cause JLW cracked about HST blowing his brains out like hemingway, which was a bit of a generalization. They both blew there brains out and were writers, similarities stop there though I think, but does anyone genuinely think HST would be bothered by some other writer saying some shit like that? Probably not yo. . If you are interested in Siddha Yoga, you can check learn more from there website. click here. A very interesting culture to observe and participate in, and while I can not say that I was a true follower for the two years that I skirted and observed this group of people, I can honestly say I learned about positive healing through associating with positive people. So strange to be so isolated and in pain, and surrounded by such spiritually centered people, not that fake California friendly vibe, just people channeling good energy, it helped me, as opposed to say converting me, and did not require me to believe, did not make me uncomfortable. . And, if you ever think about killing yourself, first consider an intervention of family and friends. And if you are considering suicide, you probably aren’t too in tune with the thought of calling everyone up and asking for help, likewise you might not be in the mood for people to suggest you just check into a local mental health institute, but they do have some good drugs and will flush your system good. But, if you’re online, suicidal and (or just) bored here is one link with some good advice click here. And here is a google search query to get you started as well. click here. And this is kinda funny, but did you know that there is a group called The American Association of Sucidology. Interesting huh. This is one of their site pics, captures the feeling of being suicidal to a T, minus the fact it's a group of kids, and they all look cute and cool. dumb bastards. It's really has a "Night of the Liviing Cute Kids" kinda vibe, probably terrifies parents though. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.241.186 URL: DATE: 02/24/2005 04:19:02 PM http://www.livejournal.com/users/isisinator/38133.html ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: pablo@fakeaddress.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 02/25/2005 02:43:01 PM Kurt Loder kept it real, criticism and respect in one piece, fab. “The melancholy fact is that Hunter pretty much peaked in the early '70s.” link is here: http://www.mtv.com/news/articles/1497300/20050222/index.jhtml?headlines=true And as far as what JLWS said, she had another agenda, one which references her opinion of suicide being bad (And HSTs death being a bit dull, whatever that meant) which she went on further to do with her little LJ buddies, and finally, she was still wrong (we get the Hemingway reference) just the deaths weren’t the same. The truth is that for many (most of my friends who also happen to loathe JLWS BTW) Hunter was a worshipped icon, a man admired of his work (do you follow folks). But JLWS knew this as well, she has a different audience though, and a different network of friends, so what she said was quite rude for many of us, who took time to be sad at the results of Hunter taking his own life. I celebrate the dead though, I mourn only the living dead. So I didn’t really care what she said, I don’t begrudge her, her opinion, nor do I think much of it, a simple observation I thought. It’s interesting also, so many people think that suicide is either a. horrible, b. Not the right of someone to choose, when they want to end their own life. And usually they disregard the fact that if it’s so freaking god awful that you take a gun and put it to your head, if you smoke yourself folks, you gotta be in some godawful pain, the whole selfish thing is true, but kinda trite compared to laying a blank canvas down and painting your passing with it. You wanna kill yourself go on, you will be missed, your pain will be ended, but your wake is wide and disruptive, maybe like that negative energy that resided in yourself exploding, becoming shrapnel, and being finally released, on those people you held dear, and/or stopped caring for. I could care less of what her opinion of his death was (his death is irrelevant actually), if you love Hunter S Thomson keep on loving him, keep on respecting him. The finger that pulls a trigger, the hand that fashions a noose, it is desperation, never the idol you grew to love, I mean that’s obvious right? ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: El Pus: Video, and link. STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 02/26/2005 03:21:32 AM ----- BODY: Great band out of Atlanta. click here for the site. click here for the video eh. click to stream the whole album All this shit for free. Not even a bootleg or nothing. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: One nigger said... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 02/26/2005 04:17:21 AM ----- BODY: My contribution to Black History Month you bitches. Thanks for reading in advance. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Just outta the blue folks. I aint hating or nothing… I love hearing niggas break on through to the other side. I resent Michael Bolton, and any cracka who plays bad service on classic negra shit. It aint right though eh, might be some kinda reverse racism huh? Get the fuck out outta here. Gimme a white slave then we can talk. Whiny contemporary shit, my peers, white, who wonder why niggas like me (not ever having been a slave) can still have an issue with shit. If you don’t get it, you don’t get it, nice sometimes to just meet a nice honest racist as opposed to well bred, liberal, “Everyone is equal” bullshit white person. Some of you just don’t get it. I could explain it to you, but the life is different. Don’t mean there aint white niggas out there, there are, don’t mean you aint genuine, just means shits a bit more complicated then how you well intentioned motherfuckers have simplified shit, and sit around wondering why niggas just suddenly nut up. We’re new to this shit. I can say Nigga. I could say Nigger (but I don’t). I call white and blacks alike by a derogatory term, it’s an endearment, rarely an offense, though sometimes I wonder if you niggas (er crackas) are out of your mind. This band El Pus (pronounced El Posse) is pretty chill, they are playing at The Earl tomorrow night, with a few other bands. JLW said tonight upon hearing them “I didn’t think The Earl played bands like that" (WTF Cracka Wife?). Here is the news flash, just cause you are ok with shit, don’t see color, could care less about something and never had a slave, doesn’t make you special, or truly color blind. That’s some silly shit. If one more white person tells me black folks have more issues with color than whites, they should date a Negro and take them home, even my silly creamy white wife should reconsider that shit. It’s easy for me to travel in white circles, turn it around, cause I don’t see the reverse often, and it’s why some blacks shake there head and mumble a cautionary “mmmmmhmmmm” when whitey says everything is ok. I’m not mad or nothing, it just came to me, hearing this little ATL group bang through their vibe, making me think of Fugazi meets Body Count, and I love them, love the bridge, want it more often. I thought about what to write about on Black History Month, or if I wanted to write anything at all. I hate that I get a month to say something about niggas, it’s been informative, but it’s all a lie. We can talk about niggas from the past, post slave, civil rights, radicals, peanut technology shaping smart negros. It gets kinda weird after that. My mother told me that my family comes from fucking Alabama, that’s where our blood originates. Alabama? I hate fucking Alabama (no offense Alabama, you’re just a creepy industrial complex with too many trailers for my taste) it gives me the creeps. What my mom means is that after her mothers blood, her knowledge of our lineage goes back to Alabama, that’s when we likely picked cotton or at least sharecropped deep into the early 1900’s. Hell, my step-dad (a man in his years) picked cotton, walked to school barefoot, a belt wrapped around his books. You don’t take a group of people, enslave them, finally free them (January 1, 1863), then finally make them equals (sometime in the sixties, kinda), then thirty or forty years later bitch about how everything is hunky dory. Yes we fuck your women, yes your kids worship our angry music about sex and violence, yes we’re good basketball players, but if I could be black or invisible, sometimes I’d choose invisible. I genuinely have no self identity, my culture is divided into niche groups that all think the other niche groups are sell outs and traitors. I think the best solution is a bunch of tan people with curly hair. That’s it, that’ll happen in years. We are in some state of cultural equilibrium, one which is not racial equality, just a vibe which now says “Nothing is relevant but how much money you got.” Racism isn’t dead. I encounter it daily, I think of race daily. I am stopped regularly, if I keep a clean ride with rims, but I am invisible in a minivan. That’s just car bias right? But I get the gun pointed at me (or hand on the pistol) either way, might be a rabid and angry negra. It’s not enough that you decide that color is irrelevant, cause what that really means is that if I fit into your group it’s ok. My culture, my people, my poor black family and race, we haven’t had enough time to heal, you dumb fuckers. We were raised by parents who dealt with a bunch of bullshit, and they passed their experience on to us. We grew up more likely poor (not Cosby) and we saw life from a different side of things. And now we hear how Mexicans are the good niggers, I guess cause they do good cheap slave labor. Get the fuck out of here. Why are people my age, who never wore bonds, who make good money, who walk across the races, who want nothing but peace, why do we still nut up? Why do we still think Nigga, Nigger, Cracka, and color? Cause we still feel it, the time has not passed that you should assume that the Negros feel ok, cause we aren’t slaves, cause you aren’t slave owners. Wounds take time to heal. You wanna go observe Black History month? Don’t reflect on the past, embrace the supposed history, one lousy month, when things are mentioned. Rethink your racially harmonic vision of how you don’t have any issues with race, and try to understand, or at least see that someone might have issues with how things are, that things might still be a bit queer, even if the playing field is level. And we aren’t even gonna talk about the poor ignorant fools, generations from The Great Society and babyboomer liberal guilt, children raised by children, raised by children, in segregated ghettos who think of themselves as nothing but slaves, and don’t have white friends, don’t know how you don’t have any issues, and are trapped in a place that neither I nor you (whitey) can conceive of. Black History Month is a fucking Joke, a terrible shameful joke, it says something is still wrong, not that we’re doing things right. Bullshit. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: mouthsmart EMAIL: mouthsmart@gmail.com IP: 192.168.0.55 URL: http://LU DATE: 02/28/2005 01:24:22 AM ooh, yet another angry young black man. i wish i had a dime for every black man who whines about being disenfranchised and poor. You're a negra complaining about what white people think about blacks. Doesn't that seem a little strange to you? Without your BLACK-NIGGER History your pathetic people wouldn't have a thread of culture to cling to besides the oft corrupt Negro Church. It's time to wake up, what white people think is irrelevant. there will never be a time when everyone is gonna have tan skin and curly hair. That's a pipe dream for hippies and misceganists. Until you negras understand what it really means to have a functional and flourishing culture, you'll never have anything of value, even what you think the white man owes you. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.240.165 URL: DATE: 02/28/2005 01:33:47 AM mouthsmart, you're a misceganist! So take that! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: p10pablo@email.com IP: 67.34.240.165 URL: http://kungfuonline.org DATE: 02/28/2005 02:17:25 AM OMG! Got a comment on this one huh. Let’s get our Hoecake -http://www.kungfuonline.org/love_letter.html- Dictionary and think about this folks. First, I have never had someone I know write something so cowardly (till today), and try so lamely to cover up their writing style. I appreciate the entertaining effort though. >ooh, yet another angry young black man. i wish i >had a dime for every black man who >whines about being disenfranchised and poor. I’ll mail you my dime bitch, just give me your address. >You're a negra complaining about what white >people think about blacks. Doesn't that >seem a little strange to you? I don’t really know if that’s what I was trying to do. It actually was (and is) not the point of the piece. >Without your BLACK-NIGGER History your pathetic >people wouldn't have a thread of culture to cling >to besides the oft corrupt Negro Church. I’ll give you that, everything else is lost (is it?), to conspiracies and (often times suspect) historical observations. >It's time to wake up, what white people think is >irrelevant. there will never be a time when >everyone is gonna have tan skin and curly hair. >That's a pipe dream for hippies and >misceganists. 1. I guess “misceganist” = Misogynists/ That’s my guess, Merriam didn’t have a better match, and sense it would be hippies who are hopeful for a coke and a smile and color free world peace... I must be the misogynist (implying I want more black men to fuck more white women, more black women to fuck more white men?), who wants to fuck for the tan team? >Until you negras understand what it really means >to have a functional and flourishing culture, >you'll never have anything of value, even what >you think the white man owes you. Amen to that brother, (sister), or err whoever. I mean I’d like to know what it means to have that functional and flourishing culture. I don’t sense much of value. But that's not true, tons of great shit going on, and have historically happened. Us negras did some pretty cool shit with peanuts folks, (and soy!), something is definitely missing though, yep. And for the life of me, I don’t think the white man owes me anything? I don’t remember trying to say they did, I just thought I was taking about my observations, a spontaneous riff on what I think of Black History Month. Thanks for your comments Smartmouth. I know who you are. Pablo ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: mouthsmart EMAIL: mouthsmart@gmail.com IP: 192.168.0.55 URL: DATE: 02/28/2005 08:17:02 AM there are other replies i can make to your reply but i'll just say this. you and every other angry black man that wants to make "tan" people has issues with self-hate and loathing. since you care so much about what white people think, i'll give you a hint. you and your ilk are laughed at and sold snake oil to. you're a male member of the conquered race brought here to build up shit for free, it's time to accept that and maybe start thinking about not using the word "nigger" anymore. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: pablo@fakeaddress.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 02/28/2005 03:28:49 PM “there are other replies i can make to your reply but i'll just say this. you and every other angry black man that wants to make "tan" people has issues with self-hate and loathing.” Uhm ok, I guess we’re proposing the theory that interracial marriage, dating, and the desire to see a (I know it’s fantasy, we will always find differences and things to pick to be different about ourselves) single race is a horrible notion. Though I guess this is where I have to further the notion, that the “Everyone being nice and tan, with curly hair” commentary is a notion, nice concept, a warm thought, that “wouldn’t it be nice if it wasn’t a worry” kinda thing. In truth the individualism, the separate cultures, the difference that our society’s have within is awesome. I honestly wouldn’t want to take away those differences mouthsmart. Likewise what us Negros have done (not just with peanuts and soy) but with music, and sports, religiotainment and life itself is awesome. Again, I guess it’s kinda easy to read a piece from me, decide it was a rant for a racial singularity, and self serve(ingly?) pushes my goal of fucking white women, and decide that’s all I meant huh? I still like to think it’s a more complex piece, but it does have hot buttons, and obviously it set the stage for other people to fiercely express themselves as well. “since you care so much about what white people think, i'll give you a hint. you and your ilk are laughed at and sold snake oil to.” Mmmm….I think I may have in some point of my life had acceptance issues. I don’t think I ever had acceptance issues about white folks accepting me. I have never been insecure about my place with white folk, I think I’ve had to explain myself and my position to my white friends on occasion, straightening out assumptions and things which I don’t like, but I think that’s normal. Thanks for your hint (wtf!) about being laughed at (?) and sold snake oil, (Cold Pressed Olive Oil? Canola? These clues are a little hard to decipher), this sounds like level one of Zelda, or something. “you're a male member of the conquered race brought here to build up shit for free, it's time to accept that and maybe start thinking about not using the word "nigger" anymore.” Male member of former slave race, should accept it, don’t use “nigger” anymore. I’ll keep that in mind, again a bit cryptic, but I’m gonna use these words to uhm, well. I’m gonna think real hard on it. And besides mouthsmart, you know I don’t use the bad word (da one with er at the end of it) that much anyway. Thanks for all your kind words and the best to you Pablo. And here is a simple word of advice. This is my site, and they are my words, and I dare declare (oh my) that you have not really read what I said, just reacted to them. And that is not to say, that I want you to go back and read them again and comment on them. I just don’t want to have to keep being told how I’m a dumb Negra, or, that I’m seeking white acceptance (really not), that is your perception, deeply rooted in the fact that I have a white wife, and white friends, which of course means that I must have tons of self hate issues going on, and I really don’t. And besides that, your “I’m SmartyMouth and you’re a dumb negra writing vibe” is wearing on me. I think I’ve mentioned before that superior people are boring, especially when they look down on others. so this is finished IMHO, and I wouldn't push it either. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: mouthsmart EMAIL: mouthsmart@gmail.com IP: 63.173.114.141 URL: DATE: 03/01/2005 10:20:26 PM Whether you like to think it or not you DO seek acceptance from whites. Why else would you write a black history month piece about how white people don't understand why some blacks are still a lil sore from the slavery experience? I know you think I didn't read the piece but essentially (to me) that's what it boils down to. Whatever your opinion about black history month is white people should have little to do with how you feel about black history month. One of you negras chose February, and YOUR people have embraced this whole "sequester our celebration to one month" ideology. It's not whites you should be complaining about it's the shiftless, contented blacks you should have an issue with. There's nothing white people can do or say that should bother you at all about your people or your holidays because it has absolutely nothing to do with them. That's my point... ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Adam Duritz and The Oscars STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 02/28/2005 01:08:27 AM ----- BODY: I don't have a lead in. I'm late on some work I have to do on two different projects, this just came to me ----- EXTENDED BODY: Kinda funny watching Adam Duritz do “Accidently In Love” on the Oscars. It’s a good song, didn’t want to hear it cause it was from a freaking cartoon, which I liked just fine btw. I’ve been listening to Counting Crows for years, they started with “Round Here” (or if you’re the radio type “Mr Jones”) from their fabulous first album “August And Everyhing After”. You can view their discography here. click here. And the last time we saw Adam Duritz live, he was fat, indifferent, played like he was drunk (maybe had just wokeup), and sick of doing what he did. It was simultaneously hard to watch, and fascinating to be allowed so deeply into one persons life, a guy who really lives for the music, (and satisfied so many of us “Tortured Yet Real About Life” grown ups, who tend to like this band and its front man) and is tortured by his fame and wealth, thanks Adam. I don’t know what to make of “Accidentally In Love” but I heard it without bias (finally!), and it was nice, cause it was the line between whether or not I was going to abandon a band I loved, cause it’s front man is actually human, and does the same thing I’d do if I felt something (and, er, uhm, were a soulful pained rich guy), express it in the work, in my every action. And I think I decided to stick it out. Name dropping ahead folks. Sorry in advance. Anyway, I love Adam Duritz, he’s an awesome guy, and still accessible to his fans. I’ve hung out and had beers with the guys from Tool, talked to Ice-T, felt Henry Rollins honest pain and angst (you kinda blow these days Henry, but if you’re happy man ok, and thanks for warning us with “Liar” at least), but I couldn’t email them and start a conversation with them. Adam Duritz will talk to you. He is tied into the spirit of what he does, and what it does for people, and all of that has gotten to him. So when your band does that super song, the one everyone knows, radio friendly, not their normal song, the kinda song where people ask you if you (me? You phucker I know the Crows man!) are familiar with their work. Blah. That’s a money song folks, a major and critical effort, tied to the release of a Best of Album (please not a Best Of y’all), but intentionally left off the BOA, almost like not wanting to offend the true loving (wtf?) fans, and for maximum returns on the Shrek Soundtrack. Odd. And that’s the Internet, simultaneously tearing down (and worshiping) one of your favorite performers, advancing conspiracy theories, and bitching about Henry Rollins, accidentally associating yourself with those Tools from Tool; it was kinda fun hanging out with them though, they were totally OMG! cool. And I am amazed at how good the Oscars were. Best Oscars Show I’ve ever seen, and that’s not saying much since the Oscars usually blow. But this time around it was a great show. Interesting night, weekend, and week all around. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.240.165 URL: DATE: 02/28/2005 01:26:28 AM It struck me funny that somehow Adam managed to maintain to same level of total apathy during his Oscar's performance and he had at the last concert. Funny, kind of. I respect him for that. At least he's consistent. And, um, I hung out with Tori Amos once. We were like best friends for 15 minutes. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Poem #5 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Poetry CATEGORY: Poetry DATE: 03/08/2005 01:49:23 AM ----- BODY: ----- EXTENDED BODY: She keeps saying that she wants to see me write again Dreams of the day... Why? When I speak. When poems rise from my heart. They will not be for her, or anyone else but me. I am not, nor have I been anything but empty Sieve A ruined, and pockmarked image. fattened and ready for the kill. Silly silent fool. And, now I write again? All for nothing to you eh. And you. When you came from the desert When we traveled in conspiracy, did the spirits not warn you of my vengeance? Let sleeping bears dream you fool Plot your treachery, but leave me be Or I will show you blood like song in the wind your final vision Sooner or later The two of you will realize I never stopped writing… ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: We all need help sometimes STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 03/08/2005 04:26:49 PM ----- BODY: Who has stories to share about their addiction to OTC drugs? I come clean inside. ----- EXTENDED BODY: So…., I totally thought I was on this bad karma wave. You know, a series of unfortunate events that can make a good guy go bad. It has sucked mightily. A few days before V-day I had this vicious (I thought it was tough) cold. I took two days off, then when I returned to work I had a shitty car accident (I will tell that story soon), then a week later, healed up from the accident, a new cold kicked my ass. I hung out with “3” on Saturday, she loaded me up on her famous tea elixir and taunted me with her world famous ************** and we ran the few errands I felt up to running. Sunday was a Luke day. We got some cheap game boy games, and watched EHM and ICA. Shitty period of time, cause I just sat around stopped-up (congested). Think I might be addicted to painkillers now, and my doctor told me to start using Afrin-WTF? OMG… I think I need an intervention. Kids I’m joking about my drug problem, but if you, or someone you know (wink) needs an intervention help is a click away! And if you don't need an intervention, but do enjoy cautionary tales via harsh documentary style, Roman TV has a new show from A&E called INTERVENTION. click here eh Anyway….My drinking is down, which is awesome. I switched to wine, and after a brief escalation of drinking the shit out of some Shiraz, I am now down to a more sociable 2.5 (or less) glasses a day. Since the accident though, my drug use has been up, only pharmaceutically prescribed shit people I’m white collar remember. I mean hey, I wouldn’t even know what illegal drugs look like. I didn’t have any desire to do the bevy of pain killers, muscle relaxers, and every variation of speed derivatives (pseudo-ephedrine is the base for Meth Amphetamines) that have been prescribed to me. I like my numb a different way. I realized a few days into the accident that I was just moving very slowly, then the cold came on top of all of it. The only reward in this time has been that I continue to work out daily, and my food consumption has been smart, and tasty, still a challenge kicking away from the late night eating though. And I am pretty happy that those efforts seem to stay focused despite the fact I feel like hammered shit, and feel no escape from this fog. And I wish the fog was some escape for me, but it’s not quite, it’s a disconnect that disturbs my natural disconnect. Rank: Patient Zero Location: Atlanta, Ga # of people infected by Patient Zero to date: 10 Type: Viral, common Cold? Duration: 5 days to 5 weeks ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.219.159.199 URL: DATE: 03/09/2005 01:55:37 PM Rank: Patient One Location: Atlanta, Ga # of people infected by Patient One to date: 2 (my roomate at work called out sick today) Type: Viral, common Cold? Duration: 3 days and counting But I will continue to go to work. Just call me Typhoid Jenny. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: What's the frequency Kenneth STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/09/2005 10:54:07 PM ----- BODY: If you never watched the evening news it might mean you never spent much time with your grand parents at dinner. My parents are a Wheel of Fortune and “what else is on” kinda crowd. My grandfathers, (?) I never knew either of them having only met both of them once. But my mother’s mother, watched Dan Rather, my fathers mother also watched Dan Rather, and I watched him with them. I can’t say I always agreed with Rather, but he was a joy to watch. I knew he was on the outs, an exit hastened by fake (?) documents in regards to the presidents air force service time. So I sat down with my dinner (a turkey wrap, and faux wonton soup), and hedged my bet with something ready to go on the home improvement channel, and I got pissed off every time a commercial came on. I know, and continue to realize that part of the experience of talking about shit online is that I give you links, you go, and blah blah blah. But the truth is, you either experienced Dan Rather, or you didn’t. He was a powerful TV BLOGGER Star, came on every night, and without fail, he had something interesting to talk about. Reading something online won’t give you the Rather experience, you knew him or you did not. I have to say though,whether it was the Challenger explosion, or his live attack (regarding the Iran Contra ordeal) on Bush 41, he was awesome, kinda like a classy version (I only make this analogy for you losers who never saw Rather) of Geraldo Riveria, liked to be in the field, never quite comfortable with the anchor desk. OK. One link folks, click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: m glenn EMAIL: deadroses5@hotmail.com IP: 150.135.84.188 URL: DATE: 03/10/2005 05:17:13 PM i grew up with dan on the tv right before or after dinner. i remember thinking one day that if the apocalypse was here, or the much feared nuclear armegeddon that was so much a part of my childhood nightmares should come about finally, i would want no one but dan rather to break the news to me that the world was going to end. he somehow made me feel a part of the world and if you paid close attention you could see the emotion in his eyes when he reported the truly horrible things that had happened that day. depsite whatever trouble he may have had recently he will remain a 'freind' and a person who holds my respect and admiration. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: don EMAIL: spam@lowermybills.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 03/10/2005 07:36:34 PM Dan was a good man. However, news on TV, in general sucks ass. Havent wanted to watch that shit in a decade. There needs to be a shakedown. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLWS EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 03/12/2005 11:38:47 PM F you Don. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLWS EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 03/12/2005 11:40:20 PM Oh yeah, and I think that graphic artists are a bunch of pansies. :) ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Poem #6 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Poetry CATEGORY: Poetry DATE: 03/10/2005 12:01:28 AM ----- BODY: Almost (Too Strong) ----- EXTENDED BODY: Almost Tears want to come not sure why for what reason I might. And lament is remembered through commercials and stock footage Too strong will soon break the surface Too strong, to hide much longer The worst memories are not forgotten Left behind. They are waiting and grow impatient for acknowledgement Specters in my peripheral Ghosts behind me they all gather with the coming spring Click here for the audio file (it's actually small) folks. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Poem #7 STATUS: Draft ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Poetry CATEGORY: Poetry DATE: 03/10/2005 01:16:46 AM ----- BODY: The Gunner ----- EXTENDED BODY: You practiced your circus act no hoodwinks to your lighting fast hand work Only years of practice ruger .22, like 45 single action in grip and aim and soon, plates, coins and birds were no match Then in convertible dust plumes announcing arrival fast talking, but smooth the stranger. Asked you to wear a handkerchief and cover his crew Two palms, single action, twelve rounds against naïve tin badges unstoppable you sure were. Dreaming of a farm, wild horses forgetting the blood blotting it out, black and white, a better memory then the truth, breath escaping, soul drifting like smoke many, drawn to god, with your embrace Gunslinger no Murderer yes loved by children all the more legend ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Yes, you dumb fat bastard, there is a God. STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 03/11/2005 06:03:14 PM ----- BODY: I am much more of a wine guy these days (Oui Oui!), but I am happy to hear of such things. Heineken introduces Heineken Light Yay! And if for some freaking reason you need to read more (you really don't ned to read anymore) the link requires registration (which I have for some reason wtf?) or you can click the extended text inside. Nice of me huh? ----- EXTENDED BODY: Associated Press AMSTERDAM, Netherlands - Heineken NV said Friday it will introduce a low-calorie, low-carbohydrate beer branded with the Heineken name in the United States, hoping to gain more of a growing segment within a stable market. The new beer, "Heineken Premium Light," will compete with domestic brands like Anheuser-Busch Cos.'s Michelob Ultra and SABMiller PLC's Miller Lite, as well as foreign brands like InBev SA's Beck's Light - and Heineken's own Amstel Light, the best-selling foreign light beer. According to Heineken, light beers made up 47 percent of the U.S. beer market in 2004, up from 44 percent in 2000. Heineken executives said the new beer would help the company "capture an ever-growing share of the premium import segment of the U.S. beer market." There is a "growing need among the U.S. consumers for higher-quality light beer brands that have a premium cachet," said board member Marc Bolland. Sales of Heineken and Amstel Light rose by 5 percent and 2 percent respectively in 2004, after several lackluster years, "thanks to the introduction of new packaging and successful sponsorships," the company said. Heineken recently hired American actors Brad Pitt and John Travolta for a new ad campaign. Shares in Heineken fell 0.6 percent to 35.75 euros ($45.33) in midday trading on the Euronext exchange. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jack EMAIL: ja23re@getit.com IP: 67.34.239.163 URL: DATE: 03/19/2005 07:24:40 PM Or you could stop waiting and crack open an Amstel Light. It's the same company and very much tastes like a Heiny. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: cute toy for the Modern Crowd STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 03/17/2005 11:58:46 AM ----- BODY: click here. There is crap, and then there is pretty crap, and this is pretty crap. Not really life changing but oh so cute. I also saw another "encased in lucite" thingy lately and it was a picture tranfer, which was three dimensionally transfered to a lucite cube, anyone seen that? Looked pretty hot. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: bronwyn EMAIL: billie762@aol.com IP: 68.209.5.152 URL: DATE: 03/17/2005 12:33:26 PM i want one. think you can find it for a cheaper price? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: Homey@kfo.org IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 03/18/2005 01:47:38 PM I think you'll barely be able to find it, much less find it cheaper. Though stranger things have happened, and if you give it ten years modern design has been known to occasionally become kitschy pop culture crap eh. Looks like a fab gift idea though doesn't it. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Poem #9 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Poetry CATEGORY: Poetry DATE: 03/18/2005 02:35:43 PM ----- BODY: ----- EXTENDED BODY: I am so much nothing, paved over. Ash roads to Savannah, temporary. 316 with forbidden tracks deer from weed peace in silence danger sudden hooves dancing across your scalp broken robot, klippity klop miles of blood, and last breath weary alone, now dead eyes once clear, begin to dim does not hear the hungry flies So much now, questions to my motivation Withdrawn reasons, answers that do not please The truth is conduit in place (again) dark tunnel, it leads the way to an answer and ghosts echo behind me I am withdrawn, cause I am only. Still. And that same old anger unwashed, waiting, That same desire, unhinged. patience, glacial. Thoughts struck peculiar Klippity Klop I remember her should have killed her, maybe just shared with her, death. Selfish really, animals not tamed die alone Did right, nothing. Watched her go wrote of her passing remember her still And I have not forgotten you either. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Et tu Pablo STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Keeping It Real CATEGORY: Keeping It Real DATE: 03/18/2005 03:48:29 PM ----- BODY: "Lot of haters in the world folks, they are your closest friends, and this is not just because of jealousy or envy, but because your change and growth often times unsettles people around you." ----- EXTENDED BODY: Jonnie told me once, under fluorescents, and with a hard eye while chewing his beard, that my evolving style of poetry writing would not work. And while at the top of my game, that stab, and that weird place I was at in my life, the relationships I had with my many loves at the time. It all gave way, dam breaking, until I stopped writing. I no longer wanted anyone to be a part of my work, I no longer believed in the language of poetry or prose, seemed like too much of a headache, the place where I’d grown to express myself freely, had turned into a free firezone. Three of the closest people in my life dramatically led to me changing, which really and genuinely means that my dealing with these three people, was me letting my life change. People always want an explanation of why and I do not have one. I am who I am, we can use conventional terms, say I am withdrawn, secretive, angry. They aren’t right, symptoms maybe (?), but they aren’t me, not the whole of who I am. One woman tried to save me, one woman tried to love me, they all have destroyed me, and almost all my brothers are rivals for some strange reason, and truth be told, it’s no different for me, I’m a catty fag like that, and nothing will change with this writing, nothing save for I understand y’all better, and I may be just more of an enigma to everyone else, though truth be told, my heart went to all of them, wanted to be with all of them. I don’t know what happened when I figured that out. It’s like I had a system reset, rebooted withdrawn, and maybe, maybe I’ve just realized how I am different from you, how (to be honest) I sometimes set my goals above anything, it’s a charming trait if I’m helping you, frustrating I’m sure, if you feel cut off from me. People fear the truth, and maybe that cryptic verse, and those stanzas which used to be my warez, really just gave way to people understanding me and my work. I was no longer able to admire another woman in words cause it offended my lover. I couldn’t angrily or creatively, or even cryptically express myself, cause everyone was second guessing and waiting for me to do just that. Lot of haters in the world folks, they are your closest friends, and this is not just because of jealousy or envy, but because your change and growth often times unsettles people around you. If you can take a backseat and support the person, you may not be noticed for it anyway. If you try to help, there is so much ego in the game, it is sometimes looked at distrustfully. I had the great joy at times in my life, to be apart of groups which either actually (or through nostalgia) supported each other and had a group sense, I’m not saying it ever lasted, but I’ll be damned, it’s still what I want from relationships, what I miss, I have it somewhat with Jennifer, but not completely. I have it with others as well, again, not completely And then true conflict begins, I am fulfilled in fragments, and I express in fragments, and no one person will ever do the trick for me, cause I could never put all my proverbial eggs in one basket, it’s not an option, I am lined with partitions -epilogue I never understood why writing meant so much to Gary, sometimes seemed like his words were his breath. And I think I do understand better now. I have felt stifled. I have felt empty, but I know (cause I’m so gosh darned honest with myself at times) that I did it to myself for some reason. I have found a blind determination, in how I do things, how when I decide to do it, I will shut you out, doesn’t matter who you are, even if “you” is me. Of course Jonnie was wrong. My poetry like my assertiveness and piss is strong, my words are wise, and when I speak it means something. You guys needed time to catch up. I just hope you didn’t squander it. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Jonnie EMAIL: jonnie@somewhere.org IP: 12.166.247.12 URL: DATE: 03/18/2005 05:17:30 PM Hey Paul, let's call it quits, OK? If all you want out of our friendship is to blog about me obsessively, I shan't try to take that away from you, but I don't really need to be involved. If this is how you want to patch things up, if this is what you call "growth," I think you're better off doing it without outside interference. Good luck out there. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLW EMAIL: JLW@bugmenot.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 03/18/2005 05:26:17 PM "I married a writer and we are a strange lot. We must express ourselves, but so much goes unsaid- it slips beneath the drama. He is my husband and my best friend and my lover and my greatest support. He is my other half. But for some reason, he is still always alone-" read the rest at http://www.livejournal.com/users/isisinator/52466.html ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: pablo@fakeaddress.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 03/18/2005 05:39:06 PM While the piece begins and ends with you, it's not about you, it's about the expressive blackhole i've been in for the last two years, it's not an attack on our friendship. I have always written about you because we have a great connection as friends and spirits, whether there is conflict to be found in that mine as well. And that piece was not written with a lick of negative energy towards you eh. As far as obsessing over you, Shit KFO and you go a long way baby. My developing years were spent with you eh, my expression, the exploration of my identity, sometimes the only way I can explore myself is to look to you, cause we are so similar, even if the results are different. I have said goodbye to our friendship a dozen times, and always forgotten why. So if you were serious I understand, but I meant no ill will or negative energy in the piece. It just came out babe, and it aint an attack on you. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Reflecting on the loss of a friend STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/21/2005 01:42:58 PM ----- BODY: Some of you know I lost a friend this weekend. The hardest thing about life, this writing thing, is finding the words, trying to “do the right thing”, “keep it real” and remembering to “don’t give up hope”. I thought a lot about it this weekend, what my part was in this whole ordeal, how things could have gone different. If we could just see each other for once, make things work. Dammit. No chance of that, and it makes me angry. He was, and still is an inspiration to me. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Snicker. Yeah, I’m not actually talking about you know who folks, (who does not have a sense of humor and won’t enjoy this) ,and prefers that I not obsess over him and blog about him constantly (OMG!). Though I think he should listen to Track 6, CD 2 of The Blue Print 2, by JayZ. Sensitive bitch. Don’t read this blog anymore if you want. -Shaking head- That used to be a different relationship folks, it wasn’t necessarily honest, but it was up front and direct, lost that, it sucks. Car Designer John Delorean died this week at the age of 80, and I really dug him, he was a very cool guy. He has a shitty footnote in history, his car being featured in a mediocre scifi trilogy, and getting busted for trying to do some large cocaine deals (though he always asserts he was setup), when his company went into the shitter. Delorean was the first businessman who ever really interested me, of course it was because of said shitty trilogy (which was only one movie back then for me) and that gorgeous car of his. As a business man, he did the impossible, started a car company when no one thought he could. And if he hadn’t done it in the era of cocaine and disco, he might have been more successful. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Gmail to the phone STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: tech CATEGORY: tech DATE: 03/23/2005 05:43:56 PM ----- BODY: Gosh golly folks. If you don’t use Gmail you should start. A lot of my friends had privacy concerns about it, but it really is fab, and the 1gb account is awesome, about ten fold quicker then yahoo on searching. The privacy concerns were over blown too (btw) all, because gmail sends you targeted text ads, and I have to say I never notice them. But the mail management and the features are hot. Likewise if you’d like to send me a text message to my phone, you can now click the “mail” link above and place “phone” in the subject line and it will be sent straight to my phone, and that is pretty sexy. Pablo ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Correspondence #37,562 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/25/2005 01:12:16 AM ----- BODY: Be strong darling. And let honesty and the greatest personal hurdle be your guiding light. No heavy long-winded bit, that would be my routine, bury you in words. If you are honest with yourself, and you take a sincere challenge, you are still left with choices, as opposed to say just one choice (the supposed right choice). Being strong, taking a great personal hurdle in your life means you must truly consider each task as a challenge you can win. Then, after eliminating your fear (cause that’s what telling yourself “you can do it” will do for you), you will have clarity. Consider what you want to do and do it. I can say this casually, cause I know for a fact, if you eliminate fear, you will be strong, and when you’re strong, you’ll know what to do. And that one set of footprints in the sand, will not be some cheesy “I carried you while you were weak” bullshit, it’ll be you walked down that beach yourself, and God was with you, looking down on you. Be strong, be true, karma, god, whatever you want to call it (though I like to think of it as innerspirit) will guide you. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Correspondence #37,580 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/26/2005 04:18:32 PM ----- BODY: A friend asked (over email) how my night was. And this is my reply… Or rather, here is the extended directors cut of “How was your night?” ----- EXTENDED BODY: >Hey how was your night Fab! We watched a bunch of horrible movies last night; Freeze Frame, and we tried Sky Captain, uhm like I think I ON-Demanded 976 Evil, and that shitty one watched us while we jacked in on the laptops, and they were all fucking awful. Drank day old wine (fab), banged back some seltzery Michelob Ultra, we made pizzas(anchovie, sun dried tomatoes, feta, turkey bacon for myself, and JLW had cheese and mushroom, with toasted garlic), and they were very good, it was actually a strange fun Friday purgatory of sorts. . And then we woke up, tried a new position. We were unsuccessful in achieving this new position, but sex was good anyway (for me!), I worked out, did 5 pushups (that’s one more pushup then yesterday), walked for twenty seven minutes, watched that Flavor Flav and Brigette Neilsen show on VH1, sweated a little bit. And I gotta admit I dread the coming summer, it’s suffocating days, blast oven nights. * Anyway I misted a skillet with olive oil, cooked some turkey bacon, separated three egg whites from their yolk counterpart, drained the turkey bacon (which is so not bacon, but isn’t bad), scrambled the eggs. I measured a quarter cup of yogurt, I toasted one slice of rye used a sparing amout of butter (so little), poured a glass of wine, had a chilled cup of filtered water, and now I want a Ultra light beer. Life is good. Later on I’m gonna go to Eddies Attic, have some food, see Jennifer Nettles, then go to a bisexual (WTF1?) wedding shower, ************************ that’s gonna be interesting Yawn, one of thos kinda days eh, a very nice "decatur" laziness about it. I'm gonna get the WSJ, and business week :). How did your night fair, how is your day shaping up, please write back, tell me about cigarettes, non light beer, and shit like that. *deleted scene Eh, we have engineered this house for a sparing climate management, with the zoned off areas, we can keep the house cool, maybe cooler then before, since we don't ********* anymore. But, we had such a stagnant lifestyle for so long. Gonna have to rethink things I think. Interesting aside, just thought about it, We're gonna wanna redo home cooling this summer. And that's why that was a deleted scene folks. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.239.163 URL: DATE: 03/26/2005 07:09:59 PM You forgot Stripes. We also watched Stripes. Lighten up, Francis. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: pablo@mysite.com IP: 67.34.239.163 URL: DATE: 03/28/2005 01:50:54 AM I still didn't see Dudley Moore or Eddie Murphy, and they were the best thing about Stripes. Fuck Bill Murray 1.0, I liked him in Ghostbusters and Caddie Shack, but he didn’t get interesting till after Ground Hog Day. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLWS EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 03/28/2005 02:16:24 PM baby, they weren't in that movie. Bill Paxton was "soldier" though. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Seared Green Tomatoes and Tuna Enchilada STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: recipe CATEGORY: recipe DATE: 03/26/2005 08:58:53 PM ----- BODY: This is a rapid fire recipe, total prep and cook time is fifteen minutes. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Ingredients 1 green tomato 7oz of albacore tuna (fresh cooked or store bought pouch fish) 1 clove of garlic ¼ cup of feta 1 cup of mozzarella or pizza blend cheese 1Lite Wheat Tortilla 2 tbsps of Balsamic vinegar. Sea Salt Coarse grind black pepper Directions Thin slice one green tomato into six slices Shake sea salt over each slice Shake Balsamic vinegar over each slice Thin slice your fish, place a strip over each tomato Dice 1 clove of garlic and sprinkle over each tomato Add a teaspoon of Feta to each tomato Apply a blanket of mozzarella to each tomato slice Use left over cheese and fish to fill loose wrapped wheat tortilla Apply generous sprinkling of black pepper to entire dish. Place tomatoes and enchilada on a pan (or directly to your pizza stone) in a preheated oven, set to 400degrees. Bake for 9 minutes and serve immediately. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: pablo@kungunfuey.org IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 03/28/2005 04:15:08 PM I tried this green tomato variation a few times over the weekend, and the truth is that the three things that really popped as ingredients were the tomatoes (a fresh tomatillo vibe about them, the balsamic vinegar (don’t be chintzy when you buy it folks), and the feta cheese (less is more in this recipe.) I think as an appetizer, the three ingredients alone, are healthy and keep the dish smart, but if you were to serve this as a hors d'oeuvre I think the meat becomes a welcome addition to the flavor, I originally experimented with store bought vacuum sealed smoked tuna, I think taking actual tuna, and searing it on a (olive oil coated) skillet for scant seconds, then baking with the sliced tomatoes would be the way to go. I think I will likewise try a more traditional interpretation of FGT with a flour (seed maybe) coated variation, which I will also try to do in the oven. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: I like Sandra Oh STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 03/28/2005 12:09:45 AM ----- BODY: I never for the life of me thought Sandra Oh would hit it big, my first two movies with her were “Last Night” (which was an awesome end of the world kinda flick), and “Double Happiness” a family drama that I caught on IFC one night. She is a good actress, we don’t see her enough, but between (I am intentionally ignoring UTTS) Sideways and Grey’s Anatomy that might change. The first episode of Grey’s Anatomy looks like it might actually pull in people who miss ER (I forgot it was still on), people who like their hospital drama with a new school edge. And it does feel a bit like David E. Kelly, a bit more serious, but a great sense of story, in the first hour, that’s good, it’s all or nothing these days. ----- EXTENDED BODY: And I think I said “end of the world kinda flick”, and a “family drama”, and while I made some mention of this show she’s in, being good, the reason I watched it was because Sandra Oh was in it, not the other way around. Sandra Oh can stare at you like the best actor out there. She can hold the air with pure silence. She may have an advantage in being such a peculiar beauty, but she doesn’t Steve Buscemi herself through her roles, I have a genuine like of her. Her craft is sharp in my memory, one particular one, a scene from “Double Happiness” where her deflated character is filled with life, yeah she’s awesome. For damn sure I strongly recommend both Last Night and Double Happiness. Last night shouldn't be a hard sell, it's a great movie, has an awesome story, great cast, gives awesome perspective on a Canadian Movie made in Canada. This link is a great endorsement for Double happiness by the director Cause Double Happiness is a straight up Dramedy, it's funny, it's indy, it's cute, it's sad, it's also very good, and would not have worked with out Sandra Oh. And Fine Line should clean up that page some. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Poem #10 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 04/03/2005 03:57:45 PM ----- BODY: Kabuki #2 ----- EXTENDED BODY: Dear woman What a struggle huh? Still dreaming between your legs Wondering of cock and future waiting for your Onnagata lover to turn Aragoto Maybe to roar and bellow? Monkey his way roughly into your listless slit Take care ban women Yaro Kabuki spare the boys no wakashu Instead, let men peacock and sashay white faced wear silk and threads will turn head stare long, and creepy -mie- do not speak show betrayal But if you play your michiyuki right maybe pull a Yatsushi, this might shake out for you ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: montie EMAIL: pumpkinbun@yahoo.com IP: 68.81.30.60 URL: DATE: 04/04/2005 09:41:56 PM that was atrociously sexy.....makes me want raw hard fucking....i wonder what my husband is doing now.... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: pablo EMAIL: pablo@yh.com IP: 67.34.239.163 URL: DATE: 04/04/2005 10:41:26 PM Well I hope you and the hubbie have a good time eh. Had a long talk with Rachel Ray about the piece, she didn't have the same response. Kinda interesting. Raw hard fucking huh? OMG! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: m glenn EMAIL: deadroses5@hotmail.com IP: 24.255.7.219 URL: DATE: 04/05/2005 12:07:33 AM raw hard fucking is always a good thing to think about with poetry. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Vermeer STATUS: Draft ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: art CATEGORY: art DATE: 04/04/2005 01:02:21 AM ----- BODY: A GIRL READING A LETTER BY AN OPEN WINDOW c. 1657-1659 oil on canvas 32 1/4 x 25 3/8 in. (83 x 64.5 cm.) ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Michael Glenn: I have seen tomorrow STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 04/05/2005 01:08:24 AM ----- BODY: I don't need to reintroduce Michael Motherfucking Glenn do I folks? Fuck no. You know this guy. You remember him right? You’re not ready people, and that's good cause we are kinda slack anyway. 05 bitches. ----- EXTENDED BODY: I have seen tomorrow and you are not there. you're not in the forest or the attic. not in the river the gutter or the air. you're not in the open the closet the trunk or the phone. you're not online on time or on my mind. much. you're not a ghost, or shadow of a ghost. you're not a reflection, in a dirty window. you're not a figment a photo a tree stump or a breath of fresh air, in a stale room. you're not my psyche. you're not a toy, left to be played with when a petulant child is bored. you're not a file in a fancy computer. you're not in the recycle pile, waiting to be sorted. you're not in my bed waiting to be held. you're not anywhere, that happiness resides. you're not anywhere the sun shines on old drunks broken windows oil slick puddles or rusted bicycle frames. you're not in the rain either. you're not in the future, i have seen, and you should be. 11/3/2003 ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Trading Paige? WTF TLC! STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 04/05/2005 03:53:21 AM ----- BODY: I sat we boycott the motherfuckers. What do you think loyal audience? Wait, my friends don't watch tv anymore right? Ok, here is the press release ----- EXTENDED BODY: Press Statement: "TLC is taking Trading Spaces in a new creative direction, transitioning to a "host-less" format this spring. As a result, Paige Davis will be leaving the cast of Trading Spaces. We believe that this new creative direction will enable the show to be more spontaneous, focus more on the homeowners and designers, and create alternative home trades in different cities and on opposite coasts. Paige helped make Trading Spaces a great success for the network and we wish her the best of luck in her future endeavors. Paige's last new episode will premiere in March, with repeat episodes of Trading Spaces airing throughout the year." Damn! Aint that a bitch? Anyway, Paige is soon to be the last host of Trading Spaces (yawn), was such a good show. Trading Spaces used to be this cute show where two couples traded off and redecorated a room in each other’s house. The show concept included a Host, Alex originally, followed by Paige, who reigned supreme and kept the show perky. Of course the real nightmare with the show was TLC fucking with the concept constantly. They’d bring on new designers, change the formula and do specials all the time, and then they didn’t do it consistently, just fucked with things at their leisure. And while there are some rumors that Paige did some scandalous shit (she did), as a matter of fact there are some fab pics of her online, and in a thong no less, being groped by a roomful of gay men. Wait Paige in a thong huh? That’s gotta be a Mark Hamill Eight is Enough kinda play going on there. Paige has gone back to her roots, she doing Chicago on Broadway, playing Roxy. Now as an aside I think Paige Davis is hot. JLW does not. Let me just say that if I wasnt married, i'd fuck her and, her cute as a button husband. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: sparrow EMAIL: imsitting@home.com IP: 72.18.171.188 URL: DATE: 04/05/2005 10:39:06 AM As much as I hate to admit it, I'm with JLW on this one. *shudder* ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: bronwyn EMAIL: billie762@yahoo.com IP: 68.218.99.154 URL: DATE: 04/06/2005 11:05:40 AM Paige did not contribute anything to the show. She was a bouncy, perky idiot. Me-ow! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: p@p.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 04/06/2005 12:08:44 PM Paige would tell you to listen to track 6 cd 2 of the Blue Print 2, that's what i'm thinking! ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.239.163 URL: DATE: 04/07/2005 12:39:11 AM And not only was she a bouncy perky idiot (cause I happen to like bouncy perkiness) but she acted like she was the shit.. like she was in charge of the show, but I guess they showed her. Also, her hair was stupid. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: You really think this is a Blog huh? STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 04/07/2005 01:42:20 AM ----- BODY: Yawn. Please ignore this piece (nothing to see, move along), stick to the recipes and light-hearted shit people. You all have weak stomachs, no commitment to the truth. I'll dig up another cute picture and talk about tv again soon. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Tonight JLW advised me to give up Good Eats for some queer Bravo show, about show dogs and their owners. Then I got sucked into watching Queer Eye For The Straight Guy (Goes to Texas, maybe), and it was about a reunited son and his father. In typical Queer Eye fashion, if you don’t know the show, it’s about a bunch of queer (homosexual, cultured, and silly) guys who go help some poor straight sap. And this episode was about a guy being reunited with his dad. It made me realize how much I hate my father. I don’t mean that minor hate for my father, you know that “Dad you’re (were) a big loser, and I miss you.”, more of that “I should have called you a loser when you were alive.” (when I knew then you were a loser). May have sunk in. Cause right now anger at the spirits is not particularly satisfying. It is so distressing when our blood or love can’t truly connect with that one place we need to feel connection. Somehow, this is relevant. Somehow connected to my patriarchal loathing, which lends itself right to my father’s mother (who is still alive) and a dreadful, evil (harmless now actually. How the mighty shrink, grow frail, feed contempt.), woman, who enabled him for far too long. Father, or mother, it doesn’t matter. Our need issues, to reconnect with our origin, draw back into the God analogy. This must be hard to deal with for those of us who feel no connection to our parents, whether said parents are dead or alive. Though, if I think about it, my dad could be alive and he’d still be a big loser. That would suck more. He’d be unduly influencing me. Best I can tell, I’m doing better than he was when he was my age. It doesn’t mean much, but it’s true. The show was good, tender. It called and played honestly to the responsibility we have to connect with those people that mean something to us, that two people are responsible for two people not connecting. It could have been a horribly lame show, but the straight guy schmuck, he wanted his father in his life, realized the true burden of not seeing his father, but also kinda let it all go, after seeing his father, found individual peace. The guy on the show was lucky. He’d had enough time to work it out, not bray at the world, whine like a bitch, write a piece about hating his father (and stick it online). He showed tears and emotion, knew what was important to him and he expressed that. My father took something with him. He taught me dignity and responsibility, something I never showed him as an adult. He taught me about God (as did his fucking mother. Thank you very much and damn you God, damn you Catholicism, and all other man religions). He taught me machismo and I’m not sure how, cause I think he was a pussy, but he scared me, and he was old school, still knew enough, that sometimes, on occasion, he could be a man, and he was my first hero, my first failure, and the first statue with feet of clay. He took my ability to be validated, to have the father God acknowledge the success of his child. From his death- a shotgun, used many a drug soaked night, behind an overturned couch, to protect his paranoia. I wanted his twelve-speed bike; I got the twelve guage instead. We’d ride when I was child. Chicago, majestic city of concrete, with room for trees. He’d get me, we'd take out bikes, and I’d marvel at the world, the life, my father, my great love and admiration of him, always kept me beside him. "Icarus, my son, I charge you to keep at a moderate height, for if you fly too low the damp will clog your wings, and if too high the heat will melt them. Keep near me and you will be safe." I flew beside him, and then drew too close, saw the truth, knew he was flying high. And I drifted to safety. They found his body, named an island after him. I have only been once, when the tide came in, for one final and dark time. My hate is love, and it is wasted on losers. Pablo ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 67.34.239.163 URL: DATE: 04/07/2005 02:54:55 AM It's Father's Day and everybody's wounded... ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: CB - here I am babe (all of me) EMAIL: cynthia@baute.net IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 04/07/2005 09:50:49 AM Do we know each other well enough to speak in open ways? Or will we know each other by our open speaking? Let me throw this out there and hope you don't throw it back at me with sharpened edges... I am usually too wrapped up* in my comfortable blanket of apathy to twitch much but the exposed current of your veins infuses me with a momentary burst of animation. I am a pathetic soul not much of substance but I find some depth of interest in my efforts as a mirror to the deeper beings. The thoughts above are following the path of the fatalistic victim personality. Poor me, look at all this shit that is who I am and I could have been something so beautiful (it is obviously too late now and hopeless because of what these sick fucks did and isn't it sad, weep with me while I mourn the passing of what would have been my potential). You are not that victim, or if you are then you are part of the toxic pool of humanity that I can't swim with (or I'll drown...). If all your friends (and me among them) are big losers that are bringing you down then cut them loose and move on. I know we all do carry our victimhood somewhere... But as you know already (father being case in point? The survivor must LOOK at those dark places and be able to learn and move on from losers) it will bury you... *suffocating ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: pablo EMAIL: pablo@fakeaddress.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 04/07/2005 03:52:21 PM Cynthia, you said.... >Do we know each other well enough to speak in open ways? You are always welcome to speak openly, any other way kinda sucks, may be a bit southern, if you kin my meaning eh. >Or will we know each other by our open speaking? It’s definitely how we get to know each other babe. >but I find some depth of interest in my efforts as a mirror to the deeper beings. Bravo Bravo! Thank god someone can eloquently state that kinda vibe. >The thoughts above are following the path of the fatalistic victim personality. Poor me, >look at all this shit that is who I am and I could have been something so beautiful (it is >obviously too late now and hopeless because of what these sick fucks did and isn't it >sad, weep with me while I mourn the passing of what would have been my potential). >You are not that victim, or if you are then you are part of the toxic pool of humanity that >I can't swim with (or I'll drown...). As this is an effort to mirror eh, I must say there is a slight distortion. There are gaps, from the joy, the remembered pleasures of being with my father. They fade to black, memories and dark periods, darkness. I have come to stop grading on a curve, stop remembering just the good, I want to look to the gaps in my life, understand what they mean, otherwise it becomes very bitter, and what little I have, anger aside I cherish. Am I a victim? No more so then if I was in a car wreck, I don’t feel my life is less cause of my anger, or that I am immobile because of it. I am truth Cynthia. I am the realization that the Fab Fucking 5 will not be knocking on my door, will not redo my house, and give me a crash course in being a better dressed person. And if I’m gonna watch tv I might as well get something out of it, that guy found some peace with his living father, I celebrated it, I will not have that same opportunity with my father, nor his evil bitch mother. This is a hokey aside, but there is this cake commercial. JLW told me to watch it one night, little kid, mother, picket fence, that kinda thing. It totally fucking bored me, but I watched it dutifully, cause it meant something to her, and she was on the rag I think. Anyway the little child (and mother) make a cake (it’s for someone special), they’re all happy about it. Next day, the mother takes him to school with the cake. And when he gets out, with his square little backpack bouncing behind him, she calls out (he has left the cake behind) and she calls out to him. He turns and smiles, goes to school. She’s the special person. I cried. I save my tears for those Madison Avenue moments, cause I can’t cry about the truth, cake commericials and dog food clips are fair game though.. There are times when I was neither strong enough, nor brave enough to do anything about what happened, maybe just powerless to make a change. We live our lives in such safety, enclosed in our apathy as you mentioned. When I write this kinda shit, I’m just letting that blackness out of me, cause red runs in my veins, but my insides are black, and I never meant to ball it up inside of me, but there it sits, and anytime I can take that emotional cancer and purge it, take a photograph of it, steal it’s soul. I will put it up here for everyone to see, cause we do not share our pain enough. >If all your friends (and me among them) are big losers that are bringing you down then >cut them loose and move on. All? Shat no. Some, losers have their place though, most of them, are just people who never had an intervention, but were exiled from family and friends none the less. My hate is love (If I have enough energy to hate you, it’s cause I love you) and it is wasted on stupid people who never turn things around, but I should still Hate(love) them, worse to occur s if I just disregard you. You know what I’m saying. Thanks for coming, hope you enjoyed the ride eh. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: AndroGel EMAIL: sales@rxonlinecenter.net IP: 81.171.157.198 URL: http://www.rxonlinecenter.net/androgel.html DATE: 07/08/2005 02:49:17 PM androgel adipex phentermine adipex phentermine http://vicodin.rxonlinecenter.net/ http://hydrocodone.rxonlinecenter.net/ http://adipex.rxonlinecenter.net/ http://phentermine.rxonlinecenter.net/ ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Michael Glenn 05 #2 & #3 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 04/07/2005 02:47:59 AM ----- BODY: Hapatcon by that new jersey lake what wonders did i first know? too young to retain, too new to feel old in fresh flesh. i cannot picture my mother and father together there. they were never together when i think them from my memory well. my father, that old ghost limb, never truly attached at the shoulder, never read his paper, picked me up in brick mason arms meant for long years, never kissed my mother, her smiling, as he did so, never walked me proud like mufasa with his new lion along the lake shore. that tiny house, i saw years later, crumbling, was like the coliseum or the parthenon where gods used to live and die. something i could never know once it was done. ----- EXTENDED BODY: another 'fuck you dad poem' just remembered the time you left and never came back. hallmark does not keep shelves for what i need to do to you right now. i associate the following with you, father: old school star trek, hated it, always have. sunday mornings, though nana loved them too and i see her in them, they still kind of suck. the way you love texas, too big for a boy to compete with. bricks, wet cement, where others see immortality i only see your dry hands, never held those dry mason hands. mutual of omaha, great show, except for you, remembering us watching it when we were still related by proxy. sinful jagermeister, chilled, german cough syrup we drank that time you tried to be part of my world and failed. blue pickup trucks, any kind of '70s pick up trucks merle haggard, david allan coe, the soundtrack of your life, the one i never understood like a david lynch movie. barbecue grills, my daughter asked if we could cook out sometime, and i had no way to explain why we couldn't. all this stuff you poisoned with your absentee venom, all this and so much more i will never be able to enjoy, to be part of, or witness too, without remembering the first time someone stuck the knife in. so in this poem, on this father's day i say, fuck you. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: sara EMAIL: pumpkinbun@yahoo.com IP: 68.81.30.60 URL: http://transplantedgirl@blogspot.com DATE: 04/10/2005 09:23:24 PM okay, so sara's my penname...just wanted to say that I've always enjoyed your work, Mr Glenn, and it's good to hear some new stuff from you. Hope you are well.... which lake in new jersey? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: m glenn EMAIL: deadroses5@hotmail.com IP: 24.255.7.219 URL: DATE: 04/12/2005 04:07:00 AM thanks very much. i'm glad to be back in the arena. the lake was lake hapatcon, but the spelling may be off. it's near wharton and dover. the house is a tiny little thing situated on the east bank just off the road if i can remember clearly. stop by sometime and steal the newspaper off the front porch for me eh? ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Poem #10 STATUS: Draft ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Poetry CATEGORY: Poetry DATE: 04/07/2005 03:59:58 AM ----- BODY: ----- EXTENDED BODY: Fodder for poetry specters to shadow box my demons hang on walls to remind me fear today not tomorrow Cause he sometimes says Keep red rust from my cock son this gun will serve you well it sprayed you into this world it held my demons at bay I am loaded and dangerous I am Dead. Touch my suit, cheap for one occasion then bury me strong overhead wings will cast shadow brought you here take you back do not return You are banished to would and country heat and lies Chicago is my tomb Atlanta your home The gods speak to the gods I hear them. He is silent, wispy. he hangs on a wall in a box. ghosts taunt me I know the difference. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: I usually like Bob Lutz STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 04/11/2005 01:02:05 PM ----- BODY: Quote of the day. "Toyota scored a major coup with hybrids even though they didn't have a business case." Having hybrid vehicles, he said, is now a symbol of whether a car maker is technologically capable and environmentally aware. Well yeah, that’s PR speak to explain how GM didn't expect the Toyota Prius (and hybrids in general) to explode in popularity. I bet he’s a horrible father to boot. :) If you’re still pimping a six (or a ghastly eight cylinder) ditch them folks. Gas is probably not gonna go back down to say a buck and a quarter. If you can’t remember the last time you had your car looked at, get it looked at. If you don’t know how to check your tire level, learn. My friends dad used to keep a fifty gallon drum of gasoline in their garage, he remembered the seventies, and always wanted a little backup. Sounds crazy, but a car is like a gun, no gas and it's useless. ----- EXTENDED BODY: EYES ON THE ROAD By JOSEPH B. WHITE DOW JONES REPRINTS This copy is for your personal, non-commercial use only. To order presentation-ready copies for distribution to your colleagues, clients or customers, use the Order Reprints tool at the bottom of any article or visit: www.djreprints.com. • See a sample reprint in PDF format. • Order a reprint of this article now. A Quiz for GM Bob Lutz's Comments Are an About-Face On the Importance of Hybrid Vehicles April 11, 2005 General Motors isn't the powerhouse it used to be in the American car market, as its recent financial and sales troubles attest. But what the senior executives of the world's biggest car maker think about where the industry is headed still merits attention. At a recent conference in New York City hosted by Morgan Stanley auto analyst Stephen Girsky, GM's vice chairman for product development, Bob Lutz, offered some candid comments on industry trends and vehicle technology. Mr. Girsky set up a quiz-show format in which he tossed out the name of a feature and Mr. Lutz weighed in on whether consumers considered it important or not. Mr. Lutz's presentation was accessible by a conference call. Mr. Lutz's responses indicate that GM has done an intellectual 180 on the issue of hybrid gas-electric vehicles. Not long ago, GM executives expressed little enthusiasm for hybrid vehicles, and pooh-poohed the Toyota Prius as a money loser that made little contribution to saving fuel and distracted the industry from efforts to build cars powered by hydrogen fuel cells. [Bob Lutz] Mr. Lutz, who last week took control of GM's vehicle development and engineering strategy world-wide, now acknowledges that "Toyota scored a major coup with hybrids even though they didn't have a business case." Having hybrid vehicles, he said, is now a symbol of whether a car maker is technologically capable and environmentally aware. GM recently announced efforts to mass-produce hybrid gas-electric SUVs by 2007. As for commercially viable fuel-cell cars? Maybe by 2010, Mr. Lutz says. Mr. Lutz's embrace of hybrids comes late, but better late than never, from a GM shareholder point of view. In March, as gasoline prices jumped above $2 a gallon, Toyota more than doubled Prius sales to 10,236 vehicles -- even though dealers had just 13 days' supply of the hybrid cars on the ground by month's end, which is effectively no inventory at all. The Prius outsold, in no particular order, the big Chevy Suburban sport utility vehicle, the Ford Expedition large SUV, and Toyota's own big Sequoia SUV, whose sales fell 12.5% last month. All those vehicles easily outsold the Prius a year ago. Domestic large SUVs, as a group, were stacked up on dealer lots at the end of March, with 120 days' supply, according to Autodata Corp. The Prius also outsold other hybrid cars, but lower-volume rivals did well relative to their previous sales. Honda says it sold 2,896 of its hybrid Honda Civics, the third-best month ever for that model, while consumers bought 1,862 hybrid Honda Accords -- the best month yet for that model. Ford said its hybrid SUV, the Ford Escape, had its best month yet with sales of 1,569 vehicles. Taken together, sales of these hybrid vehicles totaled 16,563 vehicles in March -- more than Ford's Lincoln brand or Nissan's Infiniti brand. On other matters, Mr. Lutz, a devotee of fast cars, says horsepower is important. No shock there. But he's changed his tune on anti-lock brakes, which he once proposed removing from the standard equipment list of certain GM cars. Now, he says, anti-lock brakes are important, because they make it possible to have vehicle-stability control, which GM has said it will install on all its U.S. vehicles by the end of 2010. On the other hand, don't look for heated steering wheels to become standard equipment on GM cars anytime soon. Here's part of Mr. Lutz's exchange with Mr. Girsky, based on a recording of the conference call: Mr. Girsky: Horsepower? Mr. Lutz: Important. Q: ABS [anti-lock brakes]? A: (Pause) Was unimportant. Now it becomes important as we standardize vehicle stability systems, because you can't have [vehicle-stability systems] without ABS. Q: Stability control? A: Very important. Q: Airbags? A: Very important. Q: The more the merrier? A: I think there's a logical conclusion. I told our guys at some point we are going to design one huge inflatable thing that fills the whole [car] … so where if you hit a lamp post you find yourself pressed against the seat as if you were lying under the belly of a beached whale. Q: Satellite radio? A: Very important. Q: Navigation [systems]? A: Growing. [In] premium cars it's almost a necessity now. If you don't have it, the customer wants to know why. Q: Heated steering wheels? A: Not important. I think it's nice, but it's not a huge-selling feature. If you have heated seats, then it is. Q: Auto dimming mirrors? A: Normal expectation? No. Q: All-wheel drive? A: You can still live without it, but [it's] growing. Q: Hybrid? A: Growing. And whether the market becomes giant, or flattens out at 300,000 units a year -- which in the context of the American market is a pittance -- it has become symbolic of: "Is this company technologically capable? Is this company environmentally aware?" And it's a sort of go/no-go gauge. If you have hybrids you're OK, and if you don't you're not. I'd say Toyota scored a major coup with hybrids even though they didn't have a business case. Q: They still may not have a business case. A: Doesn't matter. Again, we have this artificial separation in our minds between what we spend on consumer influence in advertising and what we spend on the product. And sometimes the most effective form of consumer influence is to do things like the hybrid. Q: Remote start? A: Surprised me, but it's a big feature on the [Pontiac] G6 and [Chevrolet] Malibu. Q: Diesel? A: Almost sine qua non in Europe and almost irrelevant in the United States for passenger cars. Q. Fuel cells? A: (Pause) Going to be very important, but we hope to have some on the road by 2010. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Links worth clicking STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 04/15/2005 12:20:56 PM ----- BODY: Here is a link for an indispensable site, if you’re a disposable cash consumer and love shitty (any),tv shows out on DVD. click here. I like the dollar an episode model for traditional shows, and while they are not quite there yet, I don’t feel cheated when I have the choice to buy two or three movies, or I can just buy a whole season of a show. If you compare six hours to say twenty four, it’s gets harder when the money is thinner. Now if we could only see the cable companies toe the same line, they either drop shows for some reasonable price, like say twenty bucks for Dave Chappelle, or they want you to pay a c-note (wtf!) for LaFemme Nikita, or Highlander, may just be a shitty show tax or something. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Just a tiff. Move along. Nothing to see here. STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 0 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 04/15/2005 12:34:19 PM ----- BODY: Had an argument with JLW yesterday, a stupendous clusterfuck of negative energy, sent across VOIP, it gave me a headache. ----- EXTENDED BODY: But alas folks, I am under the constraints of a NDA for discussing the relationship online, so I can only say that I wish someone had told me I’d be sleeping alone…. I woulda stretched out more. I will pull a small quote from her shit though cause I liked it alot "Sometimes I want to be weak. Sometimes I have to be. But I feel like I'm not allowed to be. My husband is like a gym coach. Like an old school gym coach. Shake it off. Stop crying. Don't be a baby." I’m not gonna comment on it, just put it here cause I liked it. Todays relationship links are on anger management and marital satisfaction. click here. The marriage one is simple but good. click here. On to lighter fair. It’s allergy season and I have decided to ignore my allergies and act like they don’t exist. No red pills, no white pills, no spray bottles, no prescriptions. If I get a headache, I’ll workout. If I get a runny nose I’ll work out. If I don’t feel good, I’ll work out. Seems to be working so far, though there was one day at the start of the season where I got a migraine (I worked out), it was very painful. I ignored it though, put ear plugs in (the teensiest noise bothered me), and wore sunglasses all day and night. Mind over matter I say, though I do have an annoying horrible tickle in my throat, and a small headache. Fab. Oh yeah bitches, this article is read only, you know why, nuff said. Of course I can't stop you from doing some Jonathan Penton shit and posting it in some other entry like a little biatch who should have sent an email or something. If you do though i'll put you on my list and blog about you incessantly to fulfil your own paranoid desires that someone might be spending a lot of time thinking about you. Everyone wants to be written about when it's positive, no one wants bad press. Now i'm not invited to his birthday party. Sigh That's another WOPTM or Way Outside The Perimeter Motherfucker ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: 2k electric Scooter, Only thin people need apply STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 04/26/2005 03:11:00 PM ----- BODY: I am nearly double the recommened weight for this chicom electric scooter. But I am quite intrigued by it. click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: sparrow EMAIL: imasitting@home.com IP: 68.224.212.212 URL: DATE: 04/26/2005 08:48:39 PM Well, dahling, I'm close enough to the weight requirement to make no nevermind, so if you REALLY want to get me something uber-hip for graduation, this would be an EXCELLENT choice. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Buy the car get free insurance? STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 04/26/2005 05:28:12 PM ----- BODY: VW has done a test pilot, selling their cars with free insurance for a year, here is a brief blurb about it. The industry started thinking about this concept about two years ago, nice to see them testing it out. The big question is whether or not this would mean the end of knockoff bumpers and shitty car repairs (it wouldn't), hm...... click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: I'm going back to Cali. STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 04/28/2005 03:18:39 AM ----- BODY: Juan offered to pick me up, but oh no, I do not (and will not) want to break down and check luggage, not in the cards for this trip. ----- EXTENDED BODY: 2:46am. I need tp shave ten pounds from the bag. An hour ago the bag was tolerable, and hour ago, I was more focused on clothes, course I hadn't even loaded all my gear, it was a nice thought, naive but nice. I had decided on using Lorraine my old compaq laptop, she's an ugly bitch, but lightweight and fast. Unfortunately Lorraine has a queer display, is configured lean and does not have the graphics editing suite i'll need to edit on the fly while on the road. Nope, she won't do the job. Lorraine added nearly six more pounds to the bag. Now considering i'm doing a four day trip to Cali, and I do not want to check luggage on my flight, want to be fly for the evening, comfortable for a shat load of walking, and I intend on making this a photo tour, with on the fly editing and documenting of my trip. Lorraine and the heavy backpack would not work. So here i am, ripping out my workout shorts, pulling my pajamas, ditching my comfortable extra socks, lotions, vitamins, extra batteries, my spare LED flashlight, and other shit.... Sigh. Juan offered to pick me up, but oh no, I do not (and will not) want to break down and check luggage, not in the cards for this trip. Likewise I want to hump all my gear with me for a day, The rest of the trip is no problem, i'll go lean, and just use my camera bag to schlep everything around. So when I put Brutus my larger laptop into the bag, and finished loading her, my shoulders protested, this wasn't even with my camera bag. I'm taking a trip, going to San Fran, gonna chill out with Juan for a while. I'm not gonna get much sleep, I can see that now. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: San Fran Day 1 Entry 1 STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 04/28/2005 07:21:45 PM ----- BODY: She’s cute as a button, maintains eye contact, late thirties, size 3, nose job, curly reddish brown hair, one of those velour jumpsuits, a little agitated. I realize she wants to go to the head, both are occupied have been for about ten minutes. She and another lady (who looks like a ugly fucking Michael Pare(monty python alumni) start bitching loudly, and banging on the bathroom doors. Actually, there is no one in either of these bathrooms, just two dumb bitches who loudly can’t figure out how to get the doors open, silly. ----- EXTENDED BODY: 4am, I go to sleep. The bag configuration is as good as it gets,\. I’ll regret many things about what I’ve left behind, but fuck it. 7am, I wake up, it’s a shitty feeling, I start up Aziatic, some Naz nipple sucking bitch who sounds like Jay Z (and all you bitches should still listen to the Blueprint 2, cd 2, track 6, cause some people hate). I have gotten just enough sleep to feel like hammered shit. Jennifer actually gets up like a trooper, shockingly enough. The last time we had to do something together in the morning, she accused me of ruining our friends wedding and we fought like dogs until I started driving @ *** mph to make up time, and then she shut the fuck up. In the car we talk about my fucked up return flight, and listen to Bombs over Bahdad, and for the last two days, I’ve started to think that Stankonia was a shitty uneven album, with a few good songs, its not a bad drive. Energy Drink #1 Diet Rockstar -Crunchy, harsh, strong drink, will make you alert though. 8am, I go through security, I do not get profiled, I have thirty pounds of electronics gear and usually that’s a thirty minute ordeal. 8:45am, long conversation with fairly nice guy about apple computers and digital SLRs, We board, for ten minutes I am alone in my row. The computer had randomly selected some random, shitty, middle seat, but my check in was at a kiosk, no attendant, I changed it myself, moving all the way to the rear of the plane, I think I’m almost alone, then a little cute blonde (Californian, not Georgian) sits beside me. She aint granola or too chatty, but she’s California cool, we chat awhile, to her left the picture changes, the baggage cars thin out, the tarmac is besides us. We both stare starstruck out the window. At first the plane just rolls on down the road, and then you can feel, hear and, sense it in your bones, as the turbines power up, inhale, spit air behind us, and push us into our seats; this pilot is no motherfucking joke. The wings shake like they’re barely attached to this 183 passenger shit heap, we are on the ground, and then steeply, we escalate, the clouds surround us anonymously. It reminds me of my fathers old car Minerva. him letting me ride on his lap, racing through alleys, him letting me take the steering wheel, but stopping me from crashing into trashcans and garages. My inclination was to try to run into shit, what does one giant metal beast do when it hits shit, I never found out till much later. The Californian gets into her Gameboy, I read an EW, then I watch the second episode of Greys Anatomy, then I sleep, then I play my gameboy, then I sleep again, it goes on forever, nearly a five hour flight. When I land in San Fran, I will mingle as best as large black motherfucker can do in San Fran, I will find a Starbucks, jack in, and then I will hump my fat ass to China town, find a shiv, maybe get a nice four inch, four forty stainless steel, tanto, I desire a serrated edge. Asked Juan where I could pick up warez, he told me he’d been getting his shit from me for the last fifteen years, kinda funny, but not now, I should have fedexed my shit like I originally planned. Juan wants me to get him a pair of nunchucks, been awhile since I had a pair of those, funniest part was how I thought how fucking silly that was, not like say how I drag around a\ Katana, that’s ok. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.211.72.125 URL: DATE: 04/28/2005 10:58:35 PM Damn Skippy I was a trooper! Missing you already. Feeling a little purposeless. Me and the cats just stare at each other. Where's the food guy? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Geek EMAIL: fake@noway.com IP: 68.224.212.212 URL: DATE: 05/02/2005 10:29:09 PM You mean, maybe "Michael Palin" the Monty Python Alumnus? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: pablo@fakeaddress.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 05/09/2005 04:42:04 PM Yah Geek Thanks much eh. I did mean Michael Palin yo. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: San Fran day midday STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 04/29/2005 06:39:50 PM ----- BODY: Only with Juan can I sit around watching porn, eating Salami (no lie), and pepperjack cheese, while shadow boxing, and talking about silly bitches. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Hung out with Juan last night, at the neighborhood joint he runs, called Claypso. It’s a good hustle, I can’t really get into the whole scene, or what it means to nearly own a little slice of social hosting, but it only comes to those who barback a club, or sell cocaine and drive a late model Honda Prelude. It was a good day, I walked for miles, eventually hooked up the sexy Juan-babe Shelley, and we were off on another BART ride. I started my day without the sleep of another night and didn’t sleep for twenty four hours. Ending the night with some pretty cool shooting, a drive to the Juan Cave, some bad asian horror mob film, and good sleep, listening to factory horns go off like fog horns. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Lemon Tree STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 04/30/2005 07:01:59 PM ----- BODY: I babble about Juan's queer shower and trying to find my special moment. ----- EXTENDED BODY: So I’ve come to realize that I maybe wanted a special moment. I mean Spalding was right, do the trip, have your fun, fuck around, and have one very special moment. As an only child this has been an awesome experience, go cross country, hang with my oldest friend, drink in a little neighborhood bar and restaurant, meet his buddies. And it has been awesome. Juan, by day two has created a color-coded system for how we’ll use towels, and bathing materials. Fascinating, I find it all very fascinating, he is gray, I am the other color. It’s had it’s interesting moments, Juan’s furniture is elevated into the air for some reason, his bed is like four feet off the ground, and his bathtub is on like some jacks or something, so you gotta climb into it, and you can’t see out the window, it’s a little creepy, but real, cool, soft water, and gentle colors. It definitely has that low budget slasher feel to it, -pictures to follow soon. All the rest of my time has been spent wondering SanFrancisco. Got some new shoes whle on the road, which has to be such a weird thing to do, but these shoes rock. All of this has been so pointless, and calming for that very reason. Will continue to unravel the mystery, while seeking out my special moment. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: DATE: 04/30/2005 07:37:41 PM I so should have made you an itinerary. Don't forget to go to the Golden Gate Bridge and to go to Alcatraz or don't and we'll go back together. I'm glad you're having a good time though. Chillin. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Early Epilogue STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 05/01/2005 07:32:39 AM ----- BODY: I am so doing shit out of order, but I am dancing. I walked more today then yesterday, and the actual spectrum of bullshit and strangeness i've dealt with tonight has been way queer.... -shrug- ----- EXTENDED BODY: There is some code in the process, something which can’t be deciphered and isn’t on the list. Juan is a force of nature, you can’t compete with him in his element. I can sit around and talk about how he’s stolen my Mojo, but he can have it. We have tooled around this cities back roads, grinding clutch and axle, going back and forth, booze, to sleep, back to booze. This has been a city of footsteps, often times walking in my own shadow. Tonight was a strange night, of the three it could be called the most peculiar or just, the end of three nights of hard partying, Juan has officially worn me out. Tomorrow, the bridge, we take it head on, but until then, I suspect sleep will be short, and not long enough. I am at the wake of a wave, and before it all had a chance to really begin it will be over, and San Francisco (more so Orinda), will be a memory. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.219.159.191 URL: DATE: 05/01/2005 12:53:49 PM Come home. I miss you! ----- -------- AUTHOR: glennm05 TITLE: Bukowski STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: guest writer CATEGORY: guest writer DATE: 05/01/2005 04:24:20 PM ----- BODY: Watched Barfly the other morning for the first time since I started reading Bukowski 10 years ago. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Mickey Rourke plays Chinaski and Faye Dunnaway plays the sexy but drunken Wanda. It was odd seeing the movie again with fresh eyes. The way Rourke saunters across the scenes, drawing out his words when he talks, and behaving like a madman is eerie. It’s like he has taken Bukowski’s skin off and has crawled inside of him. When I first saw the movie I thought, “What a bunch of fucking losers!” I still hold to the idea to some extent, but with the knowledge now that the drunken maniac loser on the screen has been a constant companion and source of inspiration for me for years. Constant companion? Inspiration? How can a drunken fool like that be these things some may ask. The people that have to ask are probably the same ones who still get off on Ginsberg and Robert fucking Frost late nights. Some people like their poets to be nicely dressed in normal tragedy, like Sylvia Plath and her gas oven or Percy Shelley and his drowning to death at 25. It’s been hard defending Bukowski against such people and the academic crowd I have been mired in for almost three years now. Buk was crude, foul mouthed, drunken, and died at a reasonably old age. He worked the shittiest jobs imaginable for most of his life, started writing poetry late, and never liked the rest of his supposed peers all that much. He was a man who wrote his life out in all it’s ugliness though, with honesty and naked abandon. There should never be lying in poetry. To see him complete in his natural state in this 17 year old movie was very reassuring. It makes me think I am doing the right things and his terrible experiences in life are, if nothing else, a great example of how not to let life kick you in the face. He is a companion to me because I have been there, in the darkest parts of the world, I have known long nights that will never end, and I have known the shackle that is poetry for 15 years, and I have known Bukowski through his work to some extent. It’s hard defending one of the greats like defending that one Uncle that keeps getting sent to prison, but you have to look out for your friends in life. Especially the ones who hold beauty and wisdom in unlikely bottles. More on Bukowski later. m glenn From the desert ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: DATE: 05/01/2005 05:32:05 PM Oh! It's Mike! Dude, I totaly read that thinking it was Paul and I was like, "But you HATE Bukowski!" But it's not him, it's you. I see that now. I hate Bukowski too. I mean, I like, that his poetry is, you know, common, but I don't like how he is shocking for the sake of being shocking. That's always silly to me. Of course, some might agrue that he isn't doing that. But they would be wrong. :) ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: mglenn EMAIL: deadroses5@hotmail.com IP: 24.255.7.219 URL: DATE: 05/01/2005 05:57:51 PM CONFESSION (bukowski) waiting for death like a cat that will jump on the bed I am so very sorry for my wife she will see this stiff white body shake it once, then maybe again "Hank!" Hank won't answer. it's not my death that worries me, it's my wife left with this pile of nothing. I want to let her know though that all the nights sleeping beside her even the useless arguments were things ever splendid and the hard words I ever feared to say can now be said: I love you. oh yes, quite common and shocking. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLWS EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 05/01/2005 06:23:44 PM Right. Common and shocking. Was that suppossed to be sarcasm? Because, while that poem is perhaps a little tamer and more tender than typical Bukoski, it still fits his profile. By common, I mean, uh... obtainable? Like it's straight forward and easy to understand. That poem definitly fits that profile. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: mglenn EMAIL: stuntedevergeeen@yahoo.com IP: 24.255.7.219 URL: DATE: 05/01/2005 08:27:25 PM Is there some unwritten law that poetry needs to be unobtainable? This sort of assumption makes poetry seem like some elitist thing that only the well educated and literary analysts of the world can grasp a hold of. It scares people off of poetry. Most of the English Majors I have known hate poetry because of it. The shocking poetry of Bukowski is actually the minority. It's just the work that gets the most publicity and exposure. I only have about ten volumes or so of his work, and yes he does have a definite profile and style, as all poets should, but most of his work is not shocking as much as brutally honest. I kind of like having honesty in my poetry, and his devoted fans probably do too. The one big thing about his work that is wonderful is that it is his life. It is more an autobiography than any other poet's work from the last few hundred years. I can relate my own work to it because my poetry is usually not a riddle but a scene out of one life, from one perspective, with all the honesty I can put in it. There is always metaphor in it as well. He's not for everyone of course. Some people like fighting a poem for meaning. I can fight meaning out of most poetry. But why should the poem have to be attacked rather than read and taken in as it is supposed to be? There is nothing of beauty lost in his work by not coating it in metaphor, rather the simplicity of the lines and the truth make it beautiful. No, I would never be sarcastic to you. It IS common and shocking. It's also something most of us never have the guts to confess to. I kind of like this one, don't you? ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: JLWS EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.153.135.18 URL: http://www.geocities.com/isisinator/whitetrash.html DATE: 05/01/2005 10:29:26 PM Yes, I like it. And I said that I LIKED that his poetry was common. That's what I like about him. But I also think that his poetry (not all of his poetry) can be gratuitously obscene. I don't have a problem with oscenity. If that's what he wanted to write, then fine. I'm just not into it. Not a fan. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Phentermine EMAIL: sales@rxonlinecenter.net IP: 24.232.171.250 URL: http://phentermine.rxonlinecenter.net/ DATE: 07/08/2005 03:59:46 PM hydrocodone vicodin vicodin hydrocodone vicodin adipex phentermine adipex phentermine http://vicodin.rxonlinecenter.net/ http://hydrocodone.rxonlinecenter.net/ http://adipex.rxonlinecenter.net/ http://phentermine.rxonlinecenter.net/ ----- -------- AUTHOR: glennm05 TITLE: Dorianne Laux STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: guest writer CATEGORY: guest writer DATE: 05/03/2005 06:47:33 AM ----- BODY: Being in school mostly sucks these days. I start to wonder, “What’s the point?”. ----- EXTENDED BODY: I have the usual round of literature classes this semester, British Literature, Shakespeare part II, and an advanced writing class. The only thing advanced about the class is the ages of most of the students. We had the usual droll shit to read this semester in the class but by chance or by stroke of good luck we got some good writers in there. One of them is Dorianne Laux. It’s not often in college you get to read authors or poets who are still alive, let alone still relatively young and publishing. Dorianne’s work is very new, very beautiful, and often very heartbreaking. We’re reading her second book of poems called “Smoke”. There have been several poems in the book that have struck me down with the power of them. I hunted the internet and came up with one from the selection that is particularly good I think: HOW IT WILL HAPPEN, WHEN There you are, exhausted from another night of crying, curled up on the couch, the floor, at the foot of the bed, anywhere you fall you fall down crying, half amazed at what the body is capable of, not believing you can cry anymore. And there they are: his socks, his shirt, your underwear, and your winter gloves, all in a loose pile next to the bathroom door, and you fall down again. Someday, years from now, things will be different: the house clean for once, everything in its place, windows shining, sun coming in easily now, skimming across the thin glaze of wax on the wood floor. You’ll be peeling an orange or watching a bird leap from the edge of the rooftop next door, noticing how, for instance, her body is trapped in the air, only a moment before gathering the will to fly into the ruff at her wings, and then doing it: flying. You’ll be reading, and for a moment you’ll see a word you don’t recognize, a simple word like cup or gate or wisp and you’ll ponder like a child discovering language. Cup, you’ll say over and over until it begins to make sense, and that’s when you’ll say it, for the first time, out loud: He’s dead. He’s not coming back, and it will be the first time you believe it. ©Dorianne Laux Now, it’s not necessarily my favorite type of poetry or anything but it is the only thing that has caught my attention this semester and it very brilliant work. It’s important to get something out of every experience. It’s also important to let people know about the writers or poets that may not get all the attention they deserve. Check her out sometime click here. to buy her books ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: C EMAIL: cabaute@bellsouth.net IP: 68.223.127.208 URL: DATE: 05/04/2005 12:30:56 AM You know the answer as you pose the question; this is why you are in school, no? Dorianne Laux et. al.; worthy or not as they may be, challenging at the least. My heart sings joy for you, your potential is to the stars, but you must be challenged. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.217.58.99 URL: DATE: 05/05/2005 02:26:48 AM I like that too. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: The Apartment STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: art CATEGORY: art DATE: 05/05/2005 01:53:58 AM ----- BODY: I don't even know if it meant anything. If we’d had drapes, instead of shitty (always half open) blinds, what would have happened? Why were the drapes significant? ----- EXTENDED BODY: So, I used to have this apartment in Buckhead. It was an old building about thirty or forty years old. I lived in this particular building three different times. I lived in the apartment complex no less than five times. It was a good spot. My job was in Buckhead, my social life was in the city, and it wasn’t a half bad part of town which to live in. Here’s where it gets a little weird though. When I lived in the apartment complex the second time, in the building that I lived in three times, I would occasionally find myself sleepwalking. I’d awaken naked, thoughts of murder in my head, danger at my side, and just a bit of confusion. I would always wake up in the same spot and I knew it because there was this place along side our living room windows where the outside safety lamp would cast its light on the blinds (always half open) and they, in turn, would paint a diagonal series of slats across the wall. That’s where I woke up. I did this sleepwalking thing for months until I stayed up late one night and walked by that same spot. Soon after that, I began to feel ill at ease when I hit that spot and at night, when I’d get into my routine of sleepwalking and thinking about murder, I started waking up right there and wondering, “What am I doing?” What indeed? If we’d had drapes, instead of shitty (always half open) blinds, what would have happened? Why were the drapes significant? Who was I gonna kill? Was I actually gonna kill someone? Or was I just possessed for a second, touched by some murderous rage which had stained that apartment, that was called at night, and somehow was stopped by lines of light. I still haven’t figured that one out. Some places are fucked up though. Have bad mojo around them and should be avoided. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.217.58.99 URL: DATE: 05/05/2005 02:21:16 AM And that wasn't even your creepiest apartment. ----- -------- AUTHOR: glennm05 TITLE: Upstairs STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: guest writer CATEGORY: guest writer DATE: 05/05/2005 03:04:07 AM ----- BODY: Sometime this morning between the time I went to sleep at 5 and around 7:30 AM my neighbor upstairs was killed by her ex-husband and apparently he then shot himself. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Sometime this morning between the time I went to sleep at 5 and around 7:30 AM my neighbor upstairs was killed by her ex-husband and apparently he then shot himself. Her kids were at school I believe. I never heard a thing. I had seen the woman upstairs and her children around. They were rather noisy at night and at times were the only sound I heard at three in the morning when I do most of my work. Growing up in a single home with a threatening past I always got this vibe that she was hiding out from something or someone. There was a tension there that permeated the floor sometimes, seeped into the living room where I write. When passing her in the parking lot there was this hunted look in her eyes. The occasional, “Hello”, marred by something unspoken. She seemed very nice, a generalization and an old standby for people we don’t ever get to know who live their lives less than ten feet away. We say the same thing when sick fucks like the BTK killer are arrested next door. “He was such a nice man too. Who would have thought it?” I feel like a piece of shit for sleeping through something so horrible but there is that coldness in there too that says, “Glad I didn’t get my ass shot too.” I don’t even know her name for God’s sake. There is something fundamentally wrong with this. I’m not saying if we lived in Mayberry the man wouldn’t have snapped suddenly, driven here in desperation and shot his wife and himself, but at least I would have been able to say: “Her name was Judy. She worked at Wal-Mart. Her kid’s names were Tyler and Steven. She collected ceramic Indians. She didn’t deserve that.” I can’t say that though. The full impact of someone being shot to death over my head cannot be realized, mourned, or dealt with like it should because I have that coldness in there. Maybe the coldness is a good thing. So I wandered through my apartment the rest of the day, with the cloud of tragedy above me. I read some, tried to take a nap, and went to class this evening, finally free of the cloud for a while. Tonight when I go lay down on the couch I’ll stare at the ceiling, looking for the dark stain of the deaths seeping through my cieling. There is also the matter of my neighbor’s friends still weeping and asking why, why, why outside her door on the landing above. They’ve left flowers and pictures and I imagine they will come on pilgrimages to the scene for the next few days. Eventually the whole building will be taken over by the feeling and most of the tenants might move away. New people will come and never quite understand what’s wrong with the building. The hard truth, however, is most people will not even notice like they never notice till something bad happens next door. They will continue to live their anonymous lives, in their sequestered 800+ square foot boxes and try to sleep through three or four gunshots in the next cell over. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.219.159.249 URL: DATE: 05/05/2005 10:44:16 AM Wow. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Ah the Sparrow... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 05/05/2005 11:58:02 AM ----- BODY: There are so many ways to go about looking at something. Sparrow has her own thoughts today folks "His status in society, control over his land, and equality to other men is limited at best. He is in many ways neutered. " ----- EXTENDED BODY: I am an academic writer. This angers many of my friends, family, and co-workers. I’ve a friend that insists I exist in duality – the lover, the passionate woman, and the woman who buckles down and gets things done. He seemingly understands; most fail. My academic background, literary in scope, allows for a broad and sweeping comprehension of actions, but I tend to consider my experiences in life, how they relate to literature, back to how they may be applied to life. The woman above Mike’s apartment was murdered by her ex-husband, who upon completion of his task, took his own life. It is sad, certainly, giving the critical person a bit of perspective. Perspective? On life, my dears, on life. Even I am able to assert my dualities into one complete sentient comprehension when faced with perspective. I thought immediately of Ralph Elison’s Invisible Man and Toni (bless you, you faboo author, you) Morrison’s The Bluest Eye. Both novels offer the stories of men who are (mis)read as horrible people, raping their daughters and in the case of Morrison’s character Cholly and Pecola, impregnating them as well. These men have undoubtedly done horrible things to those they purport to love the most, but it is precisely because of this overwhelming love that they have committed such atrocities. When looking deeper, the characters’ abject disrespect for themselves and each other becomes readily apparent, allowing readers to comprehend the eternal burden a victim of metaphorical rape must endure. Ellison’s Invisible Man portrays the rape of Matty Lou by her father, Jim Trueblood. While Jim is certainly to blame for his own actions, the impetus comes into question when considering his lifestyle and surroundings. He is a simple man, a “sharecropper [who] had been well liked as a hard worker who took good care of his family’s needs” . In view of his reputable status within the community, the system he is a part of must be considered; it is, perhaps, not that Jim is an inherently bad man, but perhaps that he was driven to escape the pathos of his life as a southern black man. His status in society, control over his land, and equality to other men is limited at best. He is in many ways neutered. Jim describes his interaction with Matty Lou as surreal, that he “musta dropped into a dream” . With Matty Lou, Jim is able to both escape the world he is likely discontent with and which is figuratively raping him, and establish his masculinity in an undeniable manner: sex. Toni Morrison’s The Bluest Eye is also filled with scalding literal and metaphorical rapes. Pecola Breedlove is literally raped by her father, Cholly. While Cholly is absolutely responsible for his own actions, much like Invisible Man’s Jim Trueblood, the societal institutions surrounding him must also be taken into consideration. Readers are given a significant amount of background information on Cholly, starting with his early life, when “Cholly was four days old, his mother wrapped him in two blankets and one newspaper and placed him on a junk heap by the railroad”. Cholly’s life is spared by his Great Aunt Jimmy, who “raised Cholly herself, but took delight sometimes in telling him of how she had saved him”. Cholly’s life, while not easy, was simple until Jimmy passed away. Cholly then experienced his first sexual encounter with Darlene, perverted by the interruption of two white men demanding he “get on wid it, an’ make it good, nigger, make it good” . Oddly, the enjoyable experience of a willing sexual encounter turns to the horror of rape, both for Cholly and Darlene. Young Cholly is traumatized once again, when with the lack of adult guidance in his life, he strikes out on his own, at the age of fourteen, to seek out his biological father. Upon finding him, his father assumes he is someone out to harm him in some manner, requesting Cholly “get the fuck outta [his] face”. Cholly’s life is filled with events such as these, likely nurturing a mental environment ripe for the dementia required to rape his own daughter. When considering the idea of rape in both novels, it is essential to consider what each individual character brings to the literal or metaphorical “rape,” and what abysmal encounters they have come upon in their lives. Morrison’s The Bluest Eye and Ellison’s Invisible Man portray both literal and metaphorical rape well, filling readers with emotionally charged visualizations that make them even more powerful than they are horrible. The moral of the story: Bad shit happens, and it happens all too often, and it will likely happen to you, to me, to everyone we know. The challenge lies in incorporating and nurturing your critical abilities, allowing for the notion that maybe, just maybe, Mike’s neighbor’s ex-husband wasn’t such a bad man after all. This brings up another academic sensibility, the notion of aporia. Aporia, as defined by the Oxford English Dictionary (http://www.dictionary.oed.com) is “A perplexing difficulty.” The absolute definition of the term is a little more challenging to pinpoint. Essentially (yes, yes, I know – nothing is “essentially” anything) the term references the inherent subjectivity found in literature, and on a broader scope, life. I am, however, only prepared to deal with the literary references, as life is a far greater challenge than I’m up to at the moment. Aporia also references the subjective and the objective (an infinite amount of individual opinions) coexisting simultaneously. There is no Truth, there is only truth. Aporia, folks, that’s where it’s at. Was Mike’s upstairs neighbor’s ex-husband a bad man? The uncritical eye (read: not someone I want to know, really) says “YES! He killed his ex-wife, the mother of his two children, what a BAD BAD MAN!” I say, “Eh, maybe. Tell me about his life.” ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlw EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.219.159.249 URL: DATE: 05/05/2005 12:49:01 PM Thanks for the American Lit 101 paper excerpt. What you talk about, this "aporia," is the whole problem with society. There is TRUTH. And there are things that are wrong. Murder is chiefly among them, followed up by rape and adultery. It might be easy to create some sense of moral ambiguity in order to ease one's own conscious for deeds either already done or yet to be done, but your delusion doesn't make them Right. I think we've already established why you don't want to know me and it is exactly because I say when someone is wrong. I expect people to take responsibility for their actions and not try to justify them by redefining morality to suit their own whims and emotional immaturity and failure to control their impulses. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: sparrow EMAIL: imasitting@home.com IP: 68.224.212.212 URL: DATE: 05/05/2005 01:40:44 PM My dear, Perception is reality. That is all. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.219.159.249 URL: DATE: 05/05/2005 01:50:58 PM Please. That's a very elementary understanding of a philosophy that you don't have the intelligence to comprehend and you certainly lack an understanding of the consequences of it. But, you've never been very good with understanding consequences and even caring about the consequences of your actions, as your piece indicates. You're a fool. That is all. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: howtomailme@mailbuttonabove.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 05/05/2005 04:58:03 PM I am about twenty four hours from a road trip where I’m sure I’ll fight and argue about this whole situation for days. When we write here folks we write safely with the confidence that what we write will be appreciated by writers, admired by the trolls, and loathed by some. We have the right to write (come one and all), and the right to reply, but we should remember to be nice, to not attack a piece, especially when attacking that piece can so quickly degrade into a thinly veiled way of attacking a person. JLWS assumes that Sparrows comment of “The uncritical eye (read: not someone I want to know, really)” was directed at her personally. Ok. It’s so important that we police ourselves, that we come here and try to not let our opinions of a person shape how we view a piece. Instead let’s come together and read the words of others and maybe let it grow our perspective. Some growing has occurred today just not positive growing. JLWS does not like Sparrow we got that part, it’s established. I specifically let Sparrow's piece be a piece, not a comment, not something tucked beneath my piece, or Mikes piece, that’s how much I liked her work. If anyone writes a piece and I put it up I did it cause I liked it. That’s the end endgame right? Not quite. You can come slam them if you want. You can probably slam them a bunch if you really wanted to. It stops now though and stops cause I said so. This is my house. Everybody play nice. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Lil Pimpin EMAIL: lil2kpmpz@java.com IP: 68.154.126.80 URL: DATE: 05/06/2005 01:32:35 AM I liked it. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Savannah STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 05/07/2005 02:27:58 AM ----- BODY: No more travel for me. Please, no more. ----- EXTENDED BODY: I get home from San Francisco and realize my return home will turn into a hundred hour furlough and then it’s off to Savannah for Mother’s Day. So after trying to get back into my normal weekly routine, I find myself rushing home on Friday evening. I quickly pack the trunk, sweep the stairs of cat hair and then we jump in the coupe and we’re off. The drive is fairly relaxing; we start out listening to The Cure and eventually settle for the soundtrack to The English Patient. JLWS got a chance to watch BTVS, the movie, and I listened to a James Lee Burke novel and drove the car. This was nice. We’re usually just a bit bored and that break in the monotonous drive, ninety minutes of zoning out together but not talking, was good. Hours later we finished off the badly copied copy of The English Patient, and we put in the soundtrack for Lost Highway. And then it was just thirty minutes more, fog coming down low like ghosts swooping to surround the coupe. And the road almost unfurling itself out before us. It made me realize we were tired, no longer giving a thirty frames per second (or even twenty four fps) perspective to things. And that’s that dangerous time when you can zone out. I usually go for screaming at the top of my lungs and rolling the windows down, but a plaintive mewing begs me for warmth. Wait till we have kids. The fog is thick here. The silence, overwhelming. Our last mile is on a pounded ash road. Headlights following creepily behind us most of the way, a rare companion so late and deep into the night. Our epilogue ends up being a lavender painted room filled with kids movies, twelve inch tv, foos ball table and JLWS playing Super Mario Brothers on a Nintendo 64. I stare at stuffed animals while writing and they stare back at me. JLWS prattles on about how my mention of the stuffed animas (kinda creepy) fills her with a sense of their own neglect imprisoned together in this attic family room. Once loved and now forgotten all with dead eyes. And I want to give a shout out to Little Ms Rachel Ray for housesitting for us. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Memo to a friend STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 0 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 05/09/2005 02:32:40 AM ----- BODY: ******* Yo eh. I went to your site. It was god awful. What happened man? I do not believe anyone stole your mojo, that anyone would want to. I believe there is still time to pull out of this horrible tail spin but I know you would never accept an intervention. Your only chance Man (!) is to save yourself. At this time your choices are short, biting the bullet is too extreme (we do love you sometimes), but you may want to consider a life outside whatever your own twisted perspective on things may be. I know I know, it is presumptive to assume I could make a judgment call on your own mental health and whether or not your edge has any cut left in it, but damn man whats going on? ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Horoscopes are up STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 0 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Horoscopes CATEGORY: Horoscopes DATE: 05/09/2005 11:57:34 AM ----- BODY: click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: digital slr stuff STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 05/09/2005 09:34:04 PM ----- BODY: "The D70 is the best-selling SLR camera we’ve had, by far. The goal of keeping a camera at a price point where it can be had by as many people as possible was always in the designer’s mind. Unlike some camera manufacturers, we weren’t interested in stripping down a camera to reach that price point. It was built to retain the most amount of capability." click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Hm... STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 05/11/2005 12:20:00 AM ----- BODY: ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Rincon STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: DATE: 05/11/2005 07:56:48 PM ----- BODY: I talk about the Rincon portion of our road trip to visit the inlaws. ----- EXTENDED BODY: “After the game, Paul and I went to Wal-Mart. Yeah, I know, Wal-Mart is evil and we don't ever go there, but it's the only thing to do in Rincon. So, we went to Wal-Mart and had a pretty good time. We bought all sorts of crap we didn't need. A guy in the checkout line asked Paul if he was from the islands.” How do you talk about your visit to the town next to the small city? For one thing Rincon is a pleasant little place and it’s true I do think about living in this wholesome backwater village at times. I think about it, my Wal-Mart experience didn’t encourage or discourage that thought. We were in line with a cart of shit one might get from Wal-Mart. I had a deep discounted copy of Point Break and French Kiss, both good movies and easy opportunities for people to say “WTF!”. I also had some Wal-Mart brand Equate medicated foot, and body powder. We had a twenty five pound of dog food, some flesh colored (white folks colored) ear plugs, a sleeping mask, eye drops, and some other shit. It was a dumb load of crap. But we did want most of it. The dog had to eat, my sack and feet were sweat. I’d experienced the power of Equate in SanFran. JLWS has to sleep in deprivation, cause it’s ok to sleep deaf and blind, but not with the tv on and if the tv is off then we have to have a night lite. Anyway, (as dear Montie would say), we’re standing in line waiting to pay for our crap and there is this Stone Cold fan ahead of us. He seems a little angry but not militia member potential. I ignore him, and JLWS realizes that we are beside the worlds biggest carousel of religious crap; bibles, movies, magazines, self help, books on godly knitting, it was pretty stupid looking but not the spot in the store when you want to hear someone say, “Look at all this religious crap! It’s outrageous! It’s all religious crap!” which is exactly what JLWS said. I hissed at her she turned looked at me remembered where we were. On either side of the checkout people started to look at the interracial couple. I expended as much aura energy as I could, focused on the tv-guide (which had a mini cd of some unreleased elvis track) and projected that I was not in line with this crazy blasphemous cracka. JLW changed the subject doing her best to make sure that everyone knew we were together by talking about food, “I want chinese” I said, she didn’t particularly care, we mulled our options and questioned if Rincon was ok for Chinese food (it seemed to have like maybe three Chinese joints total), that’s when Stone Cold said, “Well if you don’t mind eating cat and dog.”, I smiled warmly, “Love it? Cat and Dog is better then beef and chicken! What else would I eat when I go to a Chinese restaurant?”, He turned with that crazed look that rednecks get when minorities address them intelligently and returned volley with “Welllllll I dought you looked like you were from the islands” Did that fucker mean that he thought I was Samoan? Cause I chant in my head to people sometimes “I’m Samoan” I like to do it in my sleepy subdivision. I keep a lei around my rearview mirror, wear festive Hawaiian shirts, all to help with alleviating white flight. But I don’t talk with like a Jamaican accent or anything, cause that’s another island. No one wants a goat killing, ganja smoking Jamaican around, and while I am neither a passable Samoan I am sure not Jamaican man. The truth is though, when you’re at a Walmart in the fucking boonies and some pig fucker says “I thought you looked like you were from the islands” you smile more broadly, this helps you from saying stuff like “Go fuck yourself cracka!” which is important cause you don’t want to piss off the people of a small town. As a matter of fact I laughed and laughed, “The islands? Hahahahaha. Oh my.”, we smiled some more and then I gave him an idiot smile and JLWS waited for me to nut up on him and held her own awkward version of the idiot smile. Everyone seemed to ignore us. Maybe Stone Cold was helping us out. He threw out that Island reference and it fucked with the head of everyone in the store. Not willing to say anything else (I was sure that I would tell him to consider my cock in his ass when I butt fucked him out back), for fear it’d be an inappropriate statement. But he was charged up ready to play and so he went on to say something else but I countered with my large idiot grin and the one that gets them every fucking time “I feel you man. Yeah!” He turned to the checkout girl and asked her how old she was. She said she was 27 and he heehawed and made a big flirt of it until she told him she had a like a 11 year old and that’s when he about called her a whore, “I’m 32 and I don’t have any kids or a wife. 32. Man. You’re 27.”. She looked at him like she was insulted and he continued to emphasize how he still couldn’t believe she was 27 (not sure why cause she looked like she was 34), but he was not turned on by the mention of her being a single mom. He continued by looking at us and saying “She’s 27 and with child and I’m 32 and not”, we smiled some more, mentioned how we didn’t have kids either. He was such a pig fucker. Rincon was fun. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: mglenn EMAIL: deadroses5@yahoo.com IP: 24.255.7.219 URL: DATE: 05/11/2005 09:20:11 PM ahh yes. i remember why i don't live inthe south now. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: montie EMAIL: pumpkinbun@yahoo.com IP: 68.81.30.60 URL: DATE: 05/11/2005 10:36:18 PM Damn....the things I actually miss become sad to me. That was a hilarious story. I miss laughing at dumbfucks....redneck dumbfucks are a lot more entertaining than these philly idiots. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Pablo EMAIL: pablo@txtme.com IP: 68.223.127.149 URL: DATE: 05/12/2005 01:41:58 AM He was fucking nuts. But maybe he was sent there by God to save us from Jennifer talking shit about that great selection of religious crap we had the chance to peruse at Wal-Mart. ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: jlws EMAIL: jlw@sickpuppypress.com IP: 68.223.127.149 URL: DATE: 05/12/2005 01:56:02 AM Haha. So much funnier in the retelling. ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: XBOX 360 live video STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 05/13/2005 04:13:55 PM ----- BODY: If you missed the MTV special on the Xbox 360, here is an awesome video about the unit itself. click here This is a windows media presentation, so give it a second to buffer. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Saturday STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 05/14/2005 01:09:30 PM ----- BODY: British B Movie click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Return of the G STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: articles CATEGORY: articles DATE: 05/17/2005 02:50:02 PM ----- BODY: We haven't heard from Cyber Christ in a long while folks. He says blah. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Blah I hate it when I stop writing. Believe it or not, it's mostly because I have so much to write that it's not enough. Or invariably, because something that I committed to doing in a previous post didn't get done (like stopping with online gaming). I can't remember February or March. Nor much of April, for that matter. It's been basically the rat race. Looking forward to the next paycheck so that I can continue to pay for shit that ultimately doesn't do much for me. I've been overpaying for my car note in the hopes that I can catch up and get ahead on car payments and apparently it has done no good to have done so. 3 months of overpaying the car and I am still one month behind. I don't get it. Somewhere, the math is fucking me up. I don't know why, but lately I have been feeling my age and that for some reason, there is not much of an age left. That I need to either do things right now or forget it. Believe it or not, there is a part of me that wants to say that I should forget it and go back to the Skinner box and play more Warcraft. Yet, I am sure that I'd just end up back here again, as the wheel of Karma demands that I come back until I get it right. Oddly enough, I am close to getting it right. But getting it right is not a very happy thing. In fact, it's a very lonely place to be. You realize that you see the world as it really is and it is not like everyone said. That we get lied to by the people we trusted, and that it's only because they got lied to and they believed it. Going down the rabbit hole sucks and it's been rather depressing. You see the world as an outsider and it's a lonely, miserable thing. You see things that no one else does, and while they question my sanity, I end up questioning theirs for not seeing what's coming. Peak Oil. Age of Endless Wars. The disappearance of the Middle Class. The persecution of those who tell the truth on the Internet. 200,000 Iraqis dead because we went to war based on a lie. 911 lies. Oklahoma City lies. Waco lies. Ruby Ridge lies. USS Liberty lies. Vietnam lies. It never ends and there is never an apology. But worse of all, we just take it, like a dysfunctional pain addict. Cyber Christ writes occasionally at his own Blog. You can check it out by clicking here. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Survived the hump day. STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 0 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Keeping It Real CATEGORY: Keeping It Real DATE: 05/26/2005 09:51:16 AM ----- BODY: One thing for certain I don’t talk about shit if there aint nothing to talk about. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: I have said the first but not the second STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: Keeping It Real CATEGORY: Keeping It Real DATE: 05/26/2005 01:41:04 PM ----- BODY: Sarah White sent this to me in an email. "You know your husband watches too much survivor when... He calls you a bitch in the middle of the night....you ask him why, even though you realize that he's probably sleeping....and he tells you... "because you voted me off the island...." Yeah...a little too much reality TV goin on in my house!!!!" Too much Survivor is like any amount of Survivor at all. Give me a little Fear Factor on Monday. There is no commitment. Six people get together make asses out of themselves, eat nasty shit, and risk their lives, and one of them lucks out and wins about thirty g after taxes; that's entertaining. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: glennm05 TITLE: M Glenn's Treatise on Poetry STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: guest writer CATEGORY: guest writer DATE: 05/27/2005 09:40:01 AM ----- BODY: It should come flooding out through the fingertips as if you have severed a vein. ----- EXTENDED BODY: Don’t let it stop, feel the moment alive, let the synapses fire a barrage at the page. Beat the hell out of the typewriter if it feels right. Massage the keys if you feel sensuous. Carve the paper with a cheap Bic pen if you want to be certain 100% that what you’re saying is not bullshit. Each word should lead to the next by hugging it, kissing it, or punching it in the face. Sounds should be read aloud by the poet to make sure its not delusional genius. Each line should feel like it is the last one ever written by anyone and when it ends there should be either hope or betrayal. Keep the writing of it simple. If you use a PC write only in notepad or some other generic word processor. Keep the fluff for research papers, resumes, letters to editors and great manifestos of revolution. Poetry should not be dressed up while it is being born. It should arrive naked into the world and have to stand on its own. It should only be dressed between book covers when it is aged, mature and worthy. Mourn those lost poems while driving, eating, sleeping or unarmed only until you feel the loss touch your cheek. Like most things that live, they die and are replaced by new ones. Keep a pen and when the poem comes try to capture in whatever you can, but do not let go of the steering wheel. Rewriting is for comma placement and carving. If the poem does not look or feel like you intended think nothing of ending it, move on. The corpse will feed the next three or four and sooner or later the intended poem will come back with your eyes. There should be nothing regretted in poetry. When the poem is done leave it alone to breathe a few days. Let it walk around in the world and find its place. Reread and makes sure it was what you wanted. Check it for vital signs, clichés, abstract ideas. Inspect the margins for signs of wear or coming fractures. If it disappoints see the thoughts on rewriting. Steal whenever possible. Poetry is not a thing. It is a moment, a process, and a means to an end. It is not a guilded bird to be caged by academics and snobs and it does not care a wit for riches or stations in life. It’s in everything around you like God. The job of the poet should be to determine what is worth noting and where the beautiful, terrible, ugly and average things should go when no one else sees them. Never, ever do a reading at Starbucks. M Glenn From the desert ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: glennm05 TITLE: It’s not the fall that kills you… STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: guest writer CATEGORY: guest writer DATE: 05/28/2005 02:08:55 PM ----- BODY: ----- EXTENDED BODY: So the crane guy has been stunned into submission finally and all is well in the world again. click here. The last few days I have been watching this man up there, completely able to identify with him. Who hasn’t felt like they were on a crane, deciding where to go with their lives once the bottom fell out? I thought to myself yesterday, “If he was going to jump, really going to end his life, he would have done it within the first three hours or so.” Many will say, “What a bastard. You agree with him killing his girlfriend?” Hell no I don’t agree with it. I can understand his desperation behind the decision to climb the crane. I feel his emotions about being stuck in a horrible situation where you owe money to everyone, you feel alone, and life isn’t working like you thought or wanted it to. I’ve got a lot of chaos in my life as well. I have felt the bottom drop out of where I thought I was going. The difference between me and Crane Guy is I still have enough energy to keep pushing the agony into a nice deep hole. I know things get better eventually and I have seen things get better when the dark came on the strongest. I have made friends with the cold. Sooner or later, though, everyone runs out of energy. What kind of dreams must he have had up there in the wind? How hard was it to not jump? Cause it’s easy to jump. It’s easy to pull a trigger and escape life, most of the time. The really hard thing about life is coming down. The difference is one way has hope and one way ends in a wet splat. Sometimes people just need time to sort shit out, and sometimes it requires a piece of heavy equipment and an 18 story drop to concrete. ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- -------- AUTHOR: p10pablo TITLE: Great Slate Article on Lucas and Spielberg STATUS: Publish ALLOW COMMENTS: 1 CONVERT BREAKS: __default__ ALLOW PINGS: 0 PRIMARY CATEGORY: LINKS CATEGORY: LINKS DATE: 06/16/2005 10:50:55 AM ----- BODY: So I had this whole piece about Spielberg and Lucas being butt-buddies, and then followed it with lament for how maybe they should do more shit together. Then I started thinking about Jonathan Ke Quan and how Spielberg and Lucas both must have been plotting to end his career cause after the shitty movie that Temple of Doom was, and how they then went on (actually Lucas had nothing to do with this stinker) get Richard Donner to direct The Goonies. I think the highlight of that movie was Ke Quan having jet boots and both the Coreys being in it. Who fucking cares huh. It's a great article but my rambling was just that. click here. ----- EXTENDED BODY: ----- EXCERPT: ----- KEYWORDS: ----- COMMENT: AUTHOR: Lilpimpin EMAIL: l_pmp@pimping.com IP: 65.218.138.12 URL: DATE: 06/20/2005 01:05:55 PM Well we know it's cause everyone admires Irwin Kershner and disdains Lucas. http://archive.salon.com/ent/col/srag/1999/05/13/kershner/print.html Father figure Director Irvin Kershner, the unknown wizard behind "The Empire Strikes Back," talks about being Darth Vader, working with George Lucas and making the best "Star Wars" film. - - - - - - - - - - - - By Michael Sragow "I am your father," said Darth Vader to Luke Skywalker in "The Empire Strikes Back" -- a soul-quaking revelation that set the stage not just for "Return of the Jedi" but also for the new "Star Wars" prequel trilogy that begins May 19 with "The Phantom Menace." The man who first gave life to those words wasn't David Prowse, the bodybuilder inside Vader's armor, or James Earl Jones, the actor who lent the character his voice. It was the director of the film, Irvin Kershner, who recorded a temporary vocal track that Jones says catalyzed his performance in "Empire." Kershner's passionate approach to the acting and framing of the "Star Wars" characters made his entry unique. When I interviewed him last week in his airy, modest canyon home -- "a treehouse," he calls it -- on the fringe of Beverly Hills, he was surprised that anyone would find this anecdote noteworthy. For on "The Empire Strikes Back," Kershner simply did what he'd done before, on "The Hoodlum Priest" (1961), "The Luck of Ginger Coffey" (1964), "Loving" (1970), "Up the Sandbox" (1972), "The Return of a Man Called Horse" (1976), TV's "Raid on Entebbe" (1977) and "The Eyes of Laura Mars" (1978) -- toss his characters into risky dilemmas and use all the tools at his disposal to explore and dramatize them. A juicy thespian himself (check out his cameo in "The Last Temptation of Christ" as Zebedee, a saturnine comic foil to the Messiah), he takes a moment to savor his impersonation of Vader. "You have learned much, young one! Your destiny lies with me, Skywalker," he exclaims in a breathy sort of bellow. The lines fit his own theatrical presence. At age 76, he's tall, bald and goateed, with the glinting eyes of a benign Mephistopheles. But then he immediately segues into the directorial challenges of the climactic scene. With "Star Wars" scuttlebutt at a premium in pre-Internet 1979, Kershner was under orders to keep Vader's paternity from everyone except Mark Hamill's Skywalker. Not even David Prowse knew about the secret; Kershner had to guide his movements to fit the underlying action. When Prowse discovered at the premiere that Vader was Skywalker's father, he nudged the director and joked, "If you'd have told me, I would have played it different!" "The Empire Strikes Back" had a tough shoot. A fire at the Elstree Studios in England and catastrophic weather in Norway prompted last-minute rescheduling; the fluctuating value of the pound caused the budget to balloon. The Directors Guild and the Writers Guild fined Lucas for placing Kershner's and the writers' credits at the end of the movie while keeping the Lucasfilm Ltd. logo up front. (Lucas resigned from the Directors Guild, making it impossible for him to hire an American director for "Jedi.") Producer Gary Kurtz ended his association with Lucas shortly afterward. And though some reviewers dubbed the film a masterpiece of fantasy, others waxed nostalgic for the lighter tone and toy-land cornucopia of Lucas' own "Star Wars." But "Empire" is now accepted as the richest, eeriest and most daring episode in the series. And when the director of "Return of the Jedi," Briton Richard Marquand, died in 1987, Kershner became the only living director besides Lucas to know the pressure and ecstasy of directing a "Star Wars" movie. "George said, 'Don't worry about the fact that you don't know special effects. What I want you to do is think up the shots ... Then we'll let the boys figure out a way to do it. That way it's a challenge for them, and we'll do stuff that hasn't been seen.' So I didn't censor myself -- I didn't stop to consider, 'How are we going to get 50 men racing across snow with monsters chasing them and things blowing up?'" Kershner spent several hours a day for a year storyboarding the action himself, getting his perspective on each scene and delineating its motion. At the same time, artists at Lucasfilm and the Industrial Light and Magic effects shop, notably Ralph McQuarrie ("a genius!" says Kershner), were making beautiful, detailed renderings of sets, costumes and effects. Kershner tried to key his drawings to their work, then handed over his sketches to Lucas' storyboard artist for a brilliant polish. It's the Lucasfilm and ILM sketches and paintings that survive in volumes like "The Art of Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back," leading casual readers to believe that Kershner merely followed tracks laid out for him. No wonder Kershner says, "According to the books, I didn't even exist. Of course, I couldn't have made the movie without George and ILM; on the other hand, they couldn't have made that movie without me." Kershner's respect for Lucas has never wavered; it dates back to his boy wonder days. When Kershner was giving seminars at USC, what impressed him was a short picture Lucas made called "6.18.67," about the filming of an expensive Hollywood western, "MacKenna's Gold." "George's film was different from what anybody else had done," Kershner says. "First of all, he shot these extreme long shots of the little tiny group of filmmakers with their umbrellas way in the distance against the mountains -- nobody does that. He really shot a picture that was his vision. And boy you look for it, especially in Americans. I see it much more with Europeans and Japanese and Chinese -- a vision. Not just a bunch of pictures all put together with people talking, but a way of seeing. My theory is that the artist is primarily an observer, and one of the problems with modern art is that there's no observation -- the artists observe each other, they observe each other's paintings. Perception has to be developed, that's where depth comes in. I don't see it much with American directors. The reason is we don't reward it -- it's as simple as that. You do something highly personal, really different, it will either not be understood by the executives it has to go through, or will be considered noncommercial, which is to bring hell down upon you." In the early '70s, Warner Brothers production chief John Calley asked Kershner to screen Lucas' Orwellian debut feature, "THX 1138" (an expansion of his student film, "THX 1138:4EB"), which other